"Where do you think you're going?" Madeline asked me as I stepped out of the hotel bathroom. I had just gotten done showering and straightening my hair. I was dressed in another set of pajamas I had: v-neck cami and grey lace boxer-style mini shorts. I did barely anything to my makeup, just a light shimmer grey shadow and black eyeliner.

Pajamas:

I was excited, nervous, and really wanted to get out of the hotel room before my family interrogated me.

"Have fun having the bed to yourself tonight." I said to my cousin as I packed my Coach tote with my contact case, glasses, contact solution, iPad, and iPhone.

"By myself? What?" Madeline asked as she watched me slide on my black flip-flops.

Vinny gasped. "Natalia Nicoletta, I swear to God if you are going to-"

I scoffed. "I'm not doing that, Vincent! Top just wants me to sleep over." I couldn't help but smile as I said that. TOP wanted me to sleep in his bed. Me.

"Nat..." Vinny sighed again.

I looked at my brother. "Trust, me, okay? I'm not going to do anything stupid. This isn't like me and Elliot's 'sleepovers'." Whenever I told my mom I was going to "spend the night" at Madeline and Brett's, while Elliot and I were dating, I was actually going over to Elliot's, and, well, we'd do the alternative to sleeping.

"Yeah, and besides, they can't do anything because BIGBANG would hear it." Madeline snickered.

I grabbed a nearby pillow and chucked it at her face. "Besides, it's not your need-to-know even if he and I did do something." I looked at my twin. "And you have no room to talk, Mr. I'll-sleep-around-with-every-girl-on-my-sister's-basketball-team."

"Hey." Vinny rose up a hand. "I didn't do that Mary chick. She looked too much like a dude and I didn't want to find out what she was hiding."

I winced and shook my head. After our weightloss in high school, my brother had been famous for.... "deflowering" some of the girls in our grade, including most of my friends. It was disturbing.

I shouldered my bag and looked at my cousin and twin. "Bye, guys."

"Use protection if you have to!" Madeline called after me.

"Mom and dad only need one Asian grandson right now!" Vinny added.

"Shut it!" I snapped.

I walked out of our room and shook my head and groaned. We weren't going to do the ultimate. I had no intentions to, and I didn't think TOP did, ether.

Still... I wanted to do something. I hoped he did, too. We could run a few bases, maybe get to second base...

I shook my head. Oh my God who was I right now? I was never this forward, not even with Elliot or AJ.

At BIGBANG's suite, I knocked on the door and waited.

TOP answered the door, dressed in a hoodie and sweats. He looked freshly showered, too, and his damp hair was covering his forehead so cutely.

That's when I froze. Was I really doing this? I wasn't this type of girl.

"Now I can sleep peacefully." TOP sighed happily, pulling me into the suite. He shut the door quietly behind me. "Jiyong and Youngbae are already asleep. Maybe if we're quiet enough, Seungri and Daesung won't-"

"Hey, sweetheart!" I head Seungri say from the living area.

TOP groaned. "Or not."

I walked into the living area. where Seungri and Daesung were watching TV.

"Yeobo!" Daesung smiled brightly.

"Hey, guys." I smiled weakly. What would they think of me?

"We're going to sleep." TOP grabbed my wrist and led me to another door.

"Yeobo's staying?" Daesung asked, turning on the couch to look at us.

"Whoah!" Seungri chuckled, then said something in Korean.

TOP scoffed. "Aniyo.... You're so stupid, maknae. Goodnight."

"Baby goodnight." Seungri sang GD&TOP's song, smirking at us as if he knew something.

"Jibe kajima, baby!" Daesung added.

TOP groaned as he opened his door, and i giggled uncomfortably.

We walked into his room and I couldn't help but look around after I set my bag on a chair. I saw his iPhone hooked into a Beats Speaker, so to calm myself down, I walked over to it and looked through his songs.

Was I really going ot inititate this?

I chose a Se7en song, but snorted when I accidently pressed Make Good Love instead of That Guy.

That was awkward.

TOP laughed, too, and walked over to me. "Interesting song choice, I must say."

"My finger slipped." I giggled, trying not to jump out of my skin when I felt TOP's arms wrap around me from behind. He put his chin on my shoulder and watched me as I switched the song to Se7en's That Guy.

"Didn't know you were a fan of Se7en," TOP told me, his lips dangerously close to my ear. "I didn't see any of his posters in your room."

I scoffed and turned around in his arms, pushing him lightly. "Shut up."

TOP laughed, then sighed contently. He dipped his head down so he rested his forehead against my neck, head on my shoulder again. "Thank you for coming over." He murmered.

I really wanted to shiver, but stopped myself. His lips were too close to my collar bone.

"You aren't the only one who wants a cuddle buddy." I replied instead.

"How many more dates do I have to take you out on until you'e perminantly mine?" TOP asked, bringing his head back up to look at me.

Mine as in cuddle buddy, or mine as in his girlfriend?

I took this opportunity to smile at him and my head to the side. "I still need to test out a few things."

"Oh yeah?" TOP chuckled. His hands went down to my hips, and his thumbs pushed up my tight cami a little bit. He rubbed my hips with his thumbs. It was such an innocent move, but... It made me wanting more.

I put my arms around his neck. "Yep."

TOP smiled and closed the space in between us, kissing me sotly like he always did.

Well, I guess I would need to initiate it.

When I felt him begin to pull away, I kept one hand on the back of his neck, the other going to grip the front of his hoodie. I felt him smile through our kiss. I knew he loved it when I gripped the front of his shirt while we kissed.

I didn't want anything to be too obvious. We were still in the early stages of whatever we were.

But, come on. This was TOP. I should jump at chances like this. Who didn't want to make out with him?

Okay, I was too scared to go any further. I had been barely a month since all of this started. We wanted to take things slow. If TOP wasn't inititating to go any further, then maybe there was a reason to why he didn't.

So, instead of doing anything to show him that I did want to go a little further, I ended our kiss.

TOP was all smiles, his cocky, small, closed-lipped smile. "So how was that test? Did I pass?"

I thought for a moment, my hair falling over one shoulder as I bit my lip. "Well, if you want me to be honest..." I joked.

TOP tossed his head back and laughed. He looked at me, took one hand off of my hip, and brushed his thumb on my bottom lip to remove it from my teeth. "Well, I'll try to improve for next time."

I smiled, but then squealed and laughed loudly when TOP wrapped his arms around my waist to pick me up in a tight hug, and make us both fall onto the bed.

There was a pound on the wall closest to TOP. "Are you kidding me? Hyung.... I don't want to hear that!" Seungri shouted on the other side of the wall, muffled and faint.

TOP laughed and kicked the wall. "Yah! Then listen to music!"

"Oh my God..." I whined, covering my face. Everyone just needed to calm down.

TOP laughed and put his arms tighter around me. "Goodnight." He sighed, placing his chin on top of my head.

I tried looking at him. "Really?"

"I'm kidding." TOP chuckled. I could feel the movement in his chest, and I loved it.

He let go of me and I sat up. I grabbed my bag and changed from my contacts to my glasses.

TOP looked at me. "You actually have to wear those?"

I nodded. "Me and my brother have awful eyesight. I chose the frames, though."

I regretted not bring a hoodie to throw on over my tank top. It was cold in here with the air conditioning.

"You cold?" TOP asked, noticing the fact I was rubbing my arms with my hands.

I nodded.

"Will you freak out if I give you my sweatshirt?" TOP chuckled and watched me.

"I will if you're shirtless under it." I scoffed, then looked at his expression. My eyes widened a  little. "Oh my God... you're shirtless under it, aren't you?"

TOP smiled shyly and shrugged. "You'll just have to find out."

I watched him. Was he really willing to be shirtless in front of me? We weren't even dating. This was a big deal. No fan had ever seen TOP shirtless. It was rare for BIGBANG to even see it. He had been heavier when he was younger, we all knew that. He had to have some sort of complex.

"Are you sure?" I asked slowly. This was really serious for him. The anxiety in my own mind and heart were filling up.

TOP nodded and stood. "I trust you, Natalia. You're the one who wants to take things slow, remember?"

I sat down at the edge of the bed and looked at him. "But... you don't date. I'm sorry if I offend you but Koreans are conservative, right? How could you be so comfortable around me already?"

TOP shrugged. "There's something about you, Natalia. I'm just comfortable around you with these things. I don't know what it is." He laughed. "Now do you want my shirt or not?"

I nodded slowly, but held up my hand. "I'm not watching because you'll probably get a fangirl reaction." Despite the inner VIP in me wanting to watch what was about to happen. I covered my eyes with my hands.

TOP laughed that y laugh I loved and sent shivers down my spine. I heard him move, then I flinched when I felt his hoodie tossed at me.

Keeping my eyes shut, I pulled the hoodie on over my head. I couldn't help but breathe in deeply, taking in the delicious scent that was TOP.

"Are you going to look at me?" TOP chuckled, noticing my eyes were still closed.

I didn't know if I could do this. It was TOP, my bias, who had never been shirtless and even rarely wore t-shirts. "Y-yeah. Just give me a second."

"I didn't freak out when you had to be in your underwear in front of me." TOP reminded me.

"That's because I wasn't willing and you didn't have feelings for me back then."

"How do you know?" TOP asked. I heard him step towards me, and then I felt his hands lightly take my hands from my face. I kept my eyes closed. "Natalia, I know this is a big deal for you, and it is for me, too. Come on." I felt his hand brush my face lightly, landing to cup my cheek gently.

I took a breath. I could do this. Hadn't I been wanting to see this?

I opened my eyes, and the first thing I saw was TOP's face, so that was okay.

"That wasn't so hard, now, was it?" TOP chuckled softly.

I shook my head, and felt like such a ert when my eyes dipped down a little.

God, those collar bones were so y... I didn't know that was possible, but on him it was breathtaking.

I looked back at TOP. "There. Everything's fine." Okay, I didn't even look at his abs or chest, but that was fine with me. Okay, it wasn't fine, but I didn't want to make him uncomfortable.

TOP chuckled. "I can tell it's taking all of your strength to just look at my face." He stood and walked over to the dresser to turn off his iPhone music.

Okay, I may have gasped. It may have sounded like a squeal. The fangirl had come out of me.

HIS BODY.

I really wasn't expecting it to look like this. I wasn't expecting any muscle definition or anything.

But... G-Dragon wasn't lying when he said TOP had the body of an Italian sculpture.

Okay, okay... It wasn't that intense, but still. He had the back and shoulder muscles. The ridges in his arms were definitely there, and when he turned around, Oh mio Dio....

He really was a God.

I'll admit he wasn't as built as Taeyang and Daesung, but he definitely had more abs and pecs than Jiyong, and even was giving Seungri a run for his money. 

TOP had abs. I could totally see his abs.

"And that's the reaction I was waiting for." TOP chuckled and sat next to me.

"I'm sorry." I blurted. "I just... you had to expect that from me. It's just...." I looked at him. "Why don't you do any shirtless photo shoots or take off your jacket during the concert?

TOP shrugged. "I work out for my health, not to show off my body. I've been working at it harder because I am afraid that YG will tell me I have to do a photo shoot like that now since we're in America." He looked at me. "This is new to me. You're the first girl to see me like this in a long time. I don't even let the makeup and stylist noonas see."

I was really touched by this. The fact he trusted me to see him like this...

I couldn't help it. I turned to look at him and instead of him putting his hands on my cheeks to kiss me, I put my hands on his and leaned in. I kissed him hard on the mouth. It was the only way I could show him that I really appreciated him sharing this with me.

He kissed me back whole-heartedly, and I parted from him.

I took my hands from his face, and TOP tucked a piece of my straight hair behind my ear. "I think it's about time we go to sleep."

We both got settled in bed, and TOP didn't even give me a chance to feel awkward because as soon as we were under the blankets, he put his arms around me so my back was molded against his front.

He sighed against my neck. "This is the best thing you could do for me right now. Thank you."

My stomach felt all warm and fuzzy when his hands were against my bared abs because my cami had bunched up a little, and his hands were underneath his hoodie I was wearing. It wasn't a touch indicating he wanted anything; I knew he just enjoyed having someone to hold.

I took one of his hands and linked my fingers between his before I shut my eyes.

It was nice being held by him, too.

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Okay, I'll admit: I almost, ALMOST made this into a makeout/ chapter xD But, after a lot of debating, I decided it was way too early for that. But, I really wanted to add in the TOP-shirtless part to show how much he trusts Natalia. And, Natalia's reaction would be how I would react xD I wouldn't be able to look at first and when I did, I would've gasped. Maybe even cried, but who knows xD Maybe one day! *hopeless-fangirl-praying*