“I love you, please be with me.”

Those words made me swoon over a man for the first time in my life. Seungho, he made me love him, a man.

I remembered the day he confessed to me. It was unexpected to say the least. Never in my life had I thought that Seungho, our leader was in love with me, a boy. I believed that it was just a silly prank at first but the sincerity of his eyes said the other.

For the whole week after he said those words I busied myself thinking and questioning my uality, my preference. And finally after a hell of a week, I realized that I play on the other team. I like boys, NO let me rephrase that, to say that I like boys was probably not entirely true, I like Seungho. ONLY him.

I still like girls but liking Seungho was a whole lot different as in on a different level. He is special. I love him more than I love big ies and .

His confession crumpled my entire life....ruined my entire existence. But not even a day, a second that I thought that it was a bad thing, because I finally found happiness. And it's him.

My first male lover... and maybe my last and forever. 

He is the best thing that happened to me. 

That’s what I thought... before he betrayed me.