A few days have passed since Hankyung left. I sat lifeless on my bed. I haven't spoke to anyone since that incident. I barely ate and I only stayed in my room. It felt as if a part of me just disappeared.

Eunhyuk came into the room, I sat motionless.

" Alexis?" he said in a calm voice.

I stared at him blankly.

" You know, you shouldn't be like this, this isn't good for you!" he shouted.

I ignored him and laid my head on my pillow.

" I can't take this anymore..." he muttered to himself and left the room.

I got back up, got out of bed and walked towards my picture frames. There was one that hung on the wall, it was a picture of me and Super Junior together.

A tear fell down my face as I took it off the wall and took the picture out of the frame. I looked at it closely. All of their smiling faces, pierce my heart. To think, that they were all happy once. That's exactly why I didn't want to become famous. Because, at some point of your career you lose your smile. And the hardest part is finding it again. Most of Super Junior lost it by now, including Hankyung. I lost it too... A long time ago...

I grabbed my scissors and started cutting out Hankyung's face from the picture. My tears fell down my face like crazy.

" I promised that I'd forget you..." I whispered. I put his head in the garbage, put the picture back in the frame and hung it on the wall. I stared at it for a moment. I looked down at the floor, wiped my tears away, took a deep breath.

" I'm done here." I said and left the room.

I walked towards the kitchen. Kyuhyun was on the computer, Ryeowook, Yesung, Sungmin and Eunhyuk were in the kitchen. When they saw me, their eyes widened. Kyuhyun got up and came closer to me.

" You okay?" he asked.

I nodded. I'm ready to get my mind off of things now...

I heard Sungmin whisper something like: " ... let's not tell her about this yet ..." I looked at him confused and he gave me a nervous smile.

I fixed myself some breakfast, the guys were looking at me surprised.

Eunhyuk whispered: " She's back..."

I smiled weakly and ate my breakfast.

***

I got what I wished for. Eric booked my schedule tightly. And so I've been working really hard. At least it took my mind off of things... Right?

I haven't seen Kangin and Kibum for a while now... It was kind of weird...

" Alexis... We need to talk." Leeteuk said. I followed him to his dorm. Everyone had a solemn look that I recognised all too well...

" Something happened again, huh?" I asked depressingly.

Leeteuk didn't say anything and nodded.

Heechul got up and looked at me in the eyes.

" Kangin... Left for the military. And Kibum... Well he's pursuing his acting career." he finally said.

I looked down and clenched my fists, fighting back my tears. I silently walked out of the house, and out of the building. But this time, instead of walking towards the secret garden, I walked towards another park.

I walked in the darkness, up some stairs, and walked towards a corner. I flipped a switch and the whole park was illuminated. I was in the white gazebo. I sat on the little white bench and cried my heart out once again. More people that I cared about left. Being famous is like a curse.

I heard some footsteps and raised my head up. Kibum was standing in front of me.  He walked towards me silent, he brought me closer to him and as his lips touched mine he simply vanished. Great... Now I'm seeing ghosts...

I cried for a while. Kibum, he wasn't supposed to leave either. I guess he was my last hope of smiling again... Kangin and Kibum... Both just gone in an instant.

***

I was in my room, I took the picture with Super Junior and me in it. I looked at the blank space where Hankyung used to be. I cut out Kangin and Kibum's head. I hung the picture back on the wall. I looked at it in despair. I let out a big sigh and went to bed, tears fell down my cheeks.

What do I do now?

A few days have passed since Hankyung left. I sat lifeless on my bed. I haven't spoke to anyone since that incident. I barely ate and I only stayed in my room. It felt as if a part of me just disappeared.

Eunhyuk came into the room, I sat motionless.

" Alexis?" he said in a calm voice.

I stared at him blankly.

" You know, you shouldn't be like this, this isn't good for you!" he shouted.

I ignored him and laid my head on my pillow.

" I can't take this anymore..." he muttered to himself and left the room.

I got back up, got out of bed and walked towards my picture frames. There was one that hung on the wall, it was a picture of me and Super Junior together.

A tear fell down my face as I took it off the wall and took the picture out of the frame. I looked at it closely. All of their smiling faces, pierce my heart. To think, that they were all happy once. That's exactly why I didn't want to become famous. Because, at some point of your career you lose your smile. And the hardest part is finding it again. Most of Super Junior lost it by now, including Hankyung. I lost it too... A long time ago...

I grabbed my scissors and started cutting out Hankyung's face from the picture. My tears fell down my face like crazy.

" I promised that I'd forget you..." I whispered. I put his head in the garbage, put the picture back in the frame and hung it on the wall. I stared at it for a moment. I looked down at the floor, wiped my tears away, took a deep breath.

" I'm done here." I said and left the room.

I walked towards the kitchen. Kyuhyun was on the computer, Ryeowook, Yesung, Sungmin and Eunhyuk were in the kitchen. When they saw me, their eyes widened. Kyuhyun got up and came closer to me.

" You okay?" he asked.

I nodded. I'm ready to get my mind off of things now...

I heard Sungmin whisper something like: " ... let's not tell her about this yet ..." I looked at him confused and he gave me a nervous smile.

I fixed myself some breakfast, the guys were looking at me surprised.

Eunhyuk whispered: " She's back..."

I smiled weakly and ate my breakfast.

***

I got what I wished for. Eric booked my schedule tightly. And so I've been working really hard. At least it took my mind off of things... Right?

I haven't seen Kangin and Kibum for a while now... It was kind of weird...

" Alexis... We need to talk." Leeteuk said. I followed him to his dorm. Everyone had a solemn look that I recognised all too well...

" Something happened again, huh?" I asked depressingly.

Leeteuk didn't say anything and nodded.

Heechul got up and looked at me in the eyes.

" Kangin... Left for the military. And Kibum... Well he's pursuing his acting career." he finally said.

I looked down and clenched my fists, fighting back my tears. I silently walked out of the house, and out of the building. But this time, instead of walking towards the secret garden, I walked towards another park.

I walked in the darkness, up some stairs, and walked towards a corner. I flipped a switch and the whole park was illuminated. I was in the white gazebo. I sat on the little white bench and cried my heart out once again. More people that I cared about left. Being famous is like a curse.

I heard some footsteps and raised my head up. Kibum was standing in front of me.  He walked towards me silent, he brought me closer to him and as his lips touched mine he simply vanished. Great... Now I'm seeing ghosts...

I cried for a while. Kibum, he wasn't supposed to leave either. I guess he was my last hope of smiling again... Kangin and Kibum... Both just gone in an instant.

***

I was in my room, I took the picture with Super Junior and me in it. I looked at the blank space where Hankyung used to be. I cut out Kangin and Kibum's head. I hung the picture back on the wall. I looked at it in despair. I let out a big sigh and went to bed, tears fell down my cheeks.

What do I do now?

A few days have passed since Hankyung left. I sat lifeless on my bed. I haven't spoke to anyone since that incident. I barely ate and I only stayed in my room. It felt as if a part of me just disappeared.

Eunhyuk came into the room, I sat motionless.

" Alexis?" he said in a calm voice.

I stared at him blankly.

" You know, you shouldn't be like this, this isn't good for you!" he shouted.

I ignored him and laid my head on my pillow.

" I can't take this anymore..." he muttered to himself and left the room.

I got back up, got out of bed and walked towards my picture frames. There was one that hung on the wall, it was a picture of me and Super Junior together.

A tear fell down my face as I took it off the wall and took the picture out of the frame. I looked at it closely. All of their smiling faces, pierce my heart. To think, that they were all happy once. That's exactly why I didn't want to become famous. Because, at some point of your career you lose your smile. And the hardest part is finding it again. Most of Super Junior lost it by now, including Hankyung. I lost it too... A long time ago...

I grabbed my scissors and started cutting out Hankyung's face from the picture. My tears fell down my face like crazy.

" I promised that I'd forget you..." I whispered. I put his head in the garbage, put the picture back in the frame and hung it on the wall. I stared at it for a moment. I looked down at the floor, wiped my tears away, took a deep breath.

" I'm done here." I said and left the room.

I walked towards the kitchen. Kyuhyun was on the computer, Ryeowook, Yesung, Sungmin and Eunhyuk were in the kitchen. When they saw me, their eyes widened. Kyuhyun got up and came closer to me.

" You okay?" he asked.

I nodded. I'm ready to get my mind off of things now...

I heard Sungmin whisper something like: " ... let's not tell her about this yet ..." I looked at him confused and he gave me a nervous smile.

I fixed myself some breakfast, the guys were looking at me surprised.

Eunhyuk whispered: " She's back..."

I smiled weakly and ate my breakfast.

***

I got what I wished for. Eric booked my schedule tightly. And so I've been working really hard. At least it took my mind off of things... Right?

I haven't seen Kangin and Kibum for a while now... It was kind of weird...

" Alexis... We need to talk." Leeteuk said. I followed him to his dorm. Everyone had a solemn look that I recognised all too well...

" Something happened again, huh?" I asked depressingly.

Leeteuk didn't say anything and nodded.

Heechul got up and looked at me in the eyes.

" Kangin... Left for the military. And Kibum... Well he's pursuing his acting career." he finally said.

I looked down and clenched my fists, fighting back my tears. I silently walked out of the house, and out of the building. But this time, instead of walking towards the secret garden, I walked towards another park.

I walked in the darkness, up some stairs, and walked towards a corner. I flipped a switch and the whole park was illuminated. I was in the white gazebo. I sat on the little white bench and cried my heart out once again. More people that I cared about left. Being famous is like a curse.

I heard some footsteps and raised my head up. Kibum was standing in front of me.  He walked towards me silent, he brought me closer to him and as his lips touched mine he simply vanished. Great... Now I'm seeing ghosts...

I cried for a while. Kibum, he wasn't supposed to leave either. I guess he was my last hope of smiling again... Kangin and Kibum... Both just gone in an instant.

***

I was in my room, I took the picture with Super Junior and me in it. I looked at the blank space where Hankyung used to be. I cut out Kangin and Kibum's head. I hung the picture back on the wall. I looked at it in despair. I let out a big sigh and went to bed, tears fell down my cheeks.

What do I do now?