Kai’s POV

“Where are you keys?” I asked Aemi.

She was completely wasted and I was carrying her back to her house. I didn’t see another car so I assume that her boyfriend was not home. She mumbled incoherent words under her breath and impatient, I searched her jean pocket with difficulty. Eventually, I found the keys and opened the door. I didn’t know where her room was. I was walking around the house and when I finally walked around the house twice, I realized that there was only one room.

“Now that… just pisses me off” I muttered to myself.

Placing her on the bed, I took her ASH suede boots off and then proceeded to take off her Burberry trench coat off. She continued to mumble things to herself and when I brushed a few strands of hair from her face, she was crying. Wiping away her tears with my thumb, I laid her head on the pillow and pulled the blankets over her. I was ready to leave but she tugged on the corner of my jacket in protest.

“…Can you not leave me?” she cried silently.

“When have I ever?” I answered her and sat on the ground next to her bed.

“You always leave me… Because you’re not mine to begin with… Because I have Sehun… and you have Jihyun”

“Then you want me to yourself?”

She turned her body to face me. Her eyes opened and we stared at each other as if we could reach each other’s mind. I knew from the beginning that she felt the same way as I did. Her confession to me, it wasn’t something unexpected. Deep down, I knew my love wasn’t one- sided. She’s just better at restraining herself.

“What I want, I can’t have” she replied as she touched the side of my face.

Looking at her, I felt even more helpless. Uncle was dying. Jihyun knows. Aemi is a mess. And me? I’m a puppet. I have nowhere to go because I don’t have a choice. I am told what to do and what choice do I really have but to abide? There was never going to be a happy ending for Aemi and I. I think I realized that before and that’s what made me even more proactive about my feelings. Of course, behind close doors.

I was lost in a train of thoughts. I didn’t even notice Aemi get out of her bed. She was seated right in front of me and she looked oddly sober. “You aren’t really drunk, are you?” I questioned her.

She crawled closer to me and with her hands on the ground surrounding my body, I felt a little startled. I leaned back but only to touch the wall behind me. I looked at her in confusion before she spoke.

“I want you… so badly” she whispered loud enough for me to hear.

She glanced at me once more before she retreated back to her original seating position, which was two feet in front of me.

“I feel like I shouldn’t have been your drinking buddy. You’re going to wake up to a massive headache tomorrow” I commented as I stood up.

“Let’s not meet anymore until the wedding” she said as she followed suit.

“What are you talking about?” I asked confused.

“We clearly are losing our minds. We need to stop before I lose my sanity. You need to treat Unnie better. Let’s all go back to the way things were”

“We barely started! What do you mean go back?!?”

I was quite upset with her. I don’t know if she is just muttering nonsense or she means it but she surely knows how to make me upset.

“Damn it Kai! He’s dying. Can’t you grant an old man’s wish? After all that he’s done for you, would a little retribution be bad?”

“I know! Stop repeating it!” I yelled back.

“I know he’s someone important to you but don’t deny it. I’ve done that and look at where it got me”

I looked away as the truth was once again sinking into my head. Aemi must’ve got wind of my changed behavior because she touched my arm gently to get my attention and cupped my face with her hands as she directed my face to her.

“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have been so harsh on you. The news must be just as hard for you as it is for me. I’m sorry for my insensitivity” she laughed bitterly.

“We can’t deny Kai. So let’s move on. Okay?”

I didn’t respond but I just watched her.

“Are you still mad at me?”

I didn’t respond right away and before she could ask me something else, I answered her previous question.

“Make it go away… even if it’s temporary” I asked her

She knew what I wanted. She placed her lips on mine without hesitation. Her lips tasted bittersweet and salty both from the beer and the tears. I pulled her in closer when my arms wrapped around her waist. We were both two broken hearted people. Two people that were lost in their lives. Two people that had no options. We were driven to the edge. This just happens to be our way of relieving the pain… even if it’s just temporary. What we didn’t expect was a certain person’s appearance.

“What do you think you are doing right now?” 

So updated in celebration for Growl's third win. I am sorry that I have not updated in about ten days. I have been busy with MOAO. This ff is officially going to end in about five chapters or so. AND sorry for the short update. It's midnight and I'm so tired! smiles =)