The next day I spent with Super Junior at their dance studio and watched them practise for their next comeback. But of course they weren’t pleased with me only watching. Sigh...

“Melissa you should dance too!” Eunhyuk exclaimed after about two hours into the practise

“No, I’ll leave that to the pro’s, I at dancing” I told them but he wasn’t convinced

“I don’t believe you, come on!” he insisted but I shook my head

“Seriously Eunhyuk, I don’t know a single dance step, I attended one dance lesson at Julliard and after that never more” I said and he frowned

“You don’t even know how to dance like foxtrot or something like that?” he asked me and I shook my head

“Nope, I told you I at dancing”

“Well that won’t do, I’ll teach you some basic ballroom dance steps, Donghae, come here, she’ll need a partner” Eunhyuk then said and I looked at him surprised. I was going to dance with Donghae? Oh god... He was the most beautiful of them and I don’t know there was something between the two of us after yesterday.

“Sure” Donghae replied and went up to me and grabbed my left hand in his, placed my right hand on his shoulder and placed his right hand around my waist, that didn’t feel all too bad, the warmth from his body felt really good to be honest. When we were in the right position Eunhyuk started to instruct us. It went pretty good actually, till I fell to the floor. I stayed there and looked at Eunhyuk who was laughing and I pouted

“I told you I at dancing” I said

“Aaaaaw, you’re so cute, I’ll let you off for now, but there will be more dancing lessons in the future” he told me

“Over my dead body” I exclaimed and everybody burst into laughter

One week went and I really enjoyed working with Super Junior so far, they distracted me from my sad thoughts to be honest. They never failed to make me laugh and smile. It was like you couldn’t be sad when you were around them! One day we were in the studio recording some vocals for a new song and it was starting to get really late. The boys needed to sleep so they went home one after one and after a while there was only me and Donghae left, how that now happened. I sat on a sofa with my legs crossed and observed Donghae who was sitting on the floor writing some lyrics. He looked very concentrated and I caught myself finding it very cute.

“Are you alive down there?” I asked him and he looked up at me and grinned

“Yeah, sorry for being so boring” he told me and I just shook my head

“Don’t worry about it, I like peace and silence at times” I said and he chuckled and rose but I saw him rub his temples and his face twisted in pain. He had been sitting in a bad position for the back for a long time so it wasn’t surprising that he felt pain in the head

“Headache?” I asked him and he nodded and sat down on the sofa next to me

“Yeah” he replied and frowned

“It’s probably from your neck and back” I told him and reached out my hands and started to massage his neck, he was taken a bit by surprise by my actions but soon relaxed under my touch “You’re probably tired too” I continued and he nodded and I kept on massaging him for another while, when I stopped he turned to look at me smiling

“Thanks” he said

“Any time, I know how it is to have that kind of headache, believe me, I really do” I said and he yawned “You should go home and sleep” I continued but he shook his head

“Too tired to move, I’ll just sleep here” he said and then I saw how his eyes started to close and soon he collapsed an fell down with his head on my lap, I didn’t dare to move so I just made myself comfortable, texted Gabbi that I wouldn’t be coming home and then I fell asleep as well with him having his head on my lap. I would be lying if I said that I didn’t like it, it felt good to be honest.

The next morning I woke up and Donghae was still sleeping with his head on my lap, I didn’t want to wake him up so I just sat there and observed him. Maybe he was something for me? He was very beautiful but he wasn’t only that, he was also very loving and caring and seemed like a guy that would do anything for his girlfriend. He simply seemed like very good boyfriend material. Then I saw how Donghae slowly opened his eyes, he looked a bit surprised when the first thing he saw was me looking down at him. He yawned and got himself up from my lap and looked at me confused

“I fell asleep on your lap?” he asked me and I nodded and he blushed a bit

“Yes and I didn’t have the heart to wake you up, but I didn’t mind so don’t worry” I told him and he smiled a heart melting smile, I understand why he has so many fans.

“Thank you so much” he said and then he gave me a tight hug

“Do you have any schedules today?” I asked and he nodded

“We’re going to continue with the recording so I guess the guys will be here soon” he said and then he put away a strand of hair from my face behind my ear, I shuddered under his touch, that seemed like a good sign or? Who knows, maybe Lee Donghae is for me?

The following three weeks I followed Super Junior everywhere they went, dance practise, recording, lunch, shopping, interviews, gym, well everywhere, and I got closer and closer to all of the guys day by day. They really didn’t treat me like their assistant, they treated me like their sister, and it really felt like I was a part of their family. So far I had gotten closest to Yesung, Siwon and Donghae though even if I was close to all of them.

One day Super Junior was in the dance studio it was around 8pm and they were far from being finished. I watched them with amazement, they we’re so good at what they were doing. I had never been able to dance, I had tried, well Heechul and tried to learn me as he was an epic dancer... Heechul... I felt a sting in my heart when I thought about him and then I heard how SNSD’s song Gee started to play and I froze. Heechul loved to dance to that song. I felt how it started to get more and more difficult for me to breathe and the tears filled my eyes. I fell to the floor and curled up to a ball gasping for air with tears rolling down my cheeks. I had not been prepared for that memory at all. It had taken me off guard. Then all of a sudden the music stopped.

“Melissa!” Siwon yelled and he was fast by my side along with the rest of the members

“Are you ok?” Yesung questioned worried, but I didn’t manage to answer him, I wanted to but I couldn’t.

“Talk to us Melissa!” Shindong exclaimed sounding panicked, but I still couldn’t answer

“Guys, I’ll take her to the dorm and try to calm her down and stuff, you continue, okey?” I then heard Donghae ask and it got silent

“Are you sure?” Leeteuk asked after a while

“I can go too” Siwon then said

“No, stay and practice I’ll handle this” Donghae said and then I felt his arms around me and then he picked me up bridal style and I wrapped my arms around his neck and buried my face in his chest

“Take care of my noona” Kyuhyun warned him

“I will” he said and then he opened the door with his foot and took me out of the building to his car, he put me carefully in the front and then he placed himself in the driver’s seat and took my hand in his and started to drive. I was still crying and still hadn’t managed to say a single word. When we arrived at the dorm he carried me up and, took off my shoes and then carried me to his room and laid me down on his bed. He took of his jacket and then he placed himself next to me and wrapped his right arm around me and tried to dry my tears with his left hand

“Shhh, don’t cry” he told me and pulled the covers over us “please don’t cry” he continued, we lay there silent for a while with him my cheek trying to calm me down, and when I wasn’t sobbing too much he started to talk “What happened back at the dance studio?” he asked softly

“Seeing you dance made me think about Heechul, he’s an amazing dancer... and then Gee started playing, Heechul always danced to that song” I replied and let out a big sob and Donghae pulled me closer to him and hugged me tightly

“It’s gonna be okey, I promise, you’ll get over him one day” he assured me but I shook my head

“I’m never going to get over him; I won’t ever be able to move on. It hurts so much just thinking about him” I said sadly

“One day Melissa, one day you’ll be able to think about him without the pain, I promise. You will find yourself another love, I just know that. You just have to be patient and in the meantime I’m here for you, all of us are here for you, even evil maknae Kyuhyun” Donghae told me and I smiled weakly

“Thanks... but I just miss him so much” I said and Donghae frowned

“I know sweetheart, I know, but it’s okey, you can mourn for a while and miss him, but sooner or later you have to try to move on. And when you decide that it’s time we will help you through it.” Donghae said and I knew he was right, I couldn’t keep this on for too long, and I had to at least try to move on

“I will just compare them with him” I stated

“In the beginning yes, but you have to try really hard not to”

“I don’t think I will be able to love again”

“Of course you will! Love is forgotten with love, I promise”

“But I don’t want to forget him” I said sadly

“You don’t need to, you just have to remember him with a healthy kind of love, not the love you have now. You’ll never forget him completely, he just can’t be all you think about” Donghae told me and again he was right

“Thanks for being here for me” I told him and he smiled

“Any time, I’m always here for you, no matter what, always, but you should sleep now, you look exhausted” he said and I nodded, I felt exhausted

“Will you stay?” I questioned

“If you want me too” he replied and I snuggled up in his arms and held onto his shirt

“Then you’re not going anywhere” I told him and he smiled and kissed my hair

“Good night sweetheart” he whispered

“Good night Donghae” I answered and closed my eyes and in the next second I heard how Donghae started to sing, I had never heard the song before, but it was a really sweet song and I was soon fast asleep in his arms to his beautiful voice.

The next morning I woke up in Donghae’s arms, we hadn’t moved at all. It felt good being in his arms. It felt safe and I liked it a lot. I observed Donghae that was still asleep. He was really beautiful and he looked so peaceful when he was sleeping. I thought about all the things he had done to me in the past five weeks. He was one of the sweetest guys that I had ever met. Then I thought about what he had said about moving on, deep in my heart I felt that if I was going to move on and find myself someone else I kind of wanted it to be Donghae. He would be perfect for me and I knew that he could take care of me. Love wasn’t there; it was going to take time, a lot of time. But I knew that if I gave myself some time I would be able to fall for him. He was a special guy and I felt that in my heart, but it was still too early, I still loved Heechul a lot. But if I was going to spend all this time with Donghae and the boys I could get over all that love. I wanted to move on, I knew that I had to, it was the best decision, and I knew that I wanted it to be Donghae that took Heechul’s place. I wasn’t in love with him but I felt that there was a possibility that I would eventually fall for him. I knew myself really well to know that.

“Have patience with me” I whispered and then I saw how Donghae’s eyelids opened revealing his beautiful brown eyes. If I wasn’t so in love with Heechul still I would’ve fallen for him completely the first moment I saw him.

“Did you say anything?” Donghae questioned sleepy and I shook my head

“No, I was just thinking out loud” I replied and he smiled at me

“How are you?” he then asked concerned

“Better than yesterday, I know that I want to move on now, I’ll try hard, it have gone almost four  months now” I told him

“Good” Donghae said and then he kissed my forehead and got out of the bed, I got myself up as well and grabbed my phone that was lying on the floor, 34 missed phone calls and 42 new text messages, all from Gabbi. “I’ll take a shower, they boys are probably up if you need anything” Donghae told me and I nodded and pressed call and he locked himself into the bathroom. Gabbi answered after just two signals

“WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU!? DO YOU KNOW HOW FREAKING WORRIED I HAVE BEEN” She yelled angrily

“At Super Junior’s dorm, couldn’t you guess that?”

“Sure I was thinking that but still! It’s not normal to spend the night at your bosses place!” she said still in a high tone of voice

“But they’re more than my bosses, they’re like my brothers” I told her calmly

“Okey, that’s true, but is there a good reason why you didn’t call me to tell me that you were spending the night there?” she questioned severely

“I broke down yesterday in the dance studio, so Donghae took me to the dorm and I wasn’t really in the state of calling you, sorry” I told her

“Sweetie, are you okey?” she wondered sounding concerned

“Yeah, kinda, Donghae made me realize that it’s time to start fighting, I need to start moving on. The mourning time is over now” I said seriously

“I’m glad you realized that now” Gabbi told me sounding relieved

“Me too, but do you feel like coming over? The boys have a day off and I’m sure they wouldn’t mind, they really want to meet you” I said

“Sure, I’ll be there in an hour or so, take care!

“I will” I said and then I hung up, Donghae was still showering and I didn’t feel like going out to the boys by myself so I sat on the bed just looking around, there was another bed there, wonder who he shared the room with, who I had chased away from his bed. I sat there for a while and then all of a sudden the bathroom door opened and out comes Donghae, he wasn’t wearing a shirt to my surprise so I couldn’t help but to stare at his perfect v-shaped body, muscular arms broad shoulders and chocolate abs.

“Seeing something you like?” he asked me amused interrupting my staring, I looked away and blushed

“I... no” I said unsure and he chuckled

“Don’t worry, you can look if you want, I take it as a good sign that you want to look at another man’s body” he said and went up to me and turned my head to face him “You can touch if you want to” he continued and smirked and I blushed even more and before I could react he grabbed my hand and placed it on his abs, they felt even better than they looked like, I let my hand drift over his abs and shuddered “You should see Siwon’s abs, they’re better than mine” Donghae said and chuckled and I had a hard time believing that. I then took away my hand from his abs and stood up and hugged him

“Thanks” I whispered and stretched up on my toes and placed a small kiss on his cheek making him blush this time and then I left the room with him following me

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The picture of Donghae <3

I am so excited for SUper Junior's comeback!!!!!! But the only sad thing is that Heechul won't be there :'( Anyways, not many days left now!!!