Melissa’s POV

When I woke up a couple of hours later I called Gabbi and told her what had happened. She was very shocked over the fact that Heechul had broken up with me and she told me that she would come by as fast as she was free. The same night she came by, she smiled at me weakly and hugged me tightly.

“You okey?” she asked and I shook my head

“No, I miss him” I replied and started crying

“Yeah, I know you don’t understand why he did it but I guess it was something that he just had to do” Gabbi told me trying to comfort me

“I will never be able to move on with my life” I told he sadly

“Of course you will” Gabbi assured me “Listen, you know that I’m going to Seoul and study soon, why not come with me? And have a fresh start? I think it would be good for you” Gabbi said and I thought about it, maybe it would be good for me to go to Seoul. New York was only going to remind me about him.

“Okey, I’ll go with you” I told her and she smiled at me

“You’re making the right choice, I promise”

 Two month later I was in South Korea, Seoul. I had left everything behind in New York and I was going to start anew in Seoul. I had to get over Heechul quickly; I couldn’t let myself hold on to him for too long. I had to move on; it was for my own good. We had been in Seoul for one and a half month already and I really liked it, it was so different from New York. Gabbi was studying at the university and I was searching for jobs, yet I hadn’t found anything but someday I had to. I was wandering around one day and saw some advertisement that said that SM entertainment were searching for assistants so I decided to apply, who knew I might get lucky! So I went to SM and to my surprise I immediately got an interview. Maybe luck was on my side for once!

“So, miss Poynter?” the interviewer started “What took you to South Korea?” he asked me and I was honestly taken by surprise by that question and I had to fight my tears as the reason had been Heechul

“Well my best friend was going to study here and she asked me if I wanted to come with her and as I am a person that love other cultures and languages I thought that it would be a great opportunity for me” I answered him and he nodded

“And what made you want to apply for a job as an assistant to one of the groups here at SM entertainment?” he then asked

“Well, I also have a very strong passion for music and have always been fascinated by K-POP and the world they have around them so I thought that it would be really interesting to work in this world” I replied and smiled a bit

“So where did you go to school?”

“In New York, I studied music and drama at Julliard” I said and I saw that he looked very surprised, no one expected that a Julliard student was going to apply for a simple job as an assistant, and honestly I had been offered a minor role at Broadway but I couldn’t simply take it, I couldn’t stay in New York, it was like the whole city was suffocating me after my break up with Heechul. And it felt like my motivation was gone, along with my dreams. All of a sudden my big dream Broadway didn’t seem so important. I just had to get away from the city, from my life I had there. It honestly felt like I had been running away from my life when I left New York for Seoul. 

“Oh, any jobs after school?”

“No, I went here just after I finished almost”

“I see, so what do you think is your best features?” he then asked me

“Well, I’m very stubborn so when I have decided to do something I do it, no matter what, and I do it fully, I’m a hardworking girl. I’m also very outgoing, talkative and I try to always stay positive” I replied him and I saw how he was writing on some papers

“Okey, I don’t think that I need to ask anything more really. We definitely have a job for you here but I don’t know to who yet so if you just follow me and I’ll introduce you to some people” he then said and stood up and gestured me to follow him, so I did. He chatted with me a bit till we arrived to a studio. He opened the door and to my big surprise the whole Super Junior was in that studio Leeteuk, Shindong, Kyuhyun, Kangin, Donghae, Yesung, Eunhyuk, Sungmin, Ryeowook and Siwon! I had a very hard time not to fangirl. I love Super Junior! “Guys this is miss Melissa Poynter, she’s going to work here as an assistant but I’m not sure to who yet so is it okey if I leave her with you for a while?” he said and they all nodded

“Sure, we’ll take good care of her” Leeteuk replied and he left the room leaving me alone with Super Junior! Oh my dear god! “Let me introduce myself, I’m Leeteuk” Leeteuk said and walked up to me and shook my hand smiling

“And I’m Donghae” Donghae said and when he grabbed my hand he didn’t shake it, he kissed it, very cheesy, but as I am a person that absolutely love cheesy stuff I kind of melted

“And I’m Eunhyuk”

“Yesung at your service”

“And I’m Siwon”

“Shindong”

“I’m the maknae Kyuhyun”

“Sungmin”

“Kangin”

“And I’m Ryeowook”

“And I’m Melissa” I said happily

“Where are you from?” Siwon asked me wonderingly

“Originally from London but I moved to New York when I was 18 to study” I said and they looked at me surprised

“What did you study?” Eunhyuk wondered

“Music and Drama at Julliard” I replied and they all looked at me shocked

“So why on earth are you here now applying for a job as an assistant? Aren’t you supposed to take over Broadway or something?” Donghae questioned

“Well life came in between” I started and chuckled but they only looked wonderingly at me “Let’s just say that a person I loved didn’t want me by their side anymore so I kind of felt that I needed to get out of the town” I continued and I felt how my eyes got all misty, damn why did they have to ask? And why did I have to tell them? I hadn’t told them everything but still!

“Oh... boyfriend?” Yesung wondered and I nodded

“It wasn’t exactly on good terms so I decided to go with my friend here when she asked me to come with her” I told them and they all looked at me concerned, they seemed like such cute boys

“So how come you speak perfect Korean?” Sungmin then asked me changing the subject

“Well... “I started, the reason I knew Korean was because of Heechul, he had insisted that I learned so that I already knew the language if we moved there together in the future “My boyfriend was South Korean” I continued and they all looked at me horrified

“I’m so sorry” Sungmin started but I cut him off

“Don’t worry about it, you didn’t know” I assured him

“Can I ask you how long you were together? He seems to have a lot of affect on you” Kyuhyun said carefully and I saw how Donghae hit him

“A little more than 3 years, we met at Julliard, we took some courses together” I told them

“Oh, but let’s not talk about him anymore! Now you’re in Seoul and we can introduce you to tons of good looking idols!” Leeteuk exclaimed and I chuckled

“Thanks”

I stayed with Super for like two hours before the guy that had interviewed me came back and told me that they were going to tell me when I came the next day who I was going to work for. I said good bye to Super Junior and hurried to mine and Gabbi’s apartment, she was going to freak out when she heard about my new job and that I had met Super Junior and that there was a possibility that I might work for them! Or even SHINee!

“Gabbi!? You home?” I shouted when I stepped into the apartment

“Yep, kitchen!” she replied so I went into the kitchen, she was cooking for us, good cuz I was starving

“You can never guess what happened to me today and who I met! You’re going to freak out!” I exclaimed when I placed myself by the kitchen island; she looked at me in disbelief

“Try me” she replied

“I got a job as an assistant at SM, they don’t know to which group yet but I got to meet Super Junior!” I said and Gabbi’s face dropped

“NO WAY!?” she shouted and I nodded

“Oh yes, they’re going to tell me tomorrow who I will be working for” I told her

“YOU MET EUNHYUK AND SIWON!!!!!!” she yelled even louder and went to me and grabbed me and started to shake me

“Haha yes I did”

“OH MY GOD!!!!!!”

“Calm down Gabbi” I tried but she of course didn’t she just kept shaking me

“I love you so much! This means that I will be meeting idols!” she said and finally stopped with the shaking just in time cuz I was starting to get a little bit dizzy

“Yep” I said smiling

“So how were they?” Gabbi demanded

“They were really, really sweet and funny and really cool! Donghae and Yesung were the cutest ever! And somehow they managed to make me tell them about Heechul” I replied and my face fell when I mentioned him

“Oh” Gabbi said and I felt how tears started to roll down my cheeks, I missed Heechul so damn much, it had gone two months already and it didn’t go one single day without me thinking about him. “Sweetie” Gabbi then said and wrapped her arms around me and hugged me tightly “It will all be ok, I promise, you’ll be over him soon” she tried to assure me but I just shook my head

“I just miss him so much; I don’t think I’ll ever be able to move on. He was the love of my life, my soul mate” I told her

“Sometimes you don’t have only one love of your life or one soul mate sweetheart, there might be someone else out there for you, remember love is forgotten with love” she said to me seriously

“For me I don’t think so, for me there was only him”

“Don’t think that way, cuz if you do you’ll never forget about Heechul and find yourself another love. Stay positive, he might be closer than you think” Gabbi told me

“I’ll try but it’s just so freakin hard, I loved him so damn much, I still do” I said and let out a big sob

“You know what you need? Ice cream, you think you can be alone while I go and buy some?” Gabbi questioned and I nodded and tried to put on a brave smile

“Yes, go ahead” I told her and she looked at me and frowned

“You’re not fooling anyone with that smile, but I’ll be back as fast as I can” she told me and then she left leaving me alone with my thoughts, with my thoughts of Heechul, and I broke down on the floor

“WHY HEECHUL!? WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME!? WHY!?” I cried out and then I saw that there was a big knife lying on the kitchen table. Maybe it was for the best to just end it all? Maybe I should just put the misery to an end? Life without Heechul wasn’t worth living anyway. So I took the knife and put its blade against my wrist but just as I was going to press it down my phone started vibrating announcing that I had gotten a text. So I put away the knife and got my phone. The text was from Donghae, I had given him my number before leaving them

From: Donghae:

It was really nice to meet you today! I truly hope that they decide that you’ll be working with us! :) All of us liked you a lot. We’re sorry for bringing up your ex and I hope that you don’t feel too sad about it. I saw that it was a sensitive topic for you, don’t think that I didn’t see those misty eyes! ;) Anyways, take care and I hope I’ll see you tomorrow again! Don’t do anything stupid!

How had he known? The text scared me a bit but I was touched by the fact that he had seen how I felt about talking about Heechul and that my eyes got misty. And that he wanted me to take care and don’t do anything stupid. That decided it for me, I couldn’t end it now, and Gabbi would get both sad and angry. And I couldn’t do it when Donghae had told me not to, even though I only had met him today for only like two hours.

To: Donghae:

Thanks... you saved me...

After replying I collapsed on the sofa crying myself to sleep