Melissa’s POV

“Melissa!” A woman’s voice exclaimed and I looked up and saw Heechul’s mother, it had been too long since the last time I had seen her, far too long, I smiled at her and went straight into her arms

“Umma” I whispered and she kissed my hair softly

“It’ll be alright sweetie” she tried to assure me but I just shook my head, she couldn’t say that and mean it

“No it won’t” I told her and she looked at me sadly probably knowing that I was right

“One day it will, I promise” she said and then I felt a hand on my shoulder and there was Heechul’s dad

“Appa” I said and he smiled at me

“I’m glad you came here, Heechul didn’t think you would” he told me seriously

“It’s like he don’t even know me” I said and sighed and appa chuckled a bit

“I told him that too” he said and I smiled weakly

“Do you want to see him?” umma then asked and I nodded “Then go, we’ll be here outside leaving you alone” she said and motioned me to open the door in front of us, I hesitated at first but then I opened it and closed my eyes. I shut the door carefully behind me still with my eyes closed but then I turned around and opened them and there he was...

Heechul... he was lying in a hospital bed, he looked the same, only a bit skinnier and more tired. All kinds of wires and tubes were connected to him and it hurt me so much seeing him like that. So weak, my boyfriend Heechul never displayed himself as a weak person and here he was looking so helpless. Seeing him in that state made it burst for me and I let out a big sob which made him open his eyes. When he saw me his eyes widened in shock. He had honestly not thought that I was going to come

“You came” he said weakly and I nodded and walked up to his bed and took his delicate face between my hands and kissed him, I hadn’t kissed him in like four months if not more and it felt like I died through the kiss, and it made me realize just how much I had missed him and just how much I was going to miss him after he died. And I knew that it wasn’t smart of me to kiss him, to get all my feelings back but I didn’t care, all I cared about was Heechul now. When I pulled away he looked at me confused

“Don’t leave me, please don’t leave me! Don’t leave me!” I cried and he just held me tight not saying anything and I didn’t want that moment to end, I just wanted to stay in his arms forever

“I won’t” he after a while whispered in my ear and kissed my hair and I looked up at him when he said that feeling crushed

“You can’t say that, you’re dying Heechul” I said devastated, tears rolling down my cheeks, how much hadn’t I cried the past two days? Too much

“I know, but I’m not leaving you just yet, I still have a couple of days left” he told me assuring

“Hopefully... but tell me, why couldn’t I stay with you?” I wondered and his face twisted

“Come here” he said and then he scooted over to the other side of the bed and motioned for me to lay down beside him and I did as I was told, he quickly wrapped his arms around me and I leant my head carefully on his chest and looked up at his beautiful but sick looking face

“Why?” I asked again, even though Gabbi had told me why I wanted to hear it from him

“I didn’t want you to get hurt” he replied in a low voice “I wanted you to be over me by the time I died, I didn’t want to put you through any unnecessary pain” he continued

“You know I’ve always loved you for being so caring but jagi, we’ve wasted so much valuable time just because you wanted to make it easy for me, but I would’ve reacted the same anyways. You did it for my best but it wasn’t one of your best ideas” I told him and I felt really frustrated

“I know, I’m sorry, that was one of my biggest mistakes” he said and I nodded

“But at least I get to spend your last days with you, thanks for changing your mind” I told him sincerely and he smiled at me weakly. How hadn’t I missed his smile...

“I thought that I could die without having you by my side but I just couldn’t. I needed you here with me” he said and I let out a sob

“I love you” I whispered and hugged him tightly

“I love you too” he replied and leant down with his face and planted a small but loving kiss on my lips

“I’ve missed you so damn much jagiya” he whispered to me and I looked up at him “It hasn’t gone a day without me thinking about you” he continued and sighed

“I’ve missed you too” I replied and snuggled up in his arms, we lay silent for a while just enjoying each other’s presence. “Life is so unfair” I after a while started “Some people get a whole lifetime with the loves of their lives, I got three years” I continued sadly and felt how tears started to roll down my cheeks again and Heechul tried to dry them with his hand, it felt like the past months had never even happened when I lay there with him

“Three years of pure epicness though” he said and I smiled weakly

“True” I said and Heechul observed me thoughtfully

“What are you thinking about?” he then asked me and I let out a loud sigh

“About how helpless I am. All I can do is to sit here and watch the love of my life die” I told him and let out another sob and Heechul my hair trying to calm me down

“You’re the love of my life too” he replied and placed yet another soft kiss on my lips “But Melissa when I’m gone I need you to move on” he started “I need you to find yourself another love” he continued and I just stared at him

“I can’t, there is only you” I whispered

“No it’s not” he said to me calmly

“Yes, I love you and you only, I thought that I had moved on and then you called and I realized that I still loved you like crazy” I told him and he shook his head

“Listen to me jagi, you were my life, but I was just a chapter in yours” he said to me

“Don’t say that” I cried silently

“I’m sorry but that’s the truth and it’s not like I’m asking you to forget all about me and stop loving me completely. No, I wanna have a special place in your heart forever, no matter what. But I want you to be able to be happy and to love with someone that is not me. I don’t want you to be sad even though it’s going to cost me my place as your only love” he told me seriously

“Always so damn sacrificing” I muttered, I didn’t want to listen to him

“Melissa, I’m serious, fall in love again but keep me in your heart forever”

“I will keep you in my heart forever but fall in love, we’ll see about that” and I said and Heechul looked at me sadly

“Try” he pleaded

“I said we’ll see about that” I said and snuggled up in his arms and he tightened his hold of me

“Good” he said and I looked up at him and our eyes met and I was screwed, looking into his eyes always made me lost

“I’ll love you till the day I die” he said after a while and we both started crying and he pressed his lips desperately to mine

“Isn’t Gabbi here?” Heechul after a while questioned

“Yeah, she’s outside, I guess she wanted to give us some time alone” I replied and he smiled

“She’s a true friend” he said and I nodded agreeing

“Yes, I couldn’t have made it this far without her, and I wouldn’t have met you if it wasn’t for her”

“We owe a lot to her”

“We do...” I said and then we laid there silent again for a while “Tell me this is a dream, tell me that just in a moment I will wake up in your arms in your apartment to yet another normal night with you, please” I said desperately and Heechul looked at me painfully

“I’d do anything for you, you know that, but this I can’t do, no matter how much I wish this was just a dream, it’s not” he told me sadly

“It was worth trying” I said and he chuckled but to me it sounded half-heartedly

“It was... I’m not letting you go now, I’ll hold onto you till the end” he said and tightened the grip he had of me yet another time

“Good”

“I love you so much”

“As I love you” I replied and then he took my face between his delicate and fragile hands and kissed me softly. And it felt like it had been before, before he got sick. I really missed those times

But as we laid there just kissing the door opened and Gabbi and Donghae entered the room. One of them more shocked than the other

Donghae’s POV

When Melissa went in to Heechul, Gabbi and I was left with his parents, great I even got to meet the parent of the guy that had the heart of the girl that I loved. I truly don’t think that love is really my thing...

“Guys this is Donghae, one of mine and Melissa’s best friends from Korea” Gabbi said to his parents and I smiled and shook their hands. Best friends... well for Gabbi that was true, but for Melissa...

“Nice to meet you, I can see that they have good taste in choosing friends for themselves choosing yet another Korean” his father said and chuckled

“Yeah” his mother agreed “It’s really nice of you that you came here with the girls” she continued

“Well I’d do anything for those girls” I replied and I meant it, I would sincerely do anything for them

After sitting outside of his room for about two hours just talking to his parents I started to get enough. I wanted to go in to Melissa. Who knew what they could be talking about! What they could be doing... I wonder if she kissed him... Gabbi then sensed my impatience

“Shall we go into them?” she asked me carefully and I nodded

But when Gabbi opened the door and we entered the room I wished that we hadn’t. The sight that met me was horrible. Melissa was lying in Heechul’s arms, kissing him... It hurt so much... Screw him! What did she see in him!? What did he have that I don’t!? I observed him. He was very skinny with a milky skin and he had brown middle long hair and brown eyes. And he looked pretty, yes pretty not handsome, pretty. Any girl would be jealous by his looks. Despite that he looked very sick he still looked impeccable, I understood why Melissa had fallen for him if you only watched his looks. Melissa and Heechul noticed us when Gabbi coughed to announce our presence. They both sat up and looked at us, Melissa looked very guilty and sad and Heechul just pulled her closer to him. I bet he had seem my horrified face expression

“How is it?” Gabbi asked emotionally and went up to the bed to hug Heechul, he let go of Melissa unwillingly but as fast as Gabbi pulled away from the hug he wrapped his arms around Melissa again

“Now when Melissa is here then I’m good, well as good as I can be considering the circumstances” Heechul replied and kissed Melissa’s forehead to my disgust, he noticed that and glared at me discreetly so that the girls wouldn’t notice

“I told you so” Gabbi said to him and chuckled while drying her tears

“Yeah, I should’ve listened to you from the start” he said and grinned but then Gabbi remembered about me

“Oh right Heechul this is Donghae he’s...” she started but was cut off by Heechul

“He’s in the group Super Junior that Melissa works for; I know who he is, nice to meet you” he said and nodded at me

“The pleasure is all mine, I’ve heard a lot about you” I said but regretted it immediately as he got a smug look in his face

“Oh really?” he wondered

“Yeah...” I muttered “So how did you guys meet?” I after a while asked breaking the awkward silence that had settled over the room. I didn’t really wanted to know but I couldn’t come up with anything else to say

“Well the first year at Julliard Gabbi and Heechul were in the same class and I was in another class. But anyways I was always with Gabbi so we got to see each other very often and then one night Heechul had this party and Gabbi dragged me there and things happened” Melissa replied me

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