Donghae's POV

The next day the boys arrived to New York. I and Gabbi went to the airport early in the morning to pick them up. We hadn’t told Melissa that they were coming though, it was for the best. She wouldn’t like that she kept us away from our job and she didn’t want us to worry about her either. But this was necessary. When Heechul was going to leave she would need the support and love from all of us. Not only her, Gabbi would need it too.

“Hey hyung” Kyuhyun said and hugged me when they came out from the arrival doors, I hugged him back, it felt good that they were here

“Hi” I replied weakly and tried to smile but I just couldn’t, when had I smiled sincerely the last time? I couldn’t even remember it now. Smiling seemed so far away.

“It’s gonna be okey, I promise” Leeteuk then said and put a hand on my shoulder but I shook my head

“Don’t promise me something you don’t know will happen for sure” I said sadly and he looked at me with pain in his eyes

“We’re here for you, and for her” Eunhyuk then said and hugged me

“Thanks guys” I replied and they smiled

“How is he?” Siwon then asked and I sighed, what could I say? He was better than he should be. It was impossible for me to hate him. He had the heart of the girl that I loved but I couldn’t even hate him even a little

“He’s great, he even asked me to take care of her after he goes” I said and shook my head “I just want her to be happy” I continued and started to cry, yet again I cried over her. And my brain was telling me to let her go to stop loving her but my heart was telling the opposite, the complete opposite

“She will one day, with you” Ryeowook assured me

“I can always hope, but that day won’t come anytime soon” I said sincerely, it wasn’t going to, it was going to take a lot of time for her to move on after his death, if she ever was going to move one that is

“Guys let’s go to a hotel where you can stay and then we can go to the hospital” Gabbi then cut in and we all nodded were the boys would be staying, obviously we all couldn’t stay at the little apartment

“Yeah let’s go” Leeteuk said and we all left the airport in different taxi’s to a hotel close to Gabbi and Melissa’s friend’s apartment

When we got there the boys got six double rooms. I followed Eunhyuk and Siwon up to their room and sat on a bed while watching them unpack their stuff. I really wanted to be with Melissa but she needed to be alone with Heechul. They had so little time left and I wasn’t going to stand in the way. Sitting there observing the boys the door all of a sudden slammed open revealing a panicked looking Gabbi. Now this wasn’t a good sign and I could sense what was coming

“We have to hurry! It’s not long left now!” she cried and we knew that with that she didn’t mean days, she meant hours or minutes. I stood up and walked up to her and grabbed her hand in mine

“Let’s go and remember I’m here for you too” I told her and she smiled at me weakly and hugged me

“I love you Hae oppa, I hope you’ll be my brother in law one day, I really hope so” she said and I nodded and then we hurried to get the others before we rushed to the hospital where a horrible sight awaited us

She was by his side, kneeled down by his bed with his hands in hers crying like crazy and he was crying too. I felt my heart break once again. And I had to hold my chest to not break apart completely. It was so painful to watch. It was horrible and I couldn’t do a single thing about it, I could just watch and be affected.

“We’ve said our good bye’s already” a voice then said behind, it was Heechul mom that had said it to Gabbi “You should go in too, I’m sure she wants to be the last one” she continued and Gabbi nodded and stepped into the room and then a crying Melissa came out of it and when she saw me she threw herself in my arms and hugged me tightly as if she was afraid that if she didn’t hold onto me I would disappear

“Don’t you ever leave me Donghae” she cried out and I shook my head

“Never my princess, I’m here, forever” I whispered to her and kissed her hair. My heart was bleeding

Melissa’s POV

When I woke up that morning I felt weirdly good. I was lying in Heechul’s arms and the first thing that I saw when I opened my eyes was his beautiful face looking down at me. But I quickly realized that something was wrong, that something was very wrong and it freaked me out for sure. Heechul smiled at me weakly and kissed me softly on my lips. And in the next moment two doctors and some nurses came rushing into the room. They looked much stressed and they sighed when they saw me. One of the nurses was the same one from the day before, she looked at me with pain in her eyes

“Miss, we have to ask you to leave” one of the doctors told me and I panicked

“Why?” I questioned

“He doesn’t have long left now” he answered and I gasped

“How long?” I asked feeling the tears burn in my eyes

“It’s just a matter of hours now” he said and my tears started to flood, there was nothing that could hold my emotions in now

“No, it can’t be true!” I shouted “He’s not going to die! HE’S NOT GOING TO DIE!!!” I continued and I went up to the doctor and started hitting his chest but I was so weak that I didn’t even hurt him in any way

“Take her out and bring in the parents” he then said and two nurses forced me out of the room and out to the corridor. Heechul’s parents looked at me with pain in their eyes. His mother hugged my quickly before going in to him and I was left alone on the corridor. I cried my eyes out. He was dying now. He was really dying now. I had gotten a day with him. One single day if even that. It hurt so much. After about an hour his parents came out, they were crying as well. His mother and I hugged again but not a word was spoken. It was so painful for all of us.

I went back into him again. He looked even weaker than yesterday. He breathed heavily and he could barely keep his eyes open. I walked up to him and kneeled beside him and took his precious hands in mine

“This is it” Heechul then said in a low voice, I looked up at him and shook my head

“No, I won’t say my good bye just yet, I want to be here and say I love you just before you take your last breath, I’m staying here with you till the very end Heechul” I cried out and he looked at me sadly but then Gabbi entered the room, I stood up and hugged her and cried into her embrace when she reached me

“Stay strong sweetheart” she told me and then she went over to Heechul and I went out to the corridor again but this time I wasn’t going to be alone, fortunately. The whole Super Junior was there now, they had come for me. But most important, he was there, Donghae was there. I threw myself in his arms and cried more than ever and hugged him tightly as if I was afraid that he would disappear if I didn’t hold onto him hard.

“Don’t you ever leave me Donghae” I cried out and he shook his head

“Never my princess, I’m here, forever” he whispered to me and kissed my hair

“I can take it from here” A voice then said and when it got to me that it was Hongki, my best friend I looked up at him and was fast in his arms. I wrapped my arms around his neck and buried my face in his chest

“He’s leaving me Hongki, he’s leaving me!” I cried out and he my back trying to calm me down, but of course that didn’t work, nothing could calm me down now and nothing could comfort me

“I know honey, I know, but whatever happens he will always be in your heart” he tried to assure me

“I don’t want him in my heart! I freaking want him here with me!” I yelled at Hongki but then he grabbed me by my arms and looked at me seriously

“Melissa listen to me, we can’t change this! No matter how much we wish we could we simply can’t! We just have to make the best of it now” he said and I saw that he was crying now too

“But I don’t wanna!” I said and just as I had done with the doctor I started hitting Hongki on his chest, he grabbed me by my wrists stopping me

“Pull yourself together, it doesn’t help anyone that you go insane!” he cried and then I hugged him tightly

“Will we ever go through this?” I questioned him and he nodded trying to dry his tears

“We will, with a little of help we will” he assured me and I nodded still crying and then Gabbi came out of the room drying her tears

“Hongki, you should go in” she said and he let go of me leaving me to Donghae again and then he went in to Heechul

After Hongki came back Donghae also went in to Heechul such as the rest of the boys even if they didn’t even know Heechul. I had the most amazing persons in my life and I felt secure about the fact that they were going to be there for me in the coming months, the coming years. There was no doubt about that. When they exit his room Siwon went up to me and hugged me tightly

“It’s time now” he whispered to me and I swallowed hard and nodded and then I opened the door and found that Heechul looked even worse than that he’d done just a couple of hours ago. I went up to his bed and sat myself next to him on it. I took his hand in mine and squeezed them hard. He looked at me, he was crying too. I had seen him cry too much. The Heechul I knew never cried.

“This is really it” he whispered causing me to let out a big sob and I buried my face in his chest

“No, jagiya, don’t leave, please don’t leave! You can’t do this to me! You simply can’t” I said panicked

“I love you like crazy, for me there was only you, from the moment I laid my eyes on you, you were my number one” he started and I shook my head crying, he was saying his good bye now, this was really happening, he was leaving now for real “You were the reason I lived, the reason why I smiled. Never forget me jagiya. Remember me and my love for you” he continued weakly

“Heechul don’t” I cried out

“I love you Melissa” it came out as a whisper

“I love you too, like crazy and I’ll never forget you, ever, I love you Heechul” I almost yelled it out, I was feeling so helpless

“As I love you” he whispered and then I kissed him and he kissed me back, it was the most passionate and painful kiss that we ever had shared and when I pulled he closed his eyes and in the next moment I heard the beep of the machine. He was gone now.

No more Kim Heechul...

Then I let it all out. I screamed so loud that I think that the whole hospital heard me. I screamed because the love of my life had left me. I screamed because I had hurt the guy that was always there for me. I screamed because I felt my heart break apart. I screamed because I didn’t want to live anymore. I just screamed. Screamed his name and screamed out my pain.

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