Lisa POV

2:37 am.

Here I am laying in my bed, wondering what I did wrong. Why am I being treated this way? Is being in love such a bad thing? Well I guess it’s my fault for confessing my feelings. Jisoo unnie and Chaeyoung told me that it would be a bad idea. Not that they weren’t supportive of my feelings but I guess they knew something that I didn’t know. 

Jennie. My Jennie. She’s so confusing sometimes. She’s so caring and loving and then she’s as cold as ice. Have you seen the way she is around me. She makes me feel like I’m the only girl in the world, and I thought maybe I made her feel that way too. She clings on me all the time, she feeds me, we have whispered conversations to each other. Wouldn’t you think a person was interested in you if they acted this way?

I was wrong, very very wrong.

I made the mistake of confessing to Jennie unnie yesterday. I was confident that she would say yes when I asked her to go out with me. Of course, she rejected me. She said she didn’t feel that way about me, that I was her little sister. Now I know how it feels to have your heart shatter in a million pieces, just how they say in those books or movies. I never knew it would hurt this bad.

She’s dating him. What does she see in him? I sigh. I can’t even bring myself to say his damn name.

I blink away the tears that were forming in my eyes at the thought of them together. Why didn’t she say anything? And why was I the only one who didn’t know she was dating someone?

I sat up in bed and wiped my eyes, I was going to go to the kitchen to drink some water. It’s been hours since I locked myself in my room. I didn’t even want to e