I watched her,as she slowly kill herself everday.

Almost every night she would drink 3 bottles of soju.

Almost ever night she would get drunk and the next morning,she'll have a bad hangover.

I would cook for her,but she never ate.

But what can i do?If she knew i'm her stalker,she would have hung herself.

I shook my head and shivered.I didn't want her to leave me.I watched her from a distance in her house,as she hugged herself in the cold corner.It was like the days were repeating itself.Those days when Minsoo left her.

Why is she doing this to herself?

Can she see that's she's perfect enough?

Why is she killing herself?

She has been keeping herself away from the world for a week now.

Why is she still hiding?

Does she hates me that much?

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I softly whistled as i drink my 3rd bottle of soju for the day.

I've been locking myself from the outside world for a week now.

I never answered the door after i knew Myungsoo is L.

I shivered.How could i stand being in the same room with him?

I never let Hoya,Dongwoo or anyone else into my home.The only person's who had been around was my stalker.He would cook for me,but i never ate.History was repeating itself.I've been in this state after Minsoo left me.

Second Invasion's tomorrow,so i wouldn't be suprised if Hoya or Dongwoo won't be knocking on my door anymore.

I continued doing my activities until i was high.

My eye lids were threatning to fall,but i kept myself awake.

I hugged my legs to my chest and crawled into a ball far in the apartments' corner.

I kept staring at the empty wall infront of me.

It's nothing but empty.

That's me.

I'm nothing.

I'm alone.

I'm empty.

''It's better for me to die alone here.No one wants me.''I whispered out loud.

I heard