HAYOUNG POV

"You look perfect for tonight." that's the word I heard that made my heart beat faster.

"Happy birthday." She whispered to me and I slowly turn around to face her.

"N-Naeun." It was almost a whisper when I called her name.

I saw the sadness writen all over her face but she forcefully smile, and I feel like she is going to cry.

"I-I'm sorry. I hope we can forget our problem for awhile? I'm just here to greet you. Bye." She said as she turn around but the tears that falls in her eyes didn't escape me.

Why do I feel this way?

Why Am I hurting just seeing her cry?

This is the second time I saw her cry.

I Immediately hold her in her right arm.

"Stay.... Please?" that's the only word I said but she still left.

So I followed her, I saw her went out of The event hall so I hurriedly left the event hall too.

She is now going to the second floor of the Mansion so I ascent the stair and followed her to the second floor.

I saw her standing outside the door of my room.

I open it and pull her immediately inside.

I got surprised when she hugs me but she abruptly let go and hold my hand.

She is slapping herself using my own hand.

"I'm sorry." She apologized.

"I'm so sorry Hayoung." She repeated.

"I'm so sorry." She said again.

"I'm really sorry." her eyes are teary.

"Hurt me, Slap me because I deserve it for hurting you." She was crying now.

"I'm so S-Sorry Hayoung." She sniffed.

She said those words while controlling my hand to hurt herself.

I can hear the sound of her sobs. I stopped my hand from hurting her and pulled her closer to me and hug her tightly.

"I-I'm sorry Hayoung. I'm sorry If I got coward. I'm sorry for leaving you. Sorry If I am the same with your Sungyeol. Sorry If I embarassed you at PMU. Sorry for giving you a false hope. Sorry... I-I'm So S-Sorry for hurting you. I'm S-Sorry for changing you back into your old self again. I'm S-So S-Sorry Hayoung, I'm really Sorry." she said while I am hugging her. 

I don't know, but I am hurting seeing her like this. But Why?

She hurted me, I should be Mad at her.

"Can we pretend that we are lovers. just for
tonight. please Hayoung? we only have less than an hour. just for tonight. Let's forget all the things that happened. just think about You and me." She begs to Me.

I detached from our hug and hold her chin, I can see in her eyes that she was hurting too.

I can't bear it anymore and I kiss her passionately.

I hadn't noticed that my tears start to fall from my eyes.

I'm a Traitor of my own feeling.

I'm a Fool because I still love her.

I'm Crazy. Still crazy for her.

But what can I do? I love the girl who's here infront of me now.

maybe we are at the wrong time and place.

Maybe this is wrong from everyone's perspective.

But I will forget this moment for myself.

I wanted to be happy at the last hour of my birthday.

I will erase in my mind, what I have seen and what I know for now.

I apologized to her kid because for now his Mom Naeun is mine.

And to Ilhoon, sorry Naeun mostly want to be with a girl right now.

For now I'm just going to think about Naeun and Myself. I know I am being selfish but I am just a human who learns how to love.

We shared one passionate kiss, I can't deny that she is a good kisser.

Every move of her lips makes me want her more.

Why Naeun?

Why are you doing this to me?

You are already Married and have a kid.

Why did you introduce Ilhoon to me as your bestfriend?

Why did the kid called you Mom?

Her arms wrap around my neck so I pull her waist closer to mine.

Our kiss become passionate and heated.

She bite my lower lip and it.

She slowly let her tongue inside my mouth and search for my tongue.

It's feel good when our tongue fight for dominance.

I can feel her hot breath, after our passionate kiss, I feel her kiss travels to my neck.

I moaned unintentionally when her lips touch my neck. I know she smirked hearing it.

Damn you Naeun.

I can even feel something weird in my stomach.

Her kisses travels up to my earlobe, she it in a circular motion.

she is making me crazy.

"Please say that I'm yours tonight." her voice has a hint of desire.

"Y-You are mine. Only mine Naeun." I told her and she kiss me again.

There is no tongue involve.

A Kiss that full of love. Savouring every moment.

It's Sweet and soft.

After she pulls herself from the kiss,  She hugs me tightly.

"Hayoung?" she called softly while catching her breath.

"Hmmm." I don't know what to reply her.

"I love you My Hayoung." that's the second time I heard that word from her.

I pull myself from her and look at her eyes.

All I see is Sadness and Pain.

"W-why?" I asked her.

"I Love you My Hayoung. I really Love You. But I'm a coward. I don't know If you can accept me. But Hayoung...." That's what she said to me.

She is a cowar