HAYOUNG POV

"Whoo! Come on, let's do another shot!" I yelled here inside the bar.

"Hey guys! Come, join me! Let's celebrate tonight! Whoo!" I pulled my friends with me to the counter.

This is how my life is now.

I went back to the person i am before.

It started on the day i last saw Naeun.

We are okay that time we are at the rooftop when she told me that she'll be gone these past few days.

When me and Yookyung had our talked, i ignored what Yookyung said to me.

Because I trust Naeun.

And I love her.

FLASHBACK

After my talk with Yookyung, I went home that day, because our professor didn't meet us.

I went directly to my room and in that instant i smell her scent that was left here.

I begin to miss her so bad.

That's why i decided to leave the mansion, to meet Bomi, Namjoo, Yerin and Joy.

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We are here at the mall to play arcade.

Because i want to get my mind off her, and I don't want to miss her, I don't want to be clingy and possesive of her.

Maybe she is just really busy.

We were in the middle of celebrating because me and Bomi scores the highest went my eyes caught someone familiar.

No, it can't be.

It's

N-Naeun

And

I-Ilhoon

I felt my heart shattered into pieces.

She'll be gone because?

Because she will flirt with Ilhoon? Is that so?

But she told me that they are just bestfriend.

I won't let it bother me, because i thought that her bestfriend might be sulking that she always spend her time with me.

But then minutes later.

I saw a little kid running towards them.

"Mommy! Daddy!" The kid called for them meeting them halfway.

Naeun instantly scoup the kid in her arms.

I am hurting with what i am witnessing right now.

She kiss the kid and Ilhoon on their cheeks, and then they play in the arcade.

When i glance over my shoulder, I saw my friends with their jaw hanging open.

So they witness it too, the scene that breaks my heart into pieces.

So in that moment i can't stop the tears that flood from my eyes, I leave the scene with my friends following behind me.

i thought i could talk with her, but we didn't.

I didn't even got to hear her explaination to why she is spending time with Ilhoon and why she is with a kid.

Because I left the scene in a hurry.

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The next following day i saw them in an ice cream shop, happily eating.

She didn't even bother to check her surrounding.

I take a step back and walk away from the ice cream shop.

END OF FLASHBACK

Here I am today, I always got drunk after that incidents.

I just want to drink my pain away.

I will always go to the bar and get wasted.

My friends are there for me to look out for me if i get drunk too much or if someone is going to take advantage of me.

This is how my routine works.

Few more days and i'm going to graduate. But i become reckless with my life.

Why is it like this?

Why do i have to become like this now.

I'm in so much pain right now.

"Love, you are zoning out throughout the day. If you are not drinking, you are either zoning out." Bomi said worriedly.

Eventhough Bomi is the most cheeky among us, she is still caring.

Here i am again, i'm starting to cry. Remembering the last day i've met up with Naeun.

She changed me a lot.

My first kiss.

My true love.

I missed All those days where she nags me because i don't listen to her well and caught me staring at her.

Those days where we tickles each other inside my room.

My room is special. It witness the bond i have with Naeun.

I don't let anyone in.

But her, she is the only person who can come in and go out my room.

That's why i am here, in the guest room.

Because it's so painful being in the vicinity of my room.

I don't want my room to remind me of All of those happy memories we had.

It's so painful because after all she just suddenly left.

She suddenly leave me without a valid reason.

She is just like my parents. Just like Sungyeol.

I didn't bother to hide the pain i am feeling and cried hard.

And Bomi, even though i didn't said anything to her, she comforts me and gave me a hug.

"I don't know what to do anymore. She is the one that i really love but she inflict me pain. And It's really painful." I croaked.

I can't control my tears anymore and breakdown infront of Bomi.

I didn't go to university for a week now.

I just want to skip class.

My Dad tries to contact me, but i turn off my phone.

I don't want to talk to anyone yet.