Jinyoung keep running until he cant run anymore.

He felt his heart hurt, he cant take it anymore and he scream.

A loud and clear shout. Thank god there is nobody around him.

He feel so suffocated when he remember how Youngjae touch his Jaebeom, when Jaebeom kiss Youngjae.

He cant believe what he saw, his Jaebeom on Youngjae embrace.

The place that his. Jaebeom is his. "Jaebeom is mine" Jinyoung scream.

Stop this Jinyoung, Jaebeom is not a thing, you cant think like that. Remember what we learn in the therapy? We need to consider Jaebeom feelings. Jinyoung mind try to to be reasonable.

Jinyoung take a deep breathe.

He calm himself, he cant keep getting emotional or else something bad will happen.

He tried to be rational, but Jinyoung cant understand why Bambam,Yugyeom and Youngjae call his Jaebeom as Jay. Why did they do that? And why Jaebeom look like he dont care? I need to investigate this.

He walk back to the cafe to take his motorcycle back and with his suprise he saw Jaebeom looking at his bike.

Jinyoung gather his courage and walk towards Jaebeom

"Anthing wrong?" Jinyoung

"Ouh, is this yours? I am sorry, I thought somebody leave this bike in front the cafe and I was trying to find any information about the owner." Jay said while smiling.

Jinyoung stunned when he saw Jaebeom smile

"Hello?" Jay 

"Ouh sorry, the weather look nice after I ate and I want to enjoyed it while walking and forget about my bike." Jinyoung

"Yeah the weather look good today." Jay said while look up at the sky

Jinyoung saw how sharp Jaebeom jawline is and he still remember how he like to tease his lover about how his jawline can kill somebody.

"Urm you did not introduce yourself so I dont know how to call you." Jay

"Jin, you can call me Jin." Jinyoung

"Nice to meet you." Jay

"Yeah same here." Jinyoung 

Both Jinyoung and Jay just standing there looking away.

"Urm so enjoy your stay here." Jay broke the silence and when he turn back Jinyoung hold his arm

Jay look suprise

"Ouh sorry, I just want to ask something. If you dont mind me asking." Jinyoung

"Urmm, about what?" Jay

"Are you the mysterious photographer? The one that win the prestigious award from the competition? Jay Park?" Jinyoung

Jay blushes a little.

"How do you know? I mean yeah I just introduce myself as Jay Park but why do you ask me that?" Jay

"Just curious, because I am a fan, I mean my besfriend is your hard die fan of your work. I also like your work so when I see the picture inside the cafe and also your full name is Jay Park and I connect the dots and that is why I ask." Jinyoung

"Urm if I told you this I hope you dont tell anyone?Including your best friend. Can you do that?" Jay

Jay look at Jinyoung with a hopeful eye.

"I will, I promised." Jinyoung

"Actually my boyfriend and my friend dont approve me entering any competition outside here and they really mad at me about it. So they really dont want any other person know about me being Jay Park. So I hope you dont tell anyone please? Its really hard to persuade them to agree with me continuing this hobby of mine after that happen." Jay

"Why? You are so talented." before Jinyoung want to continue they hear Bambam calling for Jay

""Sorry need to go. Hope I can see you again Jin." Jay said and walk away

Jinyoung standing still when he heard Jaebeom said 'See you again." 

Again, Jaebeom  said he want to meet me again. Jinyoung feel relieved, he hasnt heard the words for 2 years and now he heard it again.

Jinyoung rode his bike to his apartment again.

Inside his apartment he still cant believe what happen to him.

Today he got to know that his boyfriend have a new name, new boyfriend and a new life?

Jinyoung still cant believe that Yugyeom. Bambam and Youngjae lie to him about Jaebeom and why? Why do they hide Jaebeom away from the world like why?

Jinyoung ponder about Jaebeom friend behaviour. 

He still remember that Bambam and Yugyeom is a nice kid that Jaebeom introduce to him as a friend. They really love their hyung. He still can remember when Jaebeom parents die both of them accompany Jaebeom to come back home and helping with all the things. They also been there when Jaebeom sad. They are a good friends but why did they do this to me? Is it because how i treat Jaebeom before?

FLASHBACK

"Hyung lets go karaoke" Bambam said one day after they finished closing the cafe

"Yes, Its been a whle right?" Yugyeom

"I am fine with it. How bout you babe?' Jaebeom

"I dont want too. You know how people will be when they heard you singing right, remember that one time at the bar? They all come to you and want to know you. I hate it." Jinyoung

"Jinyoung hyung, that happen in the bar. Now we are talking about karaoke room just us 4 people or we can ask Youngjae to come with us." Yugyeom

"No I dont want it, why we need to ask that guy?" Jinyoung snarl

"Well that guy is one of our staff and a friend too why not?" Bambam

"He always flirting with my Jaebeom." Jinyoung whine

"No he did not why are you saying that babe?" Jaebeom chuckle

"Cant we just go back home. I am tired already. I wanna cuddle with you only." Jinyoung

"You not doing anything, why are you tired?" Bambam

"He is tired because he keep glaring at anyone that Jaebeom hyung entertain and when Jaebeom smile at other people. That is why he keep feeling tired." Yugyeom

"I am not." Jinyoung

"Yes you are, you know Jaebeom hyung is always attend the customer right? Why did you need to be around him when you dont have schedule?" Yugyeom

"Why not, he is my boyfriend, he is mine okay." Jinyoung

"Hyung you need to remember that Jaebeom is a human okay, not a things he needs some freedom, I know im just anew kid but i saw that you always control Jaebeom hyung. Why? What are you afraid off?" Yugyeom

"I am not! Jaebeom remember when you ask me why I hate this kid? This is the reason. He always talk nonsense." Jinyoung whine

"Enough both of you, its not nice to say that to each other. Yugyeom, he is not controlling me okay. I am fine and Jinyoung, Yugyeom just asking do not need to get upset at." Jaebeom.

Both of them just keep silent and after a while they agree to go to the karaoke for only an hour.

Yugyeom always secretly told Bambam and Jaebeom how he dont like the way Jinyoung control Jaebeom and he also saw that Jinyoung throw a hot cup of tea at Jaebeom just because Jaebeom is tired to accompany him to go shopping. But Jaebeom just shrug that and tell them its just a small matter. Jaebeom also told Jinyoug bout this beause Jaebeom never keep a secret from Jinyoung and Jinyoung remember how he react and he is ashame with what he has done.

END FLASHBACK

 

Maybe its true, they want to hide Jaebeom from me because of my past self. I realize I am not a good person but I have change, I have change to a better person and I need to know the truth. Why would they do that to me.

Jinyoung getting ready to go to the market to ask about Jay Park.

He arrive at the market and straight away go to the granny stall that sell the tteok.

"Hi halmeoni." Jinyoung

"Well hello, what can I help you young man?"

"Can I get the sweet red bean tteok?" Jinyoung

"Whoah you like that kind? Just like Jay." 

Jinyoung smile his plan work

"Who is Jay? Your grandchild?" Jinyoung

"Hahahah, no no no. But he act like one. He also love this kind of tteok. He also handsome just like you or maybe more handsome that you hahahhahahaha just kidding"

"Ahh, its okay. Thank you." Jinyoung blushes

"He is one of a weird man, he come here 2 years ago not long time ago. When the first time I met him he was so sick and skinny. He used to come with 3 other young man. But nowadays he come alone. Poor him, I heard from people that he moved here after he get into an accident at his hometown. But I dont know what really happen because we you know here we only hears the rumour and its quite popular because he is one of a kind handsome man. Usually people with that face really not nice with other people but he is one in a million. He rarely smile before but now he smile beautifully." granny

"Wow you really adore him right?" Jinyoung

"Yes I do, he always helping me when he come here such a nice young man. He always told me about himself." 

"Really? Its hard to find someone that love to talk with elderly people like you." Jinyoung

"Yes, he told me especially when he is sad. Poor Jay."

"I hope he is fine. How much all of this halmeoni?" Jinyoung

"Because you are such a nice man ive give 10% discount."

"No need no need, why you do this?" Jinyoung

"Aigoo just take it." 

"Thank you halmeoni! Its nice to talk with you. I hope we can do this again." Jinyoung

"Yes of course we can talk again."

Jinyoung said his goodbye and bowing to the granny.

He was on his way back to his apartment when he saw someone familiar back on a bycycle.

The guy was cycling and then stop, Jinyoung just watch the stranger.

The stranger took off his bag and take out his camera.

Jinyoung feels the familiarity and come closer. 

He watch the stranger that focusing on taking a picture of the sky.

He approach the guy.

"Hello." Jinyoung

The stanger flinch with a suprise look when he saw Jinyoung

"Jin? What are you doing here?" Jay

"I am sorry if I suprise you, Jay right? I was on my way home." Jinyoung

"Yes, oh my god i was really shocked, I was alone if I am not mistaken then I heard the voice i thought its a ghost or something." Jay

"So you like taking picture at night?"Jin

"Nah, I just take picture when I am in the mood or when my boyfriend is fast asleep. hahahahahahahha." Jay

Jinyoung face turn sour when Jaebeom said boyfriend but the he smile again.

"Why?" Jinyoung

"Ive got a lil bit of a clingy boyfriend. Btw this is my first time seeing you without your mask."Jay

Jinyoung was shocked he forgot that he did not wear his mask.

So Jaebeom already saw his face but he still call me Jin right?

"Ah yes, its at night so I just bare myself with the coldness." Jinyoung laugh

"You are a funny person." Jay

"Your boyfriend also said that you are a funny person too." Jinyoung

"Dont ever believe what Youngjae said, he alwasy exaggerating when he talk about me." Jay chuckle

Jinyoung saw how Jaebeom eyes change and the sparkle when he talk about Youngjae

"How long have you dated each other?" Jinyoung

Jay just watch Jinyoung with a questionable face

"I am sorry? Is that personal? I just curious because Youngjae look so happy when he talk about you." Jinyoung

"Nah, its fine eventhough we just meet, I feel like we have meet before hahahahaha even if I doubt it." Jay

"Why?" Jinyoung

"Urmm should I told you? hahahahha I ususally told my friend only" Jay

"Lets be friend!" Jinyoung say excitedly

"Hahahahahah you are the easy going person huh?" Jay

"Well, I will stay here quite a long time so I need friend you know hahahahahah." Jinyoung

"Okay then lets be friend" Jay

"Nice meeting you friend hahahahahah." Jinyoung

"You may think Im strange but I think you were my bestfriend hahahahahaha dont let my best best friend know." Jay

"Ha ha ha ha, I will not. So will you start answering my question?" Jinyoung

"I will but can we start later I need to take this beautiful scenery first." Jay

"Okay,you can come to my apartment if you want and I can make you some tea?" Jinyoung

"Urmm, I dont think so because if my boyfriend realize Im out he will be angry. How about next time?" Jay

Even before Jinyoung answer, Jaebeom phone ring.

"Oops, my bestfriend call me wait." Jay said while answering the call

After a few minute

"I am sorry Jin, I think we need to continue this another time. My bestie want me home right now or he will wake Youngjae up and a grumpy Youngjae is the least person you want to meet." Jay

"Nevermind, see you next time." Jinyoung 

"Okay, bye." Jaebeom ride his bycycle and cycle away.

When Jinyoung cant see Jaebeom's figure he just realize something

"I should ask for his ing number. Stupid Jinyoung."

 

 

Jay cycle faster to his house, he cant believe he meet with Jin tonight. The guy that he meet at the cafe and he felt familiar with him. Even when he wears mask he feel like he know him and now when he did not wear his mask he still does not know if he knows or not Jin. His memory lost really make its hard but he dont know why his heart feel warm when he hear Jin laugh.Jay just shrugg it off and cycle away as fast as he can.

"Wherre are you going hyung?" Bambam

"Bam, I already said I went to take a picture." Jay

"You know its quite dangerous you went there alone. You should ask me or Yugyeom." Bambam

"Bambam its not dangerous at all and if I take you guys, you guys will be bored and whine me to come back home early." Jay

"But hyung, you can get lost, dont you remember last 3 months ago how you lost and forget to bring your phone? We have to search you everywhere. Dont you see how Yungjae freak out and how Yugyeom and me so worried about you?" Bambam

"Its just a slip of my mind, I dont know why I can get lost.And its been 3 months I did not get lost at all." Jay

"Yes I know but what if the slip of your mind happen again. The doctor already said that your case is quite strange. I know you think 2 years is a long time and you are already heal but you still dont healed yet hyung. Sometime you wake up and you dont remember anything right hyung? Dont say no, I can see your face when you look so confused in one of the morning and after a while you remembered and you become yourself again. I know that you think your injury is not that bad but you have to know it is. That is why we still need to know where you are going, what time and you still carry the cards that we put inside all your pockets on you hoodies and jeans right? All of our information and our address? You need that hyung. Please the next time you wanna go out alone please tell us so we can know where to find you." Bambam plead Jay with a shaking voice

"Bambam, dont cry please. I dont know why I took your concern lightly, I thought you guys already fine with me being alone and I know my sickness is bad but I just want to feel some freedom you know? I hate when I frequently need you guys assist me everywhere I go. I am so sorry. I will try my best to change myself. I seriously thought that I can handle this myself and I forget about all your feelings. I am so sorry." Jay

"Hyung, we really dont want to feel the same thing that happen when you have the accident or when you lost. We were so scared, there is a reason why we only allowed you alone when its day light, because your episode usually come when its night ime. You always blank out sometime at the night right? You dont need to apologize hyung. I know we dont feels what you feel hyung that is why we do anything to make you not feel like we are suffocate you hyung. Just wherever you want to go just tell us. That is all we ask." Bambam

"I will, I will. I am so sorry I worried you guys." Jay

"Okay hyung, now you can go and rest hyung. Dont forget to eat your medicine." Bambam

"I will, goodnight Bam." Jay

 

 

TO BE CONTINUE