The first thing that Jay notices is the phone background. The picture of Jinyoung kissing him. They look so happy, Jay dont know who took the picture but the picture turn out to be one of a beautiful candid picture he have seen. He can see that Jinyoung and himself? were so happy. Jinyoung kissed him while smiling and Jay also smile wih his close eye. Its beautiful. Does this mean I am or I  was Jinyoung boyfriend?

Jay open the photo gallery and he scroll down a lot of Jinyoung picture, a picture of a cat cafe, a brownish siamese cat, a picture of silly Bambam and Yugyeom. A few guys in a cat cafe that he does not recognized.But almost 90% of the picture in the gallery is Jinyoung's. The smiling Jinyoung, the sleepy Jinyoung, the sulking Jinyoung, Jinyoung reading a book, Jinyoung with a face full of ice cream and also the weird faces Jinyoung make. He dont know if this phone is his or Jinyoung's.

Then he moved to read the chat message and yes their is one chat message name Nyoungie with a red heart. The conversation goes on like 

Nyoungie :

Babe where are you? When will you come back home?

Me :

A few minutes more, I am gonna close the cafe soon after Youngjae finished his chores

Nyoungie :

You are alone with Youngjae?

Me :

Of course not, Bambam also here.

Nyoungie :

Ouh okay, come back now. I missed you.

Me :

Okay, I wil come soon.

And the chats goes with a very cheesy love line, a few chores and a little bickering between me and Nyoungie.

He still dont know what happen in the past but he can grasp from the photo and messages that him and Nyoungie aka Jinyoung is indeed in a relationship. But he dont know why his friend said his boyfriend is Youngjae and not Jinyoung. This make his head hurt, after  he take a little break he continue to search on the phone with any clues about his past and after he sure that there is nothing else that can help him. 

He take his own phone and watch the video that Shin sent to him. He was shocked seeing Youngjae and Jinyoung together at the park. SO maybe this is when Yougjae leave for a while yesterday. He click on the video and watch the two boys talking. Firstly he does not realize what they talk about. Someone named Jaebeom? Jinyoung dating Jaebeom but then Youngjae like Jaebeom too. Who is Jaebeom. But then he watch and listen carefully to their conversation and then it hits him.

Jay Park is actually Lim Jaebeom?

Jinyoung beat Lim Jaebeom until the Jaebeom guy in a bad condition and lost his memory but the way Jinyoung said it was like he also dont realize he was attacking the Jaebeom guy.

But the next thing that he catch from the video nearly make him breathless.

His friend not only lied to Jinyoung but also planned with Youngjae to act as his lover. So Youngjae just acting with him? He does it so that I will not remember Jinyoung? His friends lied about his past and hide him from Jinyoung. Jinyoung is actually his bestfriend and also his lover. The new info really make his head ache and his heart feels like someone stab him with a knife. He need to talk to his FRIEND. 

 

Jinyoung awake this morning in his wrong side of the bed. He awake with a jolt after a bad dream. He dreams that Jaebeom will leave him and this time he will not comeback again and when he take his bath he does not realize he turn the cold water and not the hot one so he was shocked when a cold hard water hit his back. he curses and blame the dreams that make all his morning one of a bad morning he had.

After taking a light breakfast Jinyoung watches the news. He actually does not take any care on the news, he was thinking about Jay and why does he change suddenly.Usually Jay the one who will make Jinyoung stay so they can have their talk about any topics and he know its only a day he comeback here but he does feel weird when Jay treat him with a sudden coldness. Its not like him at all. He tried to ease his mind but he dont know how. He tried so hard to think if he has done anything to make Jay upset. Maybe Jay upset when he went to Seoul without informing him? But Yongjae said he was fine with it.

Jinyoung decided to go to the cafe to talk to Jay but today is his unlucky day when he was greeted by Bambam saying Jay is not at the cafe.

"Why Jinyoung hyung?" Bambam

"Urmm, nothing. Last night I came accross with Jay. He looks sad for a reason." Jinyoung

"Yes, Jay hyung act differently a few days ago but today he went back to his usual self." Bambam

"Really? Im glad." Jinyoung

"Bambam?" Jinyoung

"Yes hyung." Bambam

"Yesterday Youngjae told me about your plan hiding Jay from me." Jinyoung

Bambam's eye open with a shocked confused face

"What?" Bambam

"Dont worry, Youngjae already explain it to me. I will not get angry with you.I understand but Bambam, you know I have change right?" Jinyoung

"Yes hyung, I can see that." Bambam

"I am so thankful that you give me another chance for me to be with Jay. Its mean so much to me. You dont know how your action light up my life that always been dark since Jaebeom leave me." Jinyoung

"Hyung, I am also so sorry. I cant think straight at that time. We were all so shocked about what happen that time that we only think about how to make things right again and at that time Yugyeom plan feels so right and we just follow him. We never thought about your feeling hyung." Bambam

"Never mind Bambam, I think I will do the same thing if it happen to me." Jinyoung

"Bambam." Yugyeom

"You arrive Yugyeom, I thought you will be out late." Bambam

"Ive change my plan. So you are here Jinyoung hyung?" Yugyeom

"Yes, i arrive yesterday." Jinyoung

There an awkward silence between them.

"I just want to say sorry for my act last few weeks ago. I dont know why I make my emotion take over me." Yugyeom

"Its fine Yugyeom, I understand." Jinyoung give his motherly smile.

"I missed seeing your smile hyung, even though we always fighting in the past. Youare one of my favourite hyung because you make Jay happy." Yugyeom

"Thank you, Yugyeom. I missed you guys too." Jinyoung

"So I assume you have the talk with Youngjae?" Bambam

"Yes I do." Jinyoung

"I hope he treats you kindly." Bambam

"He said he will, I know his feeling Bambam. If I was in his shoes I also will act the same way. Now I just want to focus being Jay friend. I saw that Jay love and adore Youngaje. Jay is happy with Youngjae and I will be happy when Jay is happy so just let the past go and creat a good memory in the future." Jinyoung

"You are so kind hearted hyung, we are so sorry with what we have done to you. You are a changed person." Bambam

"Therapy and medicine help me a lot and after Jaebeom leave me I always think about what I have done wrong  and I promised myself to make it right if i found Jaebeom again. We may not be like we used to but I am so happy I can still see his smile and I can hear his voice. That is all I asked for" Jinyoung

Bambam and Yugyeom look at Jinyoung with a sad face. Both of them feel so guilty with what they have done. 

"I promise to be more open with Jay and Youngaje, I admit I was jealous at first and the reason I went back to Seoul is to take a break from seeing both of them. But now, I just thankful because I missed him when I was at Seoul and I realize I am fine with who ever Jaebeom choose as a lover as long as I am with him by his side." Jinyoung

"You truly love him right hyung?" Bambam

"I am Bambam, I am." Jinyoung

Youngjae voices emerge from the kitchen and disturb their little conversation.

"You are here Jinyoung hyung? Looking for Jay? Sorry he was tired and he stay at home today." Youngjae

"Nevermind, I want to see you guys too." Jinyoung

Youngjae look at Jinyoung.

"What with that face Youngjae ah?" Jinyoung

"I ams tupid right?" Youngjae

"We all are and now let put our past in the past. Let enjoy now and perhaps in the future too?" Jinyoung

"Yes hyung."

 

 

Meanwhile at Jay house. Jay was contemplating if he need to confront his friend of not. He need to think thoroughly. If he confront his friend will they tell him the truth? If he act that nothing happen can his heart take the hurt feeling? Jay dont know what to do. He feel like he cant do anything right now. He want to go far away from here. Should he? He has enough money and he can make money anywhere right? But what if he has another episode, no one knows how to help him except his friend. Jay really dont know what to do. He is tired and feeling restless. 

Jay is so sad with what happen to him.A guy who lost eveything, a guy who need his friend to survive but then the same friend lie to him, It was a hard blow for Jay. He never thought his friend would do this to him. Jay need to take a breathe. He walk out from the house without bring anything. No handphone, no wallet not even the card that has information about him if he had an episode.

He walk and walk. Jay dont know where he is walking to. He does not think at all. He just walk. Then something flashes in his mind.

"Beom ah!" a sound of a kid calling.

"Beom ah!"

"Want strawberry candy?"

Jay clucthes his head to make the sound disappear. 

Then he heard someone voices

"Jaebeom ah, I love you." 

"I love you Jaebeommie."

"Love You so much!" 

Then his mind show him some fighting scene.

There is someone being beaten up by someone else

"You are mine!"

"You are mine!!!"

"You are mine."

Jay body feel the hurt even though he is not the one being beaten up.

His mind playing the scene over and over again.

Until he heard a loud honk and crash.

Jay body flew a few metre away after the impact from the car who hit him.

The driver calll the ambulance and tried to see if Jay is injured.

Jay's body feel numb he cant feel anything. He tried to open his eye when he heard the man ask him to keep opening his eye. He look at the sky and then a one drop from the rain hit his face. He really love the rain. Then Jay only see the darkness.

Bambam asked Jinyoung to stay for dinner. They all went to the house but Youngjae feel weird when he see the house is so dark.

"Why the house so dark, Jay forgot to turn on the light?" Youngjae run toward the house

"Jay?" Youngjae call and nobody answered

Youngjae went upstair to find Jay but there is nobody in his room. He come running downstair

"Bambam, he is not here." Youngjae

"What do you mean?" Bambam

"He is not in his room and his phone is inside the room and I foud something else." Youngjae

"What?" Yugyeom

"His old phone." Youngjae

"What? You dont throw it away?" Yugyeom

"Actually I did save a few photo album and his phone just in case he remembered something but I swear I kept it inside a box." Younhjae

"What if he found the box?"Bambam

"I hope not but his old phone is inside the box." Youngjae

"Youngjae you go and searched the box at your room while me and Bambam will search the box at Jay's room. Yugyeom how wbout you searched for Jay around this area? I think he went for a walk." Jinyoung

"But its raining outside." Yugyeom

"Jaebeom love the rain so much, its not a suprise if he take a walk in the rain." Jinyoung

"Okay, I will try to look for him." Yugyeom

"Bambam lets go and search Jay's room." Jinyoung

Both of them went to Jay's room and try to find the box. They look at every places they can found but they did not find the box. Jinyoung try to remember where will Jaebeom like to hid his things. Even though Jaebeom rarely hide things from Jinyoung but sometimes he will hide his favourite snack or a suprise gift for Jinyoung. Jaebeom usually hide those thing at some ridiculous space. 

"Is there a place where he like to put his underwear? Not in the cupboard I assume?" Jinyoung

"I think he put his underwear inside the toilet? I dont know why but hyung really dont like people see his underwer." Bambam

"Just like Jaebeom, he is so ashame if people see his precious underwear, lets look inisde the toilet." Jinyoung

Jinyoung look around the toilet and found one storage box, he open the box and there it is a smal box among all the simpsons underwear. Jinyoung open the box and he gasp, inisde the box is his childhood photo album and also a few of his and Jaebeom picture. He cry immedeately when he see the picture.

"I thought I lost all of this precious picture." Jinyoung

"I am sorry hyung." Bambam tried to soothing Jinyoung.

"Does this mean he know?" Jinyoung

"I dont know hyung. But I am afraid. Is this the reason he left the house?" Bambam

Both Bambam and Jinyoung go downstair with the box.

"Wheer did you found it? Inside Jay room?" Youngjae

Jinyoung just nod.

Youngjae face turn pale and then he abruptly fall down.

"Youngjae aaahh." Jinyoung

"This is all my fault right? Because I want to keep Jay away from you now the god punish me. This is all my fault. This is all my fault." Youngjae

"Shussh, we dont know what happen yet. Maybe Jay just go and went for a walk. Dont worry everything wil be fine." Jinyoung

Youngjae cant think anything right now, he is so scared. He just want to see Jay and explain everything.

"I should just burn away all this, its because of me Jay knew about the secrets." Youngjae

"But Youngjae, you are trying to help him right. Jay is really a considerate friend, dont worry he will listen to all your explanation." Jinyoung

Then they heard a loud bang, Yugyeom come rushing in with a worried face

"Jay hyung got into accident." Yugyeom

Jinyoung never knew one speech will make his body tremble.

"What?" Youngjae

"Bambam, remember our regular customer who works as a nurse? He just call me when there is someone get into accident but they dont know who becaus ethere is no ID, but the he recognize him as Jay hyung. We need to go now." Yugyeom

 

The way to the hospital only took them 20 minutes with how fast Bambam drive but still Jinyoung felt like an enternity. He look at Youngjae who face white as a porcelain. Jinyoung felt so sorry toward Youngjae, he dont know why but the news really affected Youngjae. Maybe because he thinks its his fault Jay got into accident. Jinyoung take Youngjae hand and give an assuring grip.

They went straight to the emergency room to know what happen to Jay. The nurse who in charge of Jay case told them the doctors have to do an emergency operation on him when he lost a lot of blood

"Is he gonna be fine?" YUgyeom

" We doing everything to make sure the patient is okay." the nurse said and walk away

The three of them dont know what to do. Everyone is so anxious. Now Jinyoung know how Bambam, Yugyeom and Youngjae feels 2 years ago and he really dont mind at all after what they have done to him. Jinyong heartbeat still beat so hard that he dont know how to calm himself. Jinyoung look at Bambam who quitely sobbing, Yugyeom who just stare into the walls and there is Youngjae. He knows that Youngjae and him feels the same things afraid of losing Jay but Youngjae look worse in his opinion. He just sit there shaking. We were waiting for almost an hour then the doctor come out.

"Who is the realtive of Jay Park?" Doctor

"He does not have any relative and we are his friend." Bambam

"Okay, thankfully he is not in a deathly situation even when he lost a lot of blood. He was hit qith a hard impact and I think this will make his brain will have some effect and if Im not mistaken there is a record about him that he has suffred a lost memory because some past accident?" Doctor

"Yes he does," Bambam

"So we are not sure what will happen to him now, we need to wait for him to be awake but if and only if he does not awake for another 24 hours his brain will automatically be in a coma, but I hope that is not the case here. There is not many outside wound except with his broke legs and also broken wrist for other inside wound we need to further checking after he woke up. SO now we need to pray that mr Jay will awake soon. That all for now." Doctor

Bambam nod at the doctor and say his thank. After another 35 minutes they finally can see Jay inside a room. He is still not awake from the operation. When Bambam saw his hyung like that he remember the same image 2 years ago but this time there is a lot of wires and also his leg being in a cast. Bambam did not said anything, he just look at Jay. The one who crying loudly is Yugyeom he cry as soon as he saw Jay condition. Jinyoung try to sooth him out. Youngjae immediately went beside Jay bed and look at his boyfriend condition. He give a little peck on Jay face at the area that is not connected with wires.

Jinyoung juststood and watch. He dont know how will his friend survive this blow, they usde to watch Jay like this but Jinyoung watch the lifeless Jay for the firsttime and he will do anything to erase this image from his mind. He cant bare to watch Jay looking like a corpse the only thing that show Jayisstill alive is the beeping machine beside him. Jinyoung try to be the brave one and not gonna cry in front his friend. He never thought this will happen. He silently pray to god to make Jay wakes up from his deep sleep.

 

 

TO BE CONTINUE