"How could you?" Jinyoung

"We will do anything to make sure Jay will be fine in the future and because what you have done to him, we will do anything. This idea of you being Jay friend was a big mistake. I already told Bambam it will never work. You will never sacrifice your feelings. You think I did not realize your longing toward my boyfriend? I just keep mum because Jay were happy whenever you guys talk about whatever." Youngjae

"But why you keep me and my relationship with Jaebeom? He is my bestfriend first before my boyfriend. You need to tell me about him. He does not have any other relatives after the accident. Do you guys thought about how willl Jaebeom feel when he know the truth? He really hate when somone lie to him. Its was his biggest phobia ever. Have you guys thought about it before you guys conduct this stupid plan?" Jinyoung

"What? We dont know about that," Youngjae

"I doubt it if you guys know about it. Jaebeom will never told anybody bout it except for me and his late parent. I will forgive you guys when you all lied to Jaebeom about his past relationship with me but I dont know how will he react if he know." Jinyoung

"We were so sure that he will never know. We already burn any evidence about your relationship with him." Youngjae

"What? You burn it? Why? You all took our couple things and burn it? How could you? I already lost my connection with Jaebeom when he leave me but then when I arrive home and see all our couple things is gone do you know how hard it is for me to keep my memories of him? I nearly die. Just like you Youngjae I also cant live without Jaebeom but because I cherished all my memory with him I dont even want to kill myself because I only have me as remain that I and Jaebeom is a couple." Jinyoung

Jinyoung sobs.

Youngjae look at him but not with resentment but with a guilty feeling.

"I am sorry." Youngjae

"What?" Jinyoung

"I am sorry, I know I am a jerk with you but Jinyoung you have to know me, Bambam and Yugyeom was truly afraid what will happen to Jaebeom if he still stay with you. Our decision that time was not thoroughly thought of, because we just want to make him safe and what you done to him, I hope you will never see it. I know its not 100 % your faullt but you still and you still are the reason he become like this. You beat him so hard and you stranggle him until his neck has bruises. His head was urghh. The wound and every marks that you give him is still in my head and that is one of the reason why I cant accept you when you want to be Jay friend." Youngjae

"I seriously dont know what I have done to him , I just remember that I stranggle him. That is all, I swear I am not in a good condition at that time. My illness have taken my mind. I cant tell you how sorry I am. I think God has punished me when he took Jaebeom away from me." Jinyoung

"I also sorry that because of the acting, I really fall in love with Jay. Who would not right? He was perfect as a guuy even when he cant remember about me being his boyfriend he still being so kind and passionate toward me. At first I was so sorry that I have to pretend to be his boyfriend but deep inside my heart I always have a little crush on him but I just ignore the feeling when I see how happy you guys with each other. But I am also a human being, I keep getting greedy when I love how he said I love you, how he kiss me and how he make me feel as a boyfriend." Youngjae

"I cant say that I am happy with what you just told me but thanks for telling me so now he is Jay Park, your boyfriend and not Lim Jaebeom my boyfriend but I beg you let me be his friend?" Jinyoung look at Youngaje with pleading eyes

Youngjae feel so touched when he heard Jinyoung words, he never knew once a possesive boyfriend Jinyoung used to be now being so humble asking for a frienship to the person who took away his love life. Youngjae took Jinyoung hand and give a reassuring grip.

"I will let you be his friend, I will change my attitued toward you.It was hard for me too to keep vile toward you. Now after you have gone I keep thinking and thinking and I will let fate decide my relationship with Jay." Youngjae

"No,no dont say like that, please keep fighting. I dont know what will happen in the future but I regret I did not fight for Jaebeom when I leave him alone. I dont want you to do that. I saw how Jay love you too. I admit I was jealous but I want him to be happy Youngaje and I am sure that he will never remember me." Jinyoung

"But, if he does remember you and he want to be with you and not me. I will let him go the same thing you done to me." Youngjae smile

Jinyoung always know Yungjae has a good heart. Even when he always being vile toward Youngjae but the younger guys still treats him as a friend. Youngjae always greet him with a smile even when Jinyoung always scowl to him.

"I am truly with whatever thing ive done to you in the past." Jinyoung

"Dont be, I already get my revenge a few weeks ago." Youngjae chuckle

They walk towards the cafe with a light clear feeling within themself. Without they realize someone heard their conversation.

 

 

Jinyoung stay at the cafe and he feel sorry toward Youngjae. Its clear that Jay is avoiding Youngjae, he keep his distance from Youngjae and when Youngjae tried to touch or kiss him, Jay will flinch. But Youngjae is also a very persisstence, he keep coming toward Jay and eventually Jay will let Youngjae hug him but Jay still have the cold face. He did not even smile.Jinyoung feel like something wrong have happen to Jaybut he dont know what. He have to wait for Jay to told him.

 

It was 8pm when Jinyoung stumble into Jay when he want to buy ramen in the convenience shop. Jay just come out with strawberry icecream.

"Are you alone?" Jinyoung

"You see anyone else?" Jay

"Touche, do they know you went out?" Jinyoung

Jay keep still and quite.

"Youget out secretly?" Jinyoung

Jay still did not said anything he just open his ice cream.

"You wait here, dont go anywhere." Jinyoung

Jinyoungcome insidethe shop and take anyramen thathe found and a vanilla ice cream. He pay for everything and went outside quickly.

"Wanna talk?" Jinyoung

Jay just shrug his shoulder and walk away. Jinyoung followed him untl they reached at some bus stop.

Jay take a sit and Jinyoung sit beside him

"So want to talk?" Jinyoung

"The night is so calming right?" Jay

"Urmm i think so? Why?" Jinyoung

"When at night we cant see anything if there is no light right?" Jay

"Yes." Jinyoung

"Well sometimes in a broad day light i still cant see anything. I dont know who I am and what I am but I have my friends." Jay chuckle

"Okay." Jinyoung dont know how to respond

"But still some people hate night time because they are scared of darkness. While me, I love the darkness of the night time. I used to watch outside my window just to see the darkness. I feel like the darkness calming me. When in the dark I dont know anything and I like it." Jay

Jinyoung was so puzzle with what Jay said.

"You like when you dont know anything?" Jinyoung

"Yes, of course I like it. Imagine, you see kids keep playing at the park and they keep playing until its time to go back home. They dont know anything right when they play? But what if they knew that they will be separated with their friends and will cry begging their parents to stay for a while so they can keep playing. Do you think they will want to play or they will not play at all?" Jay

" Okay, what with that question? But the kids love it when they play right so I think if they knew it they will still play." Jinyoung

"I guess, yeah they will still play because they happy. But what if when they play and some kids got injured and they know about it, will they want to play again?" Jay

"I dont what happen to you Jay, but you keep saying what if, and I will say what if they never get injured or they will never cry because they already happy playing together? In this world there is no definite answer Jay. We just need to go with the flow." Jinyoung

"This one of a reason I like to talk to you Jinyoung, I like how your mind think." Jay

"Well I like yours too." Jinyoung

"Jinyoung, I never ask you but have you been in relationship?" Jay

"Why do you ask?" Jinyoung

"Just curious because you never talk about it and sometime I saw you like you missing someone." Jay

"Hurmm, Should I tell?" Jinyoung

"Its up to you." Jay

"Well, urmm I used to have a relationship but not anymore." Jinyoung

"Why?" Jay

"Things happen." Jinyoung smile

"You love him? Or is it a her?" Jay

"Its a him. Yes I love him." Jinyoung

"So why are you not in a relationship with the guy you love?" Jay

"I dont know Jay, I truly dont know." Jinyoung

Jay look at Jinyoung face

"Are you sad?" Jay

"A little" Jinyoung

"Sorry." Jay

"Its fine." Jinyoung

There is a silence between them the only sound that heard is the sound of cars on the road.

"So what happen with you and Youngaje?" Jinyoung

"Nothing," Jay

"Dont lie to me, I can see how different you act toward Youngjae, You love him right?" Jinyoung

"Yes I love him but like I said i really love when I was in the dark." Jay

Jinyoung look at Jay, Jay look sad but there is some thing on his face that Jinyoung dont know how to descibe him.

"Jay.." Jinyoung

"I need to go, I only wrote to them I went out for a while. Bye" Jay walk away

Jinyoung still frozen with what happen just now. He dont know what happen but the Jay that he talk to is so different with the Jay he talk with before he went to Seoul. What happen to Jay Park?

 

Jaycome inside the houseand he was waited by Bambam, Youngjae and Yugyeom

"Hyung" Bambam

"I wrote that I went to buy ice cream." Jay

"Babe? Something happen? Why are you avoiding us?" Youngjae

"No, I am not. Sorry I tired after all the walk." Jay said and went to the stairs but before he goes Youngjae catch his wrist

"Please Jay, tell me what happen? I was so scared Jay" Youngjae said while crying

"Why are you crying?" Jay

"You was so cold to him hyung." Yugyeom

Jay feels restless when he see Youngjae cry. Jay took Youngjae and give him a hug.

"Sorry."Jay

Youngjae cry harder

"Lets go to sleep." Jay took Youngjae hand and bring him to Youngjae's bedroom.

He keep hugging the younger guy and lay beside him. He make sure Youngjae already sleep when he wipe his tears. He give a small peck on Youngjae forehead

"I am sorry." Jay said and walk away and went to his room.

Jay close the door then he burst into a crying mess. His knee gave away and he slump into the floor. He keep crying. It was hard for him to keep a charade towards his friend. He was so tired when he keep getting away from Youngjae. He dont know what to do. He is still hurt when he know his friend and lover lied to him but he love his friend and lover and he dont know if he should keep loving them or just hate them. All the things thathappen to him make him so tired and feel like he cant take it anymore.

Jay keep thinking what if he never open the box? Is he will stay happy? If he will, he hope that he will lost his memory again so that everything will stay the same and now Jinyoung also here. What should he do? Jinyoung look said when he talk about his boyfriend. Is Jinyoung talk about me or his other relationship? Why does I think like that? Its only a kiss on the cheeks it does not mean we are in a relationship. 

I already sent the phone to the repair shop. I hope that phone will have something for my past. I need to know what is the reason that my friend need to hide from me.

 

The next morning Jay wakes up witha sore back. He fall asleep on the floor. He dont know when he fall asleep. He went inside the bathroom and saw his reflection on the mirror. Wow Jay, he look like he just lost his husband. His eyes is so swollen. He washes his face and take off his shirt. He love to get a bath. One of his favourite things to do is stand in the shower with warm water on his back.. 

AAfter done taking his bath he choose a simple black t shirt with and comfy short that he always wear. He look at the watch, ouh its only 6am. He went downstair and into the kitchen. Its been almost a week he did not come into the kitchen. He missed cooking. He took out his kimchi that granny from the market give to him. He look around the frigde and he found meats, tofu, carrot so he decided to make kimchi jjigae. His favourite food. He cut the kimchi into small bite.He cook in silence, After almost an hour he already finished cooking breakfast. He make kimchi jjigae, an ommellete and also side dishes that he bought at the market. He was arranging the food on the table when he heard the footsteps.

"Morning, lets eat." Jay

All three of them look at each other, they cant believe that their hyung make thier breaakfast affter a few days ago when he does not even care about it.

"Why are you still standing? Dont want to eat?" Jay

The three of them quickly take their seat but before Youngjae sit he come towards Jay he look at Jay with an hopeful face. Jay smile at Youngjae and caress his face.

"Take a seat and start eating." Jay

Youngjae nod and take his seat. They all eat in silence. Its a weird things that they are quite when they are together but no one said anything. They keep eating and keep take glances toward Jay.

"I am sorry ive been a jerk a few days ago. I dont know why my mood changes drastically. Am I always like this int he past too?" Jay

"No, I dont remember you being a moody ." Bambam answered

Jay chuckle

"Sorry I also dont know what happen to me." Jay

And there is the silent again.

"Urm Bambam do you want to tell me something?" Jay

"Told you what hyung?" Bambam

"Anything about my past?" Jay smile

"Urmm, I dont think so right Yugyeom?" Bambam

"Yeah hyung, we write everything on the journal about your past that we knew." Yugyeom

"Really?" Jay

"What are we talking about this early in the morning hyung?" Youngjae

"Just..Because, ehem sorry. Continue eat." Jay

 

Jay were on his way to the cafe when the repair shop call and said the phone is in a good condition already. Jay inform Bambam that he was tired and will not come to the cafe today. He went to the shop and took the phone. On his way back to the house he came across Shin.

"Oppa!!" Shin

"Shin ah what are you doing here?" Jay

"I was just on my way to your house oppa." Shin

"Why?"Jay

"You will not belive this but my friend record some guys bickering on the park a few days ago and I dont know why that silly friend of mine record that guys but when he showed it to me I recognize it was Jinyoung hyung and some guy I dont know so I want to ask if the guy is your boyfriend Youngjae." Shin

"Why do you assume that guy is my boyfriend?" Jay

"They bickering about you and some guy name Jaebeom and I dont know what they talking about but my friend record all their conversation because he thought they will start using their fist but luckily they not and I already take the video and make sure my friend deleted the video from his phone but I want to show you and make sure itsYoungjae." Shin

"Can I have a look?" Jay

Shin give her phone to Jay.

Jay watch the video for a seconds and ask" Can you give the video to me?" Jay

"Of course"Shin

"And yes that is my boyfriend Youngjae." Jay

"Cool man he looks handsome too but Jinyoung oppa is still the handsome one in my eye." Shin

Jay just chuckle and say thanks to Shin. He then walk faster to his house.

Now he has 2 things to look at is he ready to see whats in the phone?

Jay turn on the phone and he was greeted by Jinyoung picture. Is this Jinyoung's phone?

He swipe on the phone to unlocked the phone but unfortunately there is a password.

how should I know the password?

Jay tried a few combination but nothing happen.

Wait, if this is Jinyoung's phone so would he used his birth date? 

Should I ask him? Wait Jinyoung is a modeled right? I can google him right?

Okay his birth date is 22 September 1994

Jay  tried 2294

Incorrect

1994

Incorrect

9422

Incorrect

Urgh Jay become frustrated.

What if? Its never work right? Lets just try

2206

Incorrect

0622

The phone unlocked,

 

 

TO BE CONTINUE

 

 

Okay guys, I want to confess, I think this ff will not reached 20 chapter hahahahahah but from the draft I think  I can make it to 20 chapters but I dont know.I just want to say thanks to you who keep reading this ff. And to all my new subcribers thank you again! I hope you guy will enjoy this ff. I already change a few things from my original  draft because my original one is full with Jaebeom being hurt (I dont want to make him suffer).

Love

Minminhyo