7 I sit on couch inside a round office where it has its own fireplace. The place was not that grand but it feels more classy Victorian style. The curtains were mix gold and brown which suit with the table made from teak wood with masterpiece handwork carving at around the side of each legs. At one side of room it have huge bookcase covering the whole wall. This place seems older than the outside where all technology is part of the daily life. If I’m not feeling disoriented at moment, I might enjoy to explore this room.

“ Your father, is a very secretive person. “ Lee Sunny back with cup of tea on her hand before put it in front of me “ He mostly save everything for himself rather than share them to anyone. “ she continue as she sit herself on the sofa in front of me. “ A month before that accident, he’s been looking so distress, I don’t even know what happen inside his head until the day he died and leave me with a notebook with information about one person. You. “

I look at the woman and try to be as calm as I could, but everything she said is everything I try to avoid whole this time. Maybe I should just stop running away and accept the fact that Kwon Sang Hyun, the owner of SME, father of Yoona and Yuri, is indeed my biological father, but how could I…?

“ Why now..? “ I’m asking with cracking voice “ After all this time, I always been alone.. then suddenly one day I found that I actually have a father, just in time to witness his death couple hour later.. “

“ I’m so sorry for your losing Miss— “

“ No, you don’t understand! “ I cut her as my head snap and glare at her “ I.. don’t want all of this. “ I paused, shaking my head in disbelief, remembering the night of accident, “ What he said to me that night was crazy. I’m not her daughter and I’m not his heir. “ this time I said as I stand up, still glaring at the woman who looking at me with calmness.

“ I’m sorry, I wish I can help you with that but its all true. Your father even do parental test, with the result as 99%  match. “

I sit back down slowly to the sofa and ruffling my hair. This is impossible, how could this happen? “ Did.. “ I start before paused to swallow my saliva that choked in my throat, “ Did Yoona or Yuri knows..? “ Lee Sunny shook her head “ What about my grandma..? “ I ask again.

“ Not that I know off  .. “ she said sadly. I chuckled wryly before asking more question “ But how could this happen? How can I be his daughter.? “

Lee Sunny stand up again, this time walking behind the only table in the room. She grab something from it drawer before sit herself back in front of me. She then put something on table, a brown notebook, before lean slightly towards me “ I think you better read it yourself. “ she said as she push the book to me. “ I mean its about you, after all. “ she added.

I stare at the notebook before look up to her, I'm not really sure if it's a good idea, but after she gave me encourage smile, I finally reach the notebook and hold it with both hands. This notebook filled everything I want to know. About my parents, about my father, my mother, about myself. The question I always been asking this whole time, the answer is inside. But.. am I ready to face it..?

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I still in dazed when I'm waiting in front of the elevator. I really don’t know what should I do with the notebook inside my backpack. As much as I want to read it, part of me feel like its better if I don't know anything. What’s inside, definitely will change my life, and I’m still not sure if I want to do that. 

I sigh inwardly, and rake my hair back that fall onto my face. Let’s think about that later, I need back to my friends . The field trip will end soon and I don’t want to cause trouble with my sudden leave. I go inside the elevator and watch the door closing slowly, but before it completely shut off, I heard someone ask me to hold to it “ Hold the door please! “ I heard a quick step from outside and my hand stops the door spontaneously. A second later, a woman step inside the elevator. Her relief sigh then turn into defining silence once our eyes meet once the door finally closing. It's Jessica Jung.

Seriously?

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