I hated leaving like that, like a coward but I was so hurt.  I missed him so much yet I didn't even get to say a word to him. Tomorrow they would be returning to work.  They hadn't even finished one comeback and they were working on the next one.  Maybe I should just give them up now or give myself time to think.  I loved them but I didn't like how they were making me feel and I don't want to come between them. I should confront them, after all, they are probably curious about why I left.  If they even care.   I thought feeling sorry for myself.

As I sat there alone in my quiet little apartment, I wondered ... when did I fall for Yoongi?  I can't believe I'm whipped for both.

Hoseok had called me right after I left.  He asked me what's wrong.  He tried to make me feel better.  He wanted to come after me telling me he loved me, but my melancholic heart was convinced differently.  I just wanted to be alone and cry so I pushed him away.

"I'm okay." I lied.  "You should rest.  You have to work tomorrow.  Please tell little Yoongi I'm not mad at him and that I promise to call him tomorrow. Goodnight."  I said quickly before he could say anything more.  

Tomorrow there would be no time for me.  I knew this.  And if Yoongi tells him that we made love, it will really be over.  There's no going back.  It's too painful. 

The next day I walked to the cafe with my laptop.  Sadly I was going to look for another job as a makeup artist.  Hopefully for another company like Big Hit or maybe for a cosmetic line.  It was probably for the best.

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"Yoongi wake up we have a busy day today."

"Where is Jennie?"

"She went home. She said she'd call you later."

"Okay, I wonder why she left without saying goodbye to me."  He looks at Hobi as if it was his fault.  "The minute you're back she forgets about me."

"Are you jealous?" Hobi asked.

"No!"  But he was.

Their jealousy showed in their work.

Love Is Not Over 

English translation

[Verse 1]
The long night is following you as it flows
Time follows you and fades

[Verse 2]
Why are you getting farther away?
So far that I can't reach you?
Tell me why, you're so far away, why
Can't you see me in your eyes anymore?

[Hook]
Love is so painful
Goodbyes are even more painful
I can't go on if you're not here
Love me, love me
Come back to my arms

Love is so painful
Goodbyes are even more painful
I can't go on if you're not here
Love me, love me
Come back to my arms

[Verse 2]
You said goodbye to me
Every night before I went to bed
I hated that even more than dying
It feels like this night is the end of you and me
I don't know you, you didn't know me
The reason we broke up was quite simple
Now I say that
You're like hello and goodbye
At my beginning and my end
There

  [Verse 3]
Everything stopped like our red light, stop
Nothing more to say It ends with my tears, dot
I'm not okay I repeat this denial
Recite, if you can recite my mind
This is my last-ditch effort and my wish
You are my endless love and my girl

[Hook]
Love is so painful
Goodbyes are even more painful
I can't go on if you're not here
Love me, love me
Come back to my arms

[Verse 4]
I always smile at you
Even love is a tragedy for me
I always cry after it's over
Farewell
Even though it's a comedy for you
Yes nothing is everlasting
I live without you even though I feel like dying
(Hope it lasts forever girl)
Over, over, love is not over
Please take me out of this endless maze

  [Hook]

Love is so painful
Goodbyes are even more painful
I can't go on if you're not here
Love me, love me
Come back to my arms

Love is so painful
Goodbyes are even more painful
I can't go on if you're not here
Love me, love me
Come back to my arms

[Outro]
Love is not over, over, over
Love is not over, over, over
Love is not over, over, over
Love is not over, over, over