A/N: This story is all over the place but after a long period of having writer's block, this story came to mind and well I can't seem to stop myself from writing it. I'm super excited to write this!!! Enjoy. 

Important Info: The italicized parts are part of a journal meaning that someone wrote them down as personal thoughts. 

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The Ruling of The Heart

Taejinkook

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It wasn't suppose to happen this way.

I already had a path to follow, but you managed to distort the path I was walking.

There could be nothing in between us, yet I couldn't help but fall for you.

Why? Why can't I seem to lie to myself?

Why can't I seem to distance myself from you?

Why does my heart always have to yearn for you?

I have already stopped listening to my head and have let my heart do all the talking.

My kingdom, my parents, my vows as prince. I have all set them aside just for you because since I first saw you, I have let my heart rule over me.

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"It will bring great honor to our family and kingdom the news of your engagement to the Jeon Kingdom."

"It will be the wedding of the century."

"Finally, this country's strongest kingdoms will come together and as one become unbeatable. The neighboring kingdoms will cower in their fear. We will finally be able to silence the rebels."

Jin stopped listening to his dad and mother talking excitedly about his wedding. He was seated next to his parents awaiting their morning breakfast in the dinning table as Jin looked at his wedding finger. He couldn't imagine being tied together with another person. The mere thought of having a ring around his finger brought disillusionment to him. He still hadn't met his soon to be husband but sadly for him, the Jeon Kingdom had already sent the proposal ring. He was currently wearing his engagement ring and everytime he made a movement, he would catch glimpse of the red ruby nestled in between four diamonds entwined delicately with the gold ring. The ring was gorgeous. The first time Jin had seen the ring he couldn't help but think how gorgeous it was but the red ruby was the color of the Jeon Kingdom. Jin couldn't help but feel as though the Jeon Kingdom was placing their claim on him and for the whole country to see that Jin belonged to the Jeon's.

Being brought out of his thoughts, Jin looked away from his ring and focused hid attention to the food being served in front of him.

Is it foolish of me to have aspirations of a happy life with my husband? I know nothing of his yet I am expected to love a complete stranger.

Wait.

My father never said I had to love my future husband. If I remeber correctly, my father said I am suppose to coexist with my future husband and procreate a heir for the peace and wellbeing of both my and Jeon's kingdom.

This marriage requires no love or affection from either side.

What an idiot I am for hoping for something else.

The maids are in a frenzy. My father has already started his pre-celebration of the wedding with him drinking early in the morning. My mother with the company of the maids have helped me wash,bath and comb my hair. I see no real reason for all this pampering but as usual I am ignored.  I hear the hush whisperings and giggles of the maids as they help me get into my suit. After years of having them help me dress, I feel no shame of standing completely in front of them in nothing but my briefs.

Today is my wedding day.

What did I expect?

For my husband to embrace me with unconditional love?

I saw him but he didn't see me.

I am now on my way to my new home. The marriage ceremony has already ended. My now husband held my hand throughout the whole celebration after the wedding. I didn't pay attention to the guests telling us their best wishes, my mind was still replaying the ceremony.

The moment after we had said our vows and accepted eachother as husbands, came the part I was dreading. My lips were to come in contact with his. The moment he leaned in to kiss me, I felt panic fill me. I'm not sure what I expected but the contact of our lips touching lasted too short. I only felt the shadow of his lips on mine before he was already backing away and smiling towards the guests.

I lean my head against the carriage. Today has been a draining day for me. I am mentally exhausted. Without noticing when my eyelids had already closed, I drifted off to sleep.

Would I have noticed you if you hadn't noticed me?

What am I to you?

Am I worth the risk?

Are we worth it?

Jeon Jungkook is the name of my husband. From the moment I layed eyes on him I noticed how good looking he is. He is older than me by two years. His raven hair contrasts his light tan complexion. His tall stature signifies dominency and authority. His eyes reflect power and greed. He is the very definition of what a king should look like and act. In the days I have lived in my new home, I have come to realize that mostly everyone sees my husband with heart eyes. His good looks seriously makes everyone swoon. Even a blind person would be able to see how handsome my husband is, but somehow I can't seem to find myself attracted to him. He might be dangerously attractive but he has yet to see me like his husband. Is he even aware that he now has a husband. Am I not attractive enough? We haven't even had a night of passion yet. His lack of touch has led me to believe that he never wanted this marriage in the first place. What good does it do me if my husband is handsome if I can't touch him.

You promised me the stars.

You gave me the world.

Your love was all I ever wanted.

This cannot continue but yet I always end up in your arms.

When will we be able to be together freely without worrying of being caught.

Jin was looking at the