A/N: Not proofread

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My Dear Beloved

Kookjin/ Jinkook (you choose)

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Dear kookie,

By the time you read this, I will most probably be dead. I didn’t want to tell you about my sickness in order to not worry you but one day you would eventually find the truth. Please don’t resent me for not telling you but it was a decision I had to make. I didn’t want you to suffer more than what you are probably hurting now. I was selfish for not telling you but every time I saw you smile your bunny smile at me, my heart constricted in a painful way. I didn’t want to be the person to take away your beautiful smile.

My beloved kookie, I love you. Please don’t ever forget that.

I will always love you even though I might not be there in person to tell you. I don’t want you to be believe that you are alone in this world. I will always be present in your heart, as long as you remember me. Please don’t cry, I don’t want to see your handsome face stained by tears nor do I want you to hole yourself away from the world. I already told Taehyung to make visits in order check up on you. I couldn’t bring myself to tell him either, I simply told him I would go away for some time. My incapability to tell the people around me about my sickness makes me mad at myself. I should have told you all what I was going through especially you kookie but I couldn’t bear to see you see me in pain. Sorry for choosing the coward’s way out.

I have