"For the second full album, Jinki, I'd like it if you'd write your own lyrics to this song."

 

Jinki didn't say anything at first, all his attention directed on what his Manager-Hyung was saying. They were discussing the songs for their second album, their new concept more mature but still retaining that funky vibe. Their management wanted them to grow out of their "young" shining SHINee image and branch out to a slightly older look.

 

"The song is originally sung and written by an American singer named Brandon Fraley. I'll give you a demo copy later Jinki and I'd like you to listen to it when you get home okay?"

 

Jinki smiled in response and nodded politely. "Yes. I will, Hyung. What is the song called?"

 

"The song is called 'Your Name' and I'd like it if you'd start on it as soon as you can."

 

 

 

Once they were back in their dorm, Jinki headed straight to the room he shared with Kibum and Taemin, dropping his backpack on the floor and laying his head down to rest on his bed. He heard the other members rustling outside, getting ready for dinner, but he didn't feel like getting up just yet, his thoughts on the song that he had to write.

 

Jinki brought an arm to cover his eyes, staring at the ceiling. Truth was, when he was first told to write a song, his first thought was on Kibum. He knew, deep in his heart that despite how hard he'd try to not possibly write about Kibum, it will be translated into the lyrics somehow considering he's been in love with the younger boy for quite some time now.

 

He sighed, running a hand to wipe his tired face. He was so exhausted and he really needed a shower but he wanted to stay in bed for a bit.

 

Just then, the door barged open suddenly startling Jinki. He strained his neck to look at who it could be, and he wasn't surprised at all when it was Kibum. His heart clenched as it always did at the sight of the younger boy. 

 

"Jinki, what are you doing lying down there when you should be eating with us. Aren't you hungry?"

 

He tried a wobbly smile. "Just wait a moment, Kibum. I'll be there soon."

 

Kibum stared and he had that crinkled knit in his eyebrows again and Jinki knew that something was bugging him. But just as Jinki was about to say something, Kibum interrupted him and merely nodded in response. "Okay, but the food will get cold. So hurry up." 

 

Once Jinki heard the door close, he laid back down with a heavy sigh.

 

It was going to be a long night.

 

 

 

 

He stared at the piece of paper in front of him. It's been almost an hour but so far he'd only written a couple of lines.

 

Call out for my name

Today is your day

I'm willing to do anything for you

Only I can do

A small gift for you

I'm looking for you so I can confess to you...

 

He ran his fingers through his disheveled slight damp hair with a sigh. It was already almost two in the morning, everyone asleep.

 

He stared at the scratched words on the piece of paper, his writing smudged and erased countless times. 

 

Sometimes when you’re sad

I don’t know your feelings

During then, I kiss you

I kiss your small hand

If it makes you feel better

I would do it several times...

 

 

 

 

After dinner and a shower, he went straight to listening to the demo tape. He found that he liked the song, it had a nice melody and the english lyrics were quite nice. He decided that the entire concept of the song would have to be about a lover confessing his feelings to their loved one.

 

He couldn't help but glance towards the direction of Kibum's bed. The boy was asleep, his breathing even and Jinki thought there was nothing more perfect than watching the person you loved sleep.

 

Jinki stared back at the piece of his paper in his hand, thinking about his feelings for Kibum. If he had a chance, how would he confess his feelings for him?

 

With that thought in his mind, he smiled to himself and continued to write...

 

Want to play a game

All day long

Do you really not understand my heart?

Today I only want to make you happy

Surprising you by confessing my love

Whisper in your ear...

 

 

 

 

When Jinki finally finished the lyrics to the song and recorded it in the studio with the rest of the boys, the questions that were aimed at him were expected.

 

"Hyung where did you get the inspiration to write it?" Taemin asks him, teasingly. 

 

"Yeah, Jinki-hyung who is that person with the red lips and small hands?" Minho pipes in.

 

Jinki noticed Kibum being quiet, not saying a word.

 

"It was how I imagined the girl of my dreams I guess?" he answers, looking at Kibum with a frown.

 

The rest of the boys just laughed but Kibum remained quiet.

 

After finishing their recording for the day, they went home exhausted. Jinki was just about to head to their room to change but a hand suddenly grabs his arm.

 

He was surprised that it was Kibum when he turned around. "What's wrong, Kibum-ah?"

 

Jinki couldn't help but notice the forlorn sad expression on the younger boy's face. "Jinki, can I talk to you?"

 

His face softens, "What's wrong Kibum?"

 

"I just need to talk to you alone, please."

 

Jinki nods quietly. "Okay, I'm just about to head to the room so we can talk there."

 

Once they reached their shared dorm room, Kibum sits on the edge of Jinki's bed. "Hyung, are you in love?"

 

The question caught Jinki offguard. "W-what?"

 

Kibum sighed, playing with the hem of Jinki's bedcovers. "I said if you were in love."

 

"What makes you ask that?"

 

"Because how else could you have written that song? It felt a little personal to me. So I'll ask again. Are you in love?"

 

Jinki just stared at the younger boy in a bit of a daze. Trust Kibum to dig through things thoroughly, not accepting things at face value.

 

"K-Kibum, can't I just write a song just for the heck of it?"

 

Kibum just stared at the carpeted floor. "Who is she?" he asks quietly.

 

Jinki couldn't believe what he was hearing, because how could he possibly explain to Kibum that the song was about him and not about some make-believe girl? Sure he did modify things here and there, not to be too obvious of course, but how was he going to possibly get away from this one? And he wasn't good at lying or hiding things when it came to Kibum. He can be so perceptive and sharp when it came to the smallest things.

 

"She's nobody, Kibum. As I said I just based her from my ideal type of girl and made a story about it, no big deal."

 

That's when Kibum looks up at him. "Hyung, as much as I want to believe that, I just can't. Because really? 'those red lips, those sweet red lips of yours, My heart flutters, I tremble more and more?' that's obviously written for somebody..."

 

Jinki felt his hands shake just a tad, there really was no getting away from Kibum was there?

 

"Why does it matter so much to you anyways?"

 

Kibum looked away and stared at the side of the wall. "Because I care. Because I need to know if I have a chance of being first in your heart." he says quietly.

 

Jinki froze, hardly believing the words he just heard. Did Kibum mean?

 

He walked slowly towards him and knelt on the floor, facing him. "Kibum-ah... what did you say?" Jinki whispers, reaching a hand to touch his.

 

And that's when Jinki noticed the tears in his eyes, clenching his heart. "J-Jinki, what if I told you I was jealous at whoever this unknown girl is because I happen to be in love with you? What would you do?"

 

"Y-You love me?"

 

Kibum wiped his tears angrily with the sleeve of his shirt. "Yes I do, you pabo. So what now? What would you do? Are you in love with this person? Do I have a chance of being first in your heart?"

 

Then all Kibum felt was a pair of arms go around him. Confused, he muffled a few words against Jinki's shoulder, but Jinki wouldn't let go, his heart felt like bursting with so much emotion.

 

"You pabo. What do you have to be scared about? There's no other girl, okay?" Jinki pulls slightly away, staring at the boy's tear-stained eyes and wiping it with the pad of his thumb. "The truth is, Kibum-ah the song was about you. I wrote the song for you."

 

"W-what? Jinki I swear if you're just saying this-"

 

But whatever he was gonna say was cut off because Jinki was kissing him, his plump lips against his and Kibum felt like his heart was gonna explode. He kisses him back, pressing his lips against his in response. 

 

When Jinki pulls away, he looks straight in his eyes and murmurs, "I love you, Kibum." 

 

That's when Kibum knew, knew he was sincere about his feelings, knew he was telling the truth and hard as it was to believe but the song really was about him. Those touching, sweet lyrics were really about him.

 

Overcome with emotion, he wraps his arms around Jinki's waist tightly, never wanting to let go.

 

"I love you, Jinki."

 

 

 

Now whenever the song would play, or if anyone ever mentions the song Jinki penned, it was hard not to miss the tinge of pink in Kibum's cheeks.

 

Jinki felt his heart melting everytime and would always try to touch his hand somehow, even if they were out in public, the small touches full of meaning.

 

It was after all, Jinki's love confession to Kibum and it couldn't be any more perfect than that.