Feeling used but I’m still missing you and I can’t see the end of this. Just wanna feel your kiss against my lips, and now all this time is passing by. But I still can’t seem to tell you why it hurts me every time I see you, realize how much I need you. I miss you when I can’t sleep or right after coffee or right when I can’t eat. I miss you in my front seat, still got sand in my sweaters from the night we don’t remember. Do you miss me like I miss you? All alone I watch you watch her like she’s the only girl you’ve ever seen. You don’t care, you never did, you don’t give a damn about me. Yeah All alone I watch you watch her, she’s the only thing you ever see. How is it you never notice that you are slowly killing me.

*I Hate You, I Love You by Gnash 

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Her sight that’s been clouded with tears begins to clears up now the more she blinks. The bright light that approached towards her direction earlier is still on her left side, helps to brings some new perspective to her situation. She blinks one more time to make sure her eyesight doesn’t fool her, what’s supposed to be a dark road in front of her has turned into flashes of her most cherished moments in her life. The hard impact she just got earlier seemed to have took her into a trance that takes her into her childhood when she was still the cute lovely little girl that slowly transform into a beautiful grown up and it continues to lead her path into the event that took place earlier tonight.

She regains her senses slowly, first the long sound of car horn that begins to disturb her hearing. Next thing she feels is the heaviness in her head, like she’s pulled by gravity in the wrong direction. She can’t move a muscle but from the corner of her eyes she notices that the ground is now above her, not under. With her remaining power, she holds the phone that’s still in her hand tighter and move her thumb to try dial her number one speed-dial.

The person answers on the third ring, but it’s not the person she’s hoping to answer.

“Oenni, it’s Ahra. Oppa is grabbing something for dinner I’ll tell him you called.” His younger sister answers for him.

She tries to open to speak but it is filled with the warm and sticky bitter substance that vaguely smells like iron. She breathes in only to chokes out from all the liquid that fills her cavity and the pain in her chests doesn’t make her situation any better. A loud knock on her left gets her attention, she tries one more time to turn her neck to let the knocker knows that she’s still alive.

“Oenni? Are you there?” The sound of his dongsaeng’s voice heard from her phone. “Ah, oppa is here, I’ll give the phone to him.”

She can picture his sister’s steps quickly reaching towards him to hands out his phone, telling him that she calls—despite how huge their argument had gotten overboard earlier tonight.

“Ne, Seulri-ya?”

A weak smile draws on her face and her tears fills in her eyes one more time. This could be the perfect way to end this, at least she can hear his beautiful voice for one last time now.

The knocker tells her to try to cover her head as he’ll try to break the glass in order to take her out. She doesn’t care, she can’t even move her tongue to tell him how she feels, how would she able to protect her head. A thumping sound of a blunt object on her left slowly fades out, she chokes one more time when she tries to breathe in the summer air that finally welcomes her from the big hole the knocker managed to create.

“Aggashi! Can you hear me?” Her helper’s voice is fading out no matter how close his mouth is to her ears.

She moves her eyes quickly from the bulky figure that’s now trying to bring her out of the upside down car to the hoist of her seatbelt that’s still attach to her.

“Seulri-ya, Gwenchana?” The person she calls sounds worry enough now.

She feels her stiff body is being held as someone cut open the seatbelt that’s restraining while at the same time holds her to her seat. The amount of blood she’s loosing has slowly takes her consciousness away, and she still says her grace for his voice that still calls out her name before everything else slowly turn black.

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author's note:

I've been plotting the characters for some time now yet i haven't got the perfect trigger to begin the story. This morning i suddenly got so inspired by the song I quoted on the description (random spotify play finally has it's perk for me). Sigh, so many ideas, so little time, and i still have two ongoing stories. -__-  please support me~~ thank you ^^

SPECIAL THANKS: 

Thanks so much, HYOloveRONA that had created a very nice poster for this story~~ it does pump up my spirit to write this.. i really appreciate this very sweet gesture you offered me! :*