We drive back to Seoul after the delicious late night snack. It is late and I fall asleep halfway. I am aware when we arrive at the house but I am too lazy to open my eyes. I can hear his footstep toward my side of the car. Carefully, he opens the door without making a noise.

 So Jae Joong can be very thoughtful too.

That thought makes me want to smile but I restrain myself. I have to pretend as I am sleeping. I want to know what he is going to do next. As the door is wide opened, he gently slides his arm under by body. Then easily, I am in his arm. He slowly carries me inside. This feeling, I remember this feeling. I had the same feeling like this the night after the press conference. So he did carry me into my room that night. If so, he lied next to me, looked at me with the saddest eyes. Oh Dear! So it was real too. That night was not a dream. I suddenly feel hot. I think my face is turning red. I hope he doesn’t notice it.

I feel he puts me down on the bed. Finally, I can relax my body on my comfy bed. I want to open my eyes but I think they are better to stay shut. He doesn’t seem to leave yet. He just sits down on my bed I think. I feel my mattress reflex. He is sitting next to me. I am sure now as his hand is softly caressing my hair. Wow! He can be very gentle too. I feel very comfortable. I remember when I was kid my dad often caressed my head when I was asleep. Now I think about it, Jae Joong and my father have a lot of thing in common. My father is a man of harsh words. He likes to yell at me all the time but behind my back, he always cares for me the most. I am always my father’s princess regardless how old I am. Jae Joong and my father will get along really well, I’m sure.

What did I just think? I seriously think of the possibility that I will introduce Jae Joong to my father someday? Ridiculous!  I am just getting out of a messy relationship. I definitely am not jumping into a new relationship anytime soon. And if I do, it is definitely not with Jae Joong. But why not? Despite the fact that he is rude and ill-manner all the times, he does care about me.

What am I even thinking? I am not even sure if he is still interested in me. After all, I chose his best friend over him. Actually, I never actually had a chance to choose. It just kind of happened and I was in no position to pick over him or Si Won.  

Oh well, why am I even bothered thinking about those stuffs? I should just go to sleep. I will think about all those confusing stuffs tomorrow. But why hasn’t he left my room yet? I like him caressing me and all but I will not be able to sleep knowing that he is right next to me. His presence does make me feel nervous. Not scare kind of nervousness, more like heart skipping kind of nervousness. Should I pretend to wake up and kick him out of the room?

Before I can do that, he already lands a kiss on my forehead.

Oh My God.

 I think my heart just stops beating for a moment, and my nose stops breathing for a moment too, no my entire body is stops functioning for the whole moment. He just kissed me on the forehead and I can feel his soft lips lingering on my skin. What is this guy doing to a sleeping girl? I should open my eyes and yell at him right now but before I do, he softly says – “Goodnight, princess” – then walks out of my room and gently closes the door behind him.

I open my eyes. He just called me “princess”, the way my father used to call me too. He was so gentle to me. Why can’t he be that nice when I awake? But I guess at least it is from his honest heart. He didn’t need me to acknowledge his care toward me. He only did it because he really cared about me. He genuinely cares about me. He probably is too shy to show it when I am awake. After all, he has a brain of an elementary kid. I spread a bright smile on my face.

What a weird guy!

My door is loudly knocked first thing in the morning. I am still in my dream land. It is so annoying. Who is annoying me this early in the morning? Why am I asking such an unnecessary question? There are only two people live in this house. I am sleeping in my own room so of course he is the only one can knock on the door.

“What?” – I scowl, open the door, half-sleepily .

“Get your luggage ready.” – He demands before even saying good morning.

I totally wake up from his random request.

“What?” – I ask to make sure that I am not hearing it wrong.

“We have to go to Japan for a week.” – He stolidly states

“What?” – I know I just asked it a second ago but I have to ask again to make sure that I am not still dreaming. – “Why should we go to Japan?”

I have a tour there for a week. Too much thing has happened the last few days so I forgot to tell you.”

“It’s your tour. You can go by yourself. Why do I have to go?”

He is quiet for a while. I guess he has no answer for that question either. Why should I follow him for a week there? I am not even his maid anymore.

“I need someone to cook for me.” – Wow is it the best excuse that he can give?

“Don’t be ridiculous. They have plenty of good food out there. Plus, I am no longer your maid. Remember?” – I say in a challenge voice. I expect a fight back from him but weird enough he has no sight of yelling at all. Instead, he looks deeply in my eyes, gently, lovingly.

Softly, he says. – “Can you just go with me?”

I think my body just melted to liquid hearing his sweet gentle voice. Why has he started being so gentle to me lately? I am not used to it at all but I kind of like it though. Who doesn’t?

“Fine.” – What? I just said fine. Did I just agree with him? Whoa! How can I be that easy? He only speaks kindly to me one sentence and I agree to go to Japan with him for a week. This guy is so scary. I think he puts a charm over me. How can he control me so easily?

“Good! Go get ready. We are leaving in 30 minutes.” – He calmly says

“What? Are you kidding me? How can I be ready in 30 minutes?” – I yell at him. Seriously, this guy, he needs to give me more advance notice. How can he just tell a girl to get a luggage ready for one week travel in just 30 minutes? I am a girl, not a soldier.

“Instead of yelling at me, you can already be done with your preparation. Meet me in the living room in 30 minutes.” – He demands and walks away.

Whoa! This guy attitude changes faster than flash. He melted my heart about 30 seconds earlier then froze it right back on again. Living with him every day feels like driving roller coaster. My emotion keeps go up and down in matter of second. I experience more emotion with him in 4 months than I have ever done in my life.

 Oh well, there is no use to fight with him. I should go get my luggage ready. There is really not much time. I try my fastest to brush my teeth and wash my face but it still takes me more than 10 minutes. I only have 20 minutes to get my clothes ready. Arg!!! I hate being rushed. My maid normally took care of luggage for me whenever I went travel or I just bought all new clothes when I do last minute trips. Now I’m all by myself, grabbing whatever in my eyesight.

“Time to go!” – He knocks on my door again right at the moment I zip my suitcase. Even I am impressed by myself for able to pull this off.

“Be right there.” – I yell from inside the room then struggled open the door with one hand while pulling my suitcase with the other hand.

He stands right in front of my door and as I look up, my forehead almost touches his lips. I’m startled and take one step back as a reflex. My heart jumps up and down inside my ribcage and I am totally not able to calm it down. My heart is seriously malfunctioned too much after I moved in this house.

“Did I scare you that much?” – He frowns.

“Of course, how can you just randomly stand in front of my room like that? You scared the crap out of me.” – Again, I yell at him. What is wrong with me? I think that I start yelling whenever I feel flutter in front of him. I need to control my emotion better than this or he will seriously think I am an ill-manner girl. But why do I have to care about what he thinks about me? I am not sure. Just … I don’t know since when, I want him to think more positive about me.

“Let’s go.” – He says then grabs the luggage from my hand.

Wow! Did he just attempt to be a gentleman? The bully Jae Joong is actually pulling a luggage for me.

Hmmmm! It seems like he is trying to be a better person. I should give him a chance then. I secretly smile looking at him pulling the luggage to the car for me. How can a person look cool even when he pulls the luggage? He does have a good-looking figure. No doubt about that.

 As we arrive at the airport. He has to meet up with his bandmates to discuss about the plan. He gives me his credit card before we separate.

 “What is it for?” – I ask in surprise.

“To go buy you a ticket.” – He tells me.

“I have money.” – I tell him.

“I know but I want to take care of you. Go with Ji Soo hyung, he knows where my seat is, buy the one next to mine, ok?” – He coolly says and walks away.

I am in awe right here. The words “Take care” sound so manly from him. This is the first time a man gave me his credit card. This feeling is so special. I of course don’t need any money from him but the way he gives me his credit card shows how much he trusts me. I can use his credit card crazily but he doesn’t seem to care at all, like what is his is mine. OMG this feeling is so awesome that I want to jump up and down and scream to the world that Jae Joong just gave me his credit card. But I guess I shouldn’t do that. I only smile brightly for now.