We walked on the beach. I follwed her from behind observing her. She smiled. I saw her smile. After that intensed confession, to see her being able to smile was a good thing. I'm sure she had her doubts about me. Since now I knew that what happened to her, she must have felt vulnerable. She enjoyed having her feet in the sand and would occasionally dipped in the water when she walked particularly close to the point where the sand and water met. Finally she decided to sit down and had a little twig in her hand. She was writing something down; in the sand with the twig she had. I fastened my pace to where she was and managed to read it before the water washes it away. She wrote;

Everyone is born free from colours...

"Shin Hye... can I asked you something?"

"Orh?"

"Why did you write that?" 

"Huh?"

"That just now.. In the sand..." I said. "Isn't color meant to represent individuality? And it's not a bad thing."

"I'm not saying it's bad either. Why? Does it sound like I'm generalising too much and that I have something against individuality?" She probed further.

"Not that. I was just wondering. What makes you say that..."

"Well.. Min Ho.. lets go with a metaphor shall we? Assuming we are empty canvases. So were born clean and fresh. Untainted. But... as we grew, we start to paint ourselves or others tries to paint you with colors that you think feels good to your soul or what others think is good for you. That comes from one own's experience and/or other's influence on yourself. Take for example.. my mum thinks that females don't require further studies. She is painting her own color on me. But me refusing to accept that fact, painted my own color. By the time your life ends, you may either be a complete picture or an incomplete one... and sometimes maybe even be an abandoned one.." 

She continued, "I think I stopped painting when I became an . Because my soul is numb whenever Cassandra is summoned, because the colors also represented feelings. If I start painting, I don't think I will be able to do what Cassandra does, I'll feel too much and think too little."

"But we're humans we are supposed to feel more than think more. Only then will we be happy." I told her.

"Feelings meant vulnerability. Exposing yourself only invites harm. Creating opportunities for others to harm you.