"Hyung, it hurts... it still hurt... why... I tried...believe me...I really tried... but why hyung... why..."
 
"Siwon ar..."
 
"Hyung... you understand right... I close my eyes, I could see him there smiling at me, once I open them, I could still see him in the shadow...I could feel him... I hear his voice calling out to me... hyung... I... I don't know what to do..."
 
"Siwon..."
 
"But you know what's the most ridiculous of them all...?"
 
"what..."
 
"I never want to wake, even though its not real... i'm happy just to stay there... I know that... my parents knows that...even she does... but no one cares no more.  As long as I don't have a gun to my head or taking pills like tic-tac.  Its all happy jolly... All fine!!!"
 
"Siwon, you're drunk..."
 
"Hyung! i'm not... I know exactly what i'm saying... nothing can help me now... nothing!"
 
"Siwon! snap out of it! you think Kyuhyun wants to see you like this?"
 
"Kyuhyun is DEAD... for five years... he doesn't see me like this... he couldn't!!"
 
"Siwon-ah.."
 
"If only he could... if only I can touch his skin, hug him tight....hyung...maybe...maybe I should die in that car..."
 
*SLAP!!!!
 
"Don't you dare Choi.Siwon!! don't you dare put us through that!!.... we have lost enough! we all lost a brother we would die for.  We won't loose you as well.  No way in hell i'll ever let that happen.  If you do