#DOUBLE UPDATE!! read the previous one first! thanx *wink 

 

 

 

Every now and then, people will start to question the reality when it's too good to be true.  And this is the stage Siwon is currently going through.  The person he's holding so tightly against, the beating heart against his, the rise and fall of the chest he laid his head on, the hand soothingly patting and running his fingers throw every few seconds.  Is real. I know its real.  Kyuhyun is here.  That's all it matters.  Even himself might find it funny later on, on how he never question the idea of Kyuhyun's appearance.    Siwon just accepted it.  So who was it he buried years ago when they declare Kyuhyun die from his coma? How is Kyuhyun back and healthy after so many years?  Who took care of him? What was the reason Kyuhyun showing up only now? So many how's, so many why's, it all should have been ask and answer.  Yet Siwon's mind could only and fully occupy by one fact.  The only thing that matters or ever gonna matter to him, is that his Kyuhyun is alive, he's breathing, walking, and most of all with him.    "I'll never loose you again, Kyu... never" Siwon nuzzle closer.  "I know it must have been tough for you... my sweet darling Kyu. My love."   Kyuhyun force himself to stay firm, he press his lips hard together till it bruise.  Cos he knew the moment he let the first word out, he won't be able to stop himself from crying.   His own selfish thinking, he's inability to fight for their love.  Thinking all the times he misses his Siwon, the times he could have come out but instead just stay hidden, watching from afar.  Kyuhyun believe he doesn't deserve Siwon's once the man know the truth, so he only held onto the man tighter, suppressing the sob's leaking out of him.  But fail, as if he could hold it in, when Siwon smother him with loving words and devoting touches.  His heartbreaking weeps came out and Siwon comfortingly rock his hold.  Planting kisses over the head and crown while whispering even more loving words to the sobbing mess every now and then.  How is it that Kyuhyun was the one calming him down at first and suddenly the switch of roles is what so beautiful about their relationship.  The other will just fall into that reassuring, soothing, comforting mode as soon as it calls for.   "shhh... i love you kyu...baby"   "i know... i know...shhh.. don't cry my love..."   "its ok... i'll understand... shh... you're breaking my heart babydoll..."   "you're back... that's all i care... i love you...I love you so much Kyu..."   Kyuhyun finally settle down, he himself doesn't understand how Siwon could be such forgiven person.  How the taller must knew there was a reason for his deceit.  He hated himself even more so now.  For Kyuhyun was even asking himself, if the same were to happen to him, could you have forgiven Siwon just like that.    Kyuhyun sniffle while warming and attentive touch circling his back nudging him every now and then.  Slowly he tries to sit up but Siwon refuse to let him, till Kyuhyun whine out loud, causing the most cheerful laughter from Siwon as it go echoing the room.  It must have been like forever since Siwon was able to burst into such laughter.  His heart already feeling healed by the second.    Kyuhyun slowly move to sat on his own knees next to Siwon's whom still choose to be lying on the bed, looking up at his baby.  His hand running softly over Kyuhyun's thigh.  When Kyuhyun stay silent yet his face told other wise.  Siwon comically ask 'what's up' with his eyes slightly expanding and brows jumping once, although they've been apart for years, he still understand his Kyuhyun inside out.  Especially when his baby's expression are so delightful.    Kyuhyun frown as he pouted without himself knowing, at that moment Siwon sat up and pull him close by the shoulder till their head resting on either side of each other.  Siwon land kisses on Kyuhyun's ear and neck.  And of cos Kyuhyun's agitated tension easing away with each soft touch.    "Won-ah, I know there's no excuse for what i did... " Kyuhyun started and stop when Siwon pull away, wanting to be looking directly at his baby.  "but... i know you want to know...I mean you need to know...why" Kyuhyun adverted his eyes from the intense ones, Siwon's always have this control over him once their eyes meet.  Seeing the clear distress of Kyuhyun, Siwon place a soft kiss on Kyuhyun's forehead.  "You are gonna hate me after I tell you"  The choked out words was so soft with such a sad and pitifully expression as well, yet Siwon nearly bark out his laughter after his mind make sense of that one horribel word he heard.    "WHAT?~ Kyuhyun~ as if I could ever hate you...ha~ha~...weren't you listening to me... You are my life sweetness!"  Siwon tries to fake hurtful from Kyuhyun's choice of word, its silly for the boy to think as such.    "b-but you haven't even hear me out yet..."   "at your own pace Kyu..." Siwon chime as he kisses the boy again, lingering his nose against Kyuhyun's while grinning like a man who won the lotto.  "You must think i'm crazy.  But i'm at my full capacity of happiness." Siwon devotedly voice.  "You... my love" Siwon coo as he land another kiss on Kyuhyun's lips.  "are everything."  His hand reach up embracing his dear Kyuhyun.  "you're here with me... what more do i need to care" Its a rhetorical question from Siwon and Kyuhyun really didn't mean to answer but... he did.    "well...there's jong..." His voice was even soften than before, but Kyuhyun was sure Siwon heard him as those hands on him immediately stilled.  Biting his lower lips, his eyes once again adverting from Siwon's.  He knew he couldn't dodge any longer, Kyuhyun was about to let it all out when...   "OH MY SHISUS!!!" Siwon howl as he jump off the bed cupping over his mouth as his popping eyes stares into space, leaving kyuhyun a little bewilder and a little annoyed at how Siwon can forgot about his little outburst before he fainted the 2nd times. So you totally forgot about your own kid! aish!!!    It was a serious topic, yet Kyuhyun couldn't help his own eyes from checking out Siwon's fullly glory, especially his lower half.  The older seeing his baby stealing a quick but not too subtle glance, and that's when he finally realise he was actually indeed very .  Their little reunion from that afternoon comes flashing in his mind, but this isn't the time to get aroused he told himself.  Feeling a bit too open, Siwon grab the sweatpants lying on the floor and pulls it on hastily.    Siwon smirk as he notice the slight pout from Kyuhyun moments later and swiftly begins to climb back to the spot he was on moments ago.  He's curiosity is at peak, bringing the now crossed leg Kyuhyun closer to him with eagerness.  His goofy face is now over the top hyper with excitement.  After all, the man just remember he had a kid, and it was name Jong, A SON!   "BABY!! BABY!! BABY!!" Siwon cheer loudly, the man even bouces a little on the bed while Kyuhyun couldn't hold back but chuckle at the man openly.  "I take back... I wanna know... please... tell me everything Kyu...I promise I won't "hate" you..." Siwon did a little finger quotation when "he said 'hate' while rolling his eyes.    "you promise?!"   "you for real?... come on Kyu~~" Siwon whine, he really wanna know now and Kyuhyun is somehow concern over that ridiculous nonsense.  "I mean...how... i mean.. when did we...ahem.." Siwon went on and on blabbing.  Till Kyuhyun hush him, placing both hands on either side of his shoulder, pushing him back, settling comfortably on the bed, he slightly readjust till Siwon have his back leaning against the bedhead.  Only then Kyuhyun takes the spot, lying between the man's leg, his back against the hard chest of Siwon's.   Siwon is just all too willingly in letting Kyuhyun snuggle nice and close against him.  His arms naturally went wrapping around Kyuhyun's as he lean down on his chest.  The two breathing the same air, hands touching, their scent mixed.      "You have to get comfty first...