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Jong in sit in his seat with sweaty hands. He feels that his legs already paralyzed. His heart beat beating like the war drum. And his eyes just can’t stop from staring the person infront of him. he gulp his saliva for nth times already, but he still feels that his mouth more dry than the summer ground. He can’t seem to process a word. Suddenly his brain shut down and cannot function properly.

 Never once in his life he ever imagine this day will come like this. Sitting with Luhan face to face without a word. Able to look at that perfect sparkling eyes, his pouty lips, doe eyes and button lips. His rosy cheeks looks as fluffy as it used to be before. He can’t manage himself to control his ragging heart. How happy he is now. Even the other person around the crowd cafe seem vanish and invisible from Jong In’s eyes right now. It is like the other person was not there from the first time. Only this Luhan he can see, only this Luhan can catch his sight. So perfect and adorable.

“have you called sehun…?” Luhan voice woke him up from his dream, he also realize that he stares at Luhan like forever, and maybe he makes Luhan feels uncomfortable

Jong in makes a nervous chough “yeah.. I did… i… I’ve called emm… latter.. I means before… yeah… Sehun before” he felt stupid said that so un-coherent word

“oh ok…” Luhan just look at his drink and play with his fingers

He really wants to start a conversation, a decent conversation and makes Luhan look at his eyes. To makes that sparkling eyes light up again for him. but he don’t have that courage. He is afraid that he will ruin everything. He afraid to lost this person again. So there he is, look at Luhan with admiration and sad face.

He asks luhan to come with him earlier, to wait for Sehun with him inside the café. He knows that luhan was afraid and scared, so make him felt safe was his priority to do. He didn’t know what will luhan said, he made some scenario already in his head if Luhan refuse to come with him and choose to just Looking for Sehun by himself. He was ready to begged to Luhan so he can just sit comfort inside the warm café and waiting sehun to come, though he knew that being with him maybe not that wise choice after all. Luhan agreed after almost 30 second just stood on the empty street silently,, and killed Jong in patient. And smile in Jong in’s lips couldn’t hide from his relief

“How have you been?” Jong in startled at Luhan, who suddenly ask him a question, luhan still look amazed with his drink and won’t look up at jong in

“eh…? What?” due his error brain system, he can’t really catch what was Luhan really said

Luhan finally look up at jong in even he didn’t look at Jong in hopeful eyes “how have you been? Are you doing fine…?” Jong in smile a little hearing Luhan concern voice, he don’t really sure that it was a concern voice or not, but let his heart felt more happiness by his dream

“fine… I’m doing fine…” Luhan smile back at Jong in, but his smile seems a bit force “what about you?”

“yeah… great” Luhan back to stare at his drink and play with his fingers

Again the suffocated silent coming around and choked him up. He really want to hear Luhan’s voice more. His laugh maybe. But asking for too much will destroy everything. Maybe this time, just by hearing his voice can be enough.

“so…” jong in start the word with his cold hand claps t