You run backstage, panting and breathless. You can't believe he--!

You look down at your chest, your s no longer concealed with bandages. You gulp down hard. Now everyone knows...

You slam your back against the corridor wall, tears beginning to stream down your face.

It's all over now.

Your career is over. 

There's no way on earth SM will keep you now. Everyone knows that you are a girl. 

That's it! There's nothing left for you!

You bite your lower lip in anger, trying to hold back the tears that haven't fallen yet as you wipe away the ones that have with the back of your hand. 

You lean your head back against the wall.

What was he thinking?!

You hear footsteps down the wall and you see Heechul walking towards you. Angered, you push yourself off the wall and slam your fist into his chest, shoving him against the wall. "WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH YOU?!" you cry out in pain. 

Heechul shoves you off of him. "Don't blame me. He asked me to do it! He said it would be better this way!"

"What?!" you cry out. "Who said that?"

"Gaeteuk!" he cries out, walking past you with a huff.

You slump back against the wall, feeling like a complete idiot. You can not believe that you even had feelings for him too! His words replay in your head. 

"Don't worry. We'll protect you and try to prevent anyone from finding out."

He betrayed you! How could he?! After all that talk about how they would all make it together as a group and now this?! Then just to top it all off, you even have feelings for him?! The jerk!

Tears burn in your eyes. How could he?! Did he really view you just as his annoying little 동생 [dongsaeng] who was never respectful and nothing more? 

You push yourself off the wall, ready to confront him and give him a piece of your mind!

After taking a few steps, you stop in your tracks, realizing something. 

You shake your head.

Really? That is your response? To go and give him a piece of your mind? 

You are how old again?

Oh, yeah. That's right. 26.

26 years old. 

You really are just a disrespectful 동생 [dongsaeng]. 

Just an annoying, disrespectful 동생 [dongsaeng].

You feel the weight of this truth sink into your heart. Sighing heavily, you leave to go change, your shoulders slumped. Putting your hands in your pockets and bowing your head, you try to blink away the tears that keep threatening to fall. 

That's all he will ever see you as: just an annoying, disrespecful 동생 [dongsaeng].

That's all.

The sound of feet pounding against the corridor floor reaches your ears. 

"Jaehwa-ah!"

You recognize the voice all too easily. It is him, after all. You stop in your tracks, but do not turn around.

"Jaehwa-ah!" he calls again, catching up to you. "미안합니다 [Mianhamnida]! I know you must hate me right now, but please, give me a chance to explain."

Still refusing to turn to him, you shake your head. "There's nothing to explain 형 [hyung]. I get it. I do, really." The tears start to stream down your face against your will. You take a step to walk away, but he grabs your wrist.

"Jaehwa-ah, please. Let me finish." 

You can hear the strain in his voice, so you do not fight leaving. You hang your head, so that Leeteuk can not see the tears. You move your hand in front of your face like you have an itch, trying to wipe away the tears without him seeing.  

Leeteuk walks over to the front of you, letting go of your wrist. "Jaehwa-ah, I--" He sees a tear slip down your face. He brushes away the tear from your cheek with his thumb. "I'm sorry I didn't protect you in the way I should have." His voice is soft and filled with regret. "After what happened at the gym the other day, I didn't know what to do. I couldn't let you do that to yourself any more..." 

You look up, seeing the tears in his eyes. 

"...I know you probably just see me as an annoying '형 [hyung]' who acts like your '엄마 [umma]', but the truth is..." He steadies his breath. "...I like you, Jaehwa."

Your eyes widen in surprise, not expecting to hear those words fall from his mouth at all.

"미안합니다 [Mianhamnida], Jaehwa. I shouldn't have said anything," he says, turning away from you, misunderstanding the look in your eyes. 

Finding your voice, your speak, grabbing his wrist to prevent him from leaving. "아니 [Ani]! I-I like you too, 형 [hyung]." You chuckle slightly, reaching up to dry the tears from his eyes. "I thought that you only viewed me as your annoying, disrespectful 동생 [dongsaeng]!"

He shakes his head. "아니 [Ani]."

You chuckle, shaking your head. "Well, what are we going to do now?"

"We'll figure out a way to get you back into the group. I promise to protect you, Jaehwa-ah..." He envelopes his arms around you, pulling you into a hug. "...always."

You hold onto him tightly, "감사 [Kamsa], Leeteuk."

"Don't call me that. Call me Jungsu like you used to," he says softly.

You smile into his chest. "You mean, back when you would correct me on being so informal?"

He chuckles slightly. "네 [Ne]."

"Alright, Jungsu..." You pause, a smirk playing across your lips. "...형 [hyung]."

****

Later that night, he tells you that he did not think you could even care for him, until that one day when Taemin brought over the lie detector. He confesses that after you had went to bed and were talking with Amber on the phone that night, he snuck outside your door to eavesdrop on the conversation.

He then tells you how he confessed later to Suho over text that he thought you were more than just pretty the day of the bet and even let it slip out that he has feelings for you.  

****

The news about your true identity circulates quickly, and you are put on haitus as Super Junior continue their World Tour. SM doesn't know what to do with you. The fact that a girl is cross dressing in an all boy band is a scandal in itself. However, add the fact that she's been living in an all men's dorm... Well, that's an even bigger scandal on their hands.

Your father tries to explain things, but little can be done. You are put on hiatus until further notice. 

However, this does not prevent you from going to every Super Show on the tour, sneaking in as either a crew member or a member of the audience, your father, supporting you in this every time.

****

Sitting in your usual spot in the family zone section, you watch as Jungsu takes a seat on the white chair on stage. He is dressed in a white v-neck with a leather jacket and white fingerless gloves on his hands, which are cupped around the microphone standing in front of him.

Sungmin begins to strum his guitar. After a few chords, Jungsu starts singing, his beautiful voice filling your body with thrills.

"If I told you I was perfect, 
I'd be lying
If there's something I'm not doing, 
Girl, I'm trying
I know I'm no angel,
but I'm not so bad, No, no, no..."

You smile for a moment thinking about the lyrics. He may say he is no angel, but he is always trying to protect you. You chuckle quietly. 형 [Hyung] really isn't so bad.

"If you see me at the party conversatin'
It doesn't mean telephone numbers are exchangin'
I know I'm no angel,
but I'm not so bad, girl, No, no, no..."

He continues to sing his solo as you reflect on the past few months since he had Heechul expose you. Despite the busy schedules he has had with the rest of the members, he has made sure of your well-being. The day after he exposed you, he took you to the doctor to make sure that everything was alright with you after binding yourself so much. Needless to say, the pain and bruises you had been experiencing, came from your bruised ribs, which needed rest.Without schedules to contend with, you were able to heal, making sure to wear only the most comfortable of bras you owned. 

You smile, thinking about how every day, even when he was strained because of schedules, he would come to the eleventh floor to make sure that you were doing alright.

"You should know there's beautiful girls all over the world
I could be chasing but my time would be wasted
They got nothing on you baby
Nothing on you baby
They might say hi and I might say hey
But you shouldn't worry about what they say
Cos they got nothing on you baby
Nothing on you baby..." ["Nothing on You" by B.o.B.] 

Sungmin speaks out and Jungsu gets up from his seat, taking the microphone with him.

"That's right."

However, instead of Sungmin's usual rap, something different happens. Jungsu begins walking across the stage, his face turned in the direction of where he knows you are sitting. A thought immediately strikes your mind and you close your eyes for a moment, hoping that he is not going to serenade you. 

"I've been to london, I've been to paris
Even went out there to tokyo
Back home down in georgia to new orleans..."

You open your eyes and find that he has reached your section and he gazes on you as he begins to walk up the stairs toward your seat. You shake your head at him, knowing already that it will not help.

"But you always still to show (still to show)
And just like that girl you got me fro (got me fro)
Like a nintendo 64 (64)
If you never knew well now you know (know, know, know)..."

He makes it up to your seat, holding out his free hand for you to take. Resigning yourself to the inevitable, you place your hand in his, a tinge of pink dusting your cheeks as you do so. "감사 [Kamsa], 형 [hyung]," you whisper, emphasizing the 'hyung', sending him a wink.

He smiles at your little remark, shaking his head slightly.

Holding onto your hand, he begins to lead you down the stairs of the family section. You follow, wondering why he is leading you to the stage.

"Beautiful girls all over the world
I could be chasing but my time would be wasted
They got nothing on you baby
Nothing on you baby
They might say hi and I might say hey
But you shouldn't worry about what they say
Cos they got nothing on you baby
Nothing on you baby..."

Coming to a stop and turning to face you, Jungsu places a hand on your