Lay POV

We all stood the moment we saw her but something was just not right … this innocent face turned to an emotionless, cold face; I looked at her eyes for like forever and she looked at mine back but with … No emotion; I could feel my eyes reddening from trying hard not to show any tears; I didn’t want the hurt in my hurt to be shown in my face

Sehun ran and hugged her but she pushed him away lightly breaking the hug and I could see how shocked the guys were including me by her action

"What are you doing here?" she said with a cold tone and my heart sank at her words; as she said it and her eyes shifted back to mine

____ POV

I wanted to run and hug them; I wanted to cry out loud; I wanted to tell them I need them so bad and that I can’t live without them; but I couldn't; I don't want them to get hurt because of my selfishness; I want them to forget me; I'll make them forget me even if I have to make them hate me … I’ll just do it

"What are you doing here?" I said emotionlessly looking at them; I was trembling inside when I saw the hurt look in his eyes; I couldn’t look away; my eyes kept piercing his red teary eyes

"W-we missed you … We wanted to see you …" Baekhyun said sadly while looking at me and I was trying hard to control the tears that stuck up to my throat at the moment making my voice heavy and extra cold

"I think everything ended between us … Please leave …" I said and turned around to leave

"____" Kris Oppa said my footsteps stopped immediately when I heard his voice; I swallowed the tears hard; I turned around looking at him coldly

"Don't call me ____” I said emotionlessly

 “My name is Minah" I continued and I could see how shocked they were at my sudden change in attitude

"What happen to you … Angel?" Luhan oppa said hurt and I was this close to burst out crying now

"I SAID MY NAME IS MINAH!" I shouted and they were taken aback by my action; with wide and hurt stares they looked at me; I started panting heavily as tears threaten to pure down

"And don't call me Angel it's … Disgusting." I continued and I could see how hurt he was to hear those sharp words from me … his Angel

I shifted my eyes to Lay again who was standing there looking at me with eyes full of hurt; he didn’t say anything; he didn’t even shift from his standing position or shift his eyes away from me; he was so pale and my heart was aching so much; I examined their faces for the last time and looked away

"Don't come to see me again … I-I hate … Seeing you" I said and quickly head up the stairs to my room and slammed the door; I locked the room and went straight to my bed and laid straight on my face sobbing hard

"I'm Sorry … I'm Sorry … I'm sorry …" I kept on repeating nonstop while suffocating my cries and painful sobs in my pillow

Lay POV

I kept my eyes on her without blinking; I didn’t say anything and just looked at her; I could clearly say how she was trembling while clenching her fist hard; she kept swallowing and panting hard; her tone was so cold but I can feel something wrong with her; she left the place angrily after saying the last sharp words that hit our hearts painfully; we heard the door being slammed and silence filled the place again 

"Come on guys … Let's go" I heard Manager hyung saying and we all snapped out of our thoughts; before leaving I turned and looked at where she just went up and looked down again as I was guided by Kris hyung to the van blankly

"What happen to her?" Chanyeol said breaking the silent drive

"I don't know  ... She's a totally different person now …" Sehun said sadly looking out of the window; we arrived and all of us headed back to the dorm; thank god we don't have any schedules today since we just came back from Malaysia; the guys were all down and hurt again; I headed straight to the room and locked myself inside; I put myself under the covers and I was forcing myself to sleep but her words kept repeating in my head and her way of talking; the look in her eyes; I sat up irritatingly in the bed and ran my fingers through my hair

"Why is she acting like this?" I whispered and looked at the gloomy sky

____ POV

I cried my heart out; I was feeling so bad; my heart was aching so painfully to see them hurt and worst I'm the one who caused them pain; If just they know how much I'm suffering right now; tears were back to my eyes as I recalled the look in Lay’s eyes

“Umma …” I whispered clenching my heart firmly and tears kept pouring down silently now

"What should I do? I feel like I'm going to die ..." I whispered again tightening the clench as I felt that it's going to burst anytime soon 

Ajummah POV

I saw how Minah acted when she met her guests and I knew that she was forced to do so; I felt really bad for the guys; I noticed how she looked at one of the guy's eyes for a while and I could see how hurt he was when she acted like this

‘Are they in love my baby Minah?’ I thought as I felt really bad for both parties

I went out of the home going straight to where the driver of the Jung family was staying; he stood up the moment he saw me

"Do you need a ride Ajummah?" he said avoiding my eyes awkwardly

"Are you really going to let him send her away?" I said and his jerked up

"n-neah?" he said stuttering

"You are ruining a girl's life by being quite … this girl … suffered a lot … you must help her…" I said and he looked down

"She lost everything already…" I said and turned around and headed back to the house

Lay POV

Knock knock

"Yixing … can I come in …?" I heard Kris hyung voice and I stood up and unlocked the door as a sign to come in; he opened the door slowly and I went back and sat on the bed; he sat next to me

"Are you okay?" he said carefully looking at me and I kept my head down

"Ani …I'm not okay hyung … I-I … " I said but ended up sighing heavily unable to continue since my tears were ready to escape but I wiped them off; I put my hand on hyung's lap and assured

"Don't worry hyung … I'll be fine " I said smiling weakly and the room door suddenly was burst reveling Tao

"Hyung ____'s going to be on TV now!" he said

“Why?” I said surprised and we went to the living room; the news started and we waited for her interview and I suddenly didn’t feel well and my chest tightened

____POV

I was in my room; sitting on my bed with my hand clenched on my lap while looking at my bag; after 3 hours; I'll be leaving Korea and god knows when will I be back again … Tears rushed madly to my eyes at the thought of leaving them and my heart ached me so much …

Knock knock

"Are you ready my dear? The media already arrived …" the Ajummah said and I tightened my fists on my laps preventing myself from crying; the moment I raised my eyes; I saw my uncle passing by

"Make sure to say what I wrote" he said and I nodded hesitantly

I stood up and walked down to the living room slowly and my heart was beating fast; I looked at how the cameras where aimed to one place … where I will be sitting and how the reporters were spread all over the place; I was informed that this interview will be airing live on KBS news; I breathed in and stepped down; the moment the reporters saw my noises where everywhere and the flashes went crazy; I went and sat there nervously and the PD suddenly said "Cameras ready! Start"

“Thank you all for coming today although you are busy; the interview won’t take long and we will not accept any questions” The announcer said and the cameras aimed at me again as they motioned for me to start talking but suddenly … I went blank

I looked at them motioning for me to start and I just looked at everyone around me blankly; I looked at the camera again blankly while blinking slowly and emotionlessly; everyone around the place was literally panicking specially my Uncle since its airing live right now; I looked down and sighed … I raised my head again

"Hello everybody, I'm Jung Minah …" I started and all the flashes start snapping again crazily

Lay POV

My heart stopped the moment I saw her pale face on TV; she was sitting uncomfortably; I could tell from her way of sitting; clenching her hands on her laps; but … for a while she was silent; she didn't talk and blankly looked at the camera; her stares were strange and I was worried; I was nervous for a moment when suddenly her voice took away my breath and all of us quietly listened to her words

____ POV

"Thank you all for giving up your time and attended …” I said with a weak smile

“The reason I'm here today …" I paused for a moment and looked at my Uncle's stares that was piercing mine and for a moment I gave up all my life and decided to let everything out

"Is that … “

“I want to explain about a guy …" I said and my voice softly was shaking as tears were chocking me and my heart was so tightened at the moment; noises again filled the place as I announced the purpose of the interview and all the flashes blinded me

LAY POV

"Is that …”

“I want to explain about a guy ...” She said and my heart stopped beating and my chest tightened and I carefully listened to her as she continued 

"There's a guy I love …”

“I --- love him truly …" She said with a weak smile spacing at the camera with teary eyes and trembling lips

"He's a guy -- who hurt people continuously without noticing ----“

“But he has the most pure and kind heart …”

“When I'm with him --- I've become to discover joy and hope in the smallest things ...When I'm with him ... my heart feels safe…” her voice cracked and tears were obvious in her eyes at the moment

“Through him … I came to discover that life is worth living …”

“So …”

 “So …” She said again and breathed out as she stuttered with a shaky voice

“Because I really love this guy so much … “

“Because I -- I wish to protect him … is the reason …” she said again with shaky voice and paused

“I'm letting go of him … “ she said and I felt a bang on my heart; tears rushed madly to my eyes as I couldn’t hold them in anytime; I felt lack of air and my chest tightened painfully

" …. You may be curious about that person … But I can't disclose who he is …”

“He’s a stupid and good person but …” she said with weak smile that soon disappeared and shaky voice

“But …” her voice cracked and her lips were trembling

“He's the most important and special person in my life …”

“This is all I wish to say for now …“ She said ending the interview; I was standing there staring dizzily at the TV seeing how she stood up and was avoiding the cameras until she fully disappeared from the screen; the TV power went off and all the guys looked at me

"Hyung………" Tao said teary and I looked at them; I looked at Kris who nodded for me and I just took the car key running out of the dorm heading straight to ___'s place

____ POV

I just felt like a huge, heavy stone was removed from my chest; I was revealed to let it out and tell the whole world that I love him … even if he might not have watched the interview, it’ll still reach him ... right? Still I don't regret doing it … and I'll never regret it …

"ARE YOU CRAZY? WHAT THE HELL!!!!! WHAT? A GUY I LOVE!!!!!" I snapped out of my thoughts as I heard my Uncle shouting; I turned around slowly and faced him

"You can't … tell me what to say too" I said rudely with a smirk and he raised his hand ready to slap me and flinched a bit and closed my eyes

"Okay! Do whatever you want for now …" He said walking away; I opened my eyes and looked at his back while leaving angrily; I heard him ordering the maids to take my bags down to the car and to head to the airport; I looked out of my room window for the last time; I tried to calm myself down as I looked up at the dark, gloomy sky a while later I went down and Ajummah looked at me with teary eyes

"I'm sorry … I'm sorry I can't do anything " she said and my tears fell down as I hugged her tight

"Ajummonie … take care " I said and she sadly nodded breaking the hug and squeezed my hands; I smiled assuring her that I’ll be fine and stepped out and they opened the car door for me; I looked around the place; with teary eyes; I stepped inside the car and we took off to the airport; EXO never left my thoughts for even a second as I was looking outside the window; my heart was aching me so much; after awhile I’ll be far away from them and breathing different air; When we arrived at the airport; I saw Taegoon Oppa; I went straight to where he was; I looked at him with teary eyes

"Are you okay…?" he said looking sadly at me and I just nodded unsure

Lay POV

I arrived at ___'s place and hurriedly rang the bell and the door opened wide reveling the  Ajummah from this morning

"Can I see … Minha just for a moment? … Please? “I said nervously with pleading eyes and she looked at me sadly

"What took you so long?” She said and I looked at her and my heart almost burst out

“They took off to the airport … Minah is heading to the US after an hour from now …" she said looking straight in my shocked teary eyes; without thinking I ran back to the car and speeded up heading straight to the airport

"No ____!! You can't just leave like this! You can’t leave me …" I said with shaky and trembling voice while biting on my lower lip nervously trying hard to concentrate on driving; my phone suddenly rang; I looked at it and it was Kris

"Hyung! ____'s leaving to the state in less than 45 minutes! I'm heading to the airport now" I said directly the moment I picked up

"WHAT!!! Okay! We'll head there now" he said and hanged up

"____ , just wait a little bit …. " I said tightening my grip on the steering while speeding up; minutes later I arrived at the airport and hurriedly ran inside and started looking for her

"Where are you ____? Where are you?" I murmured running back and forth looking for her in the crowded airport

*Ding*

"Flight number 365 heading to United State will be taking off after 30 minutes please head to the checking area …"

I stopped the moment I heard the announcement; I ran to where the passenger where sitting waiting for their flights and I spotted her; I saw her; she sitting while hanging her head down; I couldn’t approach her and just stood there with eyes full of tears looking at her while breathing heavily; at the same moment she raised her eyes and they met mine; she looked at me with a half shocked, half pained expression; with tears she slowly stood up still looking deeply in my as well teary eyes

_____ POV

I was sitting there spacing out while waiting for our flight; about 30 minutes from now and I'll be off Korea in another place, far away from them … my beloved EXO

I sighed and raised my eyes ready to head for the last check up before taking off; when my eyes met his eyes … yes … it was Lay’s eyes ... The eyes that used to send shivers to my whole body are looking at me sadly and pained with tears filling them; I stood up slowly when I saw him not fully believing that he was in front of my eyes; tears filled my eyes as well and my lips started trembling; he slowly started approaching me and I could only see him; in the whole crowded airport; everything just stopped and it was only me and him

"Who are you?" Taegoon said asking Lay as he was standing in front me with his teary eyes fixed with mine; blankly Lay just looked at him then turned back to me

"Are you really … leaving like this?" he said sadly pronouncing the words heavily and I didn't say anything; I just looked at him as tears managed to fall down; I looked down

"I -- I love you ____" he said and slowly I raised my eyes again and a tear fell down silently

"I can't live without you …"He continued and held my trembling hands in his warm hands and squeezed them softly

*Ding*

‘The last call for flight number 365 to United State; please head for the last check’

 I heard the announcer and looked at our locked hands; I couldn't think straight; I looked at him gain with teary eyes and then I felt Taegoon's hand on my shoulder

"Minah …We need to go" he said gently while looking at me with sad expression; I nodded and looked again at our hands and freed myself from his grip; I raised my full of tears eyes again and looked at his teary eyes

"I'm sorry …" I whispered and my voice cracked as tears were stuck in my throat; the tears in his eyes managed to escape the moment I let go; I couldn’t take it anymore; his hurt face was aching my heart; I was going to die and I felt a lack of Oxygen and I just wanted to hug him and cry out loud; I turned away with Taegoon and he just stood there; I could feel his eyes on me

"Hyung …" I turned around and saw all EXO standing beside Lay who didn’t even blink tell now still looking at me; sadly they looked at me; tears started running down my cheeks continuously yet silently as I couldn’t take the pain in my heart anymore  

Lay POV

"I'm sorry …" she whispered with shaky voice and turned around ready to leave; my heart was beating painfully and my chest tightened preventing me to breathe properly; I couldn’t move; my eyes never left her while she was heading away from me

"Hyunggg …" I heard Tao’s voice and still didn't shift my eyes off her; she turned slowly and looked at all of us standing there looking at her; I just couldn't take it anymore; I just turned away heavily and headed to the exit

"Lay …Where are you going?" I heard them calling me but I just continued walking; I got back in the car leaving the place

____ POV

"Angel …" I saw Luhan Oppa sadly approaching me followed by the guys

"You can't leave us like this … We love you" he said and with my tears falling down crazily I looked at them and turned around giving my passport to the security standing at the entrance of the plane door and he nodded to me giving back my passport; I looked at them again scanning their faces for the last time

Lay POV

It was raining heavily outside; I was driving to I don't know where; I just wanted to be far away from the airport; I needed to be far from her; I was suffocating; my heart was aching so bad like it was being stabbed by a sharp knife; I was crying like a little kid while driving and holding the steering tight; regretting every time I hurt her …

"Wae! WAE!!!" I shouted and hit the stirring hard; A sudden flash came in front of me half blinding me; I tried to see clearly as the heavy rain and my blurry vision because of the tears were making it harder for me to see when suddenly a car pooped right ahead of my car; my eyes went wide and I turned the car to the left quickly trying to avoid the car in front of me to be hit from the other side by another car

The car start flipping along the street madly and I could see flashes of my whole life across my eyes; the car then hit the street side and stopped flipping and it was upside down …

I could hear people screaming and shouting but I couldn't clearly hear anything; I was pulled out of the car and was laid on the cold ground under the rain; I looked up barely able to open my eyes; I could see the blood leaking from my head and body crazily

"Stay awake!! The ambulance coming soon!! Stay awake" I saw the panicking men trying to stop the blood from leaking and a smile appeared on my lips

"W-hat's the p-point of  l-living? I- already … lost her … I -- l-lost my soul" I said heavily with tears running down my cheeks mixed with the piercing cold rain; I finally gave up and everything went black …

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