Lay POV

I stayed in the bed for a while now thinking and I noticed that quietness fill the apartment now; my heart was hurting me as the conversation she had with Jonghyun earlier kept on replaying again and again in my head; I was really mad … at myself?

I got up tiredly heading to the living room where everyone was supposed to be; I saw all of them sleeping randomly on the floor and coke cans beside them; I spotted ___ sleeping on the couch; slowly, I approached her and looked down at her peaceful face …

"Did I lose -- already?” I whispered softly with a hurt expression 

“Will I ever have another chance?" I whispered again and spaced out at her dreamy face; I sighed softly and headed to the kitchen; I opened the fridge and took a bottle of water and gulped it in one shot; I closed the water bottle and I saw Kai already awake; sitting blankly on the ground checking his phone

" Oh? 2 missed calls? " he said looking at his phone

" Taemin " he said while putting the phone on his ear calling him back

" Yoboseyo; oh Hyung sorry I was napping " Kai said while rubbing his eyes

"You guys are here? Really? Daebak!!" he said again surprised

"Okay then see you later tonight” he said hanging up; I pretended not to know anything; I walked and sat on the floor where they were sleeping

" SHINee's here? " I said and kai nodded looking at ___

"I bet she'll be so happy" he said and stood up heading to the bathroom

"Can't you see it already?" I said and sat there playing with my phone when the guys started waking up one by one

"Hmm .. wait .. Don't leave …" I looked at ___ who was mumbling something while sleeping; the guys looked at each other's confused then shifted their eyes to ____

"Are you dreaming about your prince Jonghyun?" I thought blood boiling when I noticed her frowned face

"hyung? Maybe she's having a bad dream! Wake her up " Baekhyun told to me; I looked at him then to her who was still frowning

"Um~ No .. Don't say that ..” She said and made a sobbing sound while sleeping

“I'll never lose them .. " she continued while still making the sobbing sound as if she was about to cry in her sleep; I approach her

"___ ah~ ___ ah~ wake up … " I said when she slowly opened her eyes and looked at my eyes deeply; tears filled her eyes; I was a little bit taken aback; I looked at her softly; she sat up and looked down

"Oh, What’s wro -- " Kris said and bent by her level and she suddenly hugged him tight; all of us were surprised by her sudden action; silence filled the place; Kris wrapped his arms around her

"You okay dear?" Kris said softly while rubbing her back to comfort her; she slowly parted the hug; her eyes shifted slowly and she looked at the guys who were standing there looking at her still confused and worried then slowly she looked at me while blinking slowly; meeting my eyes; I soften at her gaze and gave her a worried look; she looked so sad at the moment

"Angel … Are you okay?" she looked at him nodded and smiled to him softly

"Don't worry Oppa; I just had a bad dream; never mind" she said getting up; we looked at the sudden change in her spirit and looked at each other weirdly

"Let's head out for dinner; I forgot to tell you SHINee are here so I told them we can have dinner together” She said walking to the room to dress up; the guys faced palm themselves desperately sighing! So I guess it’s not only me who hated their presence around her; we had no other choice so we went to dress up too

___ POV

"Woow! So your birthday is pretty soon"

Here goes my so called used to be ‘best friend’ approaching me with a smirk; I stared at her emotionlessly

"So~~ where are you holding the fancy party this year? " she said mocking me while looking at her fingers arrogantly with an attitude while smirking

"Ah! so it's time to lose your beloved EXO huh? “ She said and my heart broke into pieces

"Wow! another tragedy! Tsk tsk tsk! Poor you and your miserable life! First losing your parents and now your lovely EXO! Awwww “ she said hurtfully and walked away brushing my shoulder hard by her's; I looked at her back

 "I'll never celebrate my birthday;  I'll forget it; I don't want to lose EXO; I can’t;  they are my everything now; they're the air I breathe;  I just can't lose them; they can't leave me; No … Don't leave"  I felt my eyes burning with tears

"___ ah, ___ ah~ wake up!" I heard someone's voice which happened to be Lay; I opened my eyes slowly that were already filled with a good amount of tears; I looked deeply at him soft eyes; Kris Oppa was the first to approach me; I don't know what happened but I just hugged him tight afraid to let go; When I finally realized it was just a bad dream; I came to my scenes  

I let go of Oppa and looked at the rest of EXO; I saw how their faces were covered with worries; I assured them that I was fine and quickly headed out of the place to avoid any other question; I headed to change after informing them that we're having dinner with SHINee; I could hear them sighing

"What's wrong with them?" I thought taking my clothes out of my bag and got dressed; applying some make up; I stopped and looked at the mirror

 "Why am I … wearing make up? Why wearing those kind of cloths? Is it because I want Jonghyun Oppa to admire me? But I love Lay?" I thought as my heart skipped a beat thinking about Jonghyun or maybe Lay?

" ___ ah, are you done? " I heard Kris Oppa so I quickly put the makeup back; I looked at the mirror for the last time and then opened the door

"I'm ready Oppa" I said coming out and he smiled to me

Lay POV

I wore a simple skinny jeans with a V nick t-shirt; I walked out of the room to the kitchen; I opened the fridge again taking a bottle of water; I heard Kris calling ___ to leave; she opened her door and I looked at her; she looked extra beautiful this time; I felt my chest tightening; I couldn't breathe again; the fact of losing her to someone else is killing me …

 I couldn't stand seeing her all dressed up to meet up with him; she put a little extra effort to impress him; but still; it’s her choice after all … but why it hurts so much?

"You already let go of me? I thought you would give me a second chance?" I whispered putting on my cold face; I walked to the exit and was wearing my shoes when she came next to me; I looked at her while wearing my shoes and she looked at me awkwardly slightly nervous? I headed to where the car was and she was right behind me; suddenly I felt dizzy and stopped walking …

____ POV

I looked at his back as I was walking behind him; I hated the cold glares he was giving me again; he’s totally confusing me now;

"Am I really dressed up to impress Jonghyun? But why I feel hurt from the way he looked at me earlier? Coldly? Ah! I think I'm going crazy! Do I really even like Jonghyun Oppa?! It’s just —" I was busily thinking while still looking at his back but he suddenly stopped and leaned his hand on the wall nect to him for support; I quickly approached him

"Sir! You okay?" I said worried looking at his face

"You look pale!!" I said shocked by his appearance; I put my hand on his forehead; it was burning

"Oh!!! You’re burning" I said worried; he pushed my hand away from his forehead

"I'm fine! Stay away" he said walking to where the car was; he got in and I stood still in my place

"Okay …. That hurts " I thought; and walked and got in the car and headed to the place where we’re having our dinner; It was too close though but because they wanted to avoid attention …

We reached soon and were waiting for SHINee to show up; I couldn’t keep my eyes off Lay to make sure he's okay but as time passes his face was getting darker and paler;  I was really scared something might happen to him

"I should keep an eye on him" I thought when I saw SHINee coming to our direction

" SHINee ~ " Luhan Oppa said greeting them; I was sitting across Lay who was beside the window ( A/N: It’s the tables which are located near the windows,You got me right? Hehe)

" ___-ah~ You look dangerously cute " Minho commented and I blushed a little

" Thanx" I said smiling; shifting my worried eyes toward Lay again; he kept drinking water and looking outside the window; we ordered food and started eating; I looked at Lay again who was picking in his food and not eating any

" Eat angel~" Jonghyun oppa said putting food in my plate; I looked at him and in the same time Lay eyes suddenly looked up at me and Jonghyun; I smiled nervously while thanking Jonghyun Oppa; I looked again at Lay who looked at me again coldly and shifted his gaze out of the window

"Hey! That’s my nick name for ____!!!" Luhan oppa protested and all of them laughed when he pouted cutely; I smiled along with them but was so busy thinking; I just felt weird

‘I didn't get over Lay yet? Did I? I don't think I even care about Jonghyun? Am I really in love with the guy? I don't think so? This is just so … confusing’ I thought while still fixing my eyes on Lay; we finished eating and had some dessert; the guys were chatting except Lay

 " ___, let's go for a walk" Jonghyun Oppa said suddenly; I was shocked by his sudden request

"Okay … " I said getting up

Lay POV

I seriously wasn't feeling well; I was in sharp pain; I sat in the far end of the table and she sat across me

‘Great now I had to see her pretty face each minute Jonghyun is around!’ I thought irritated still wearing my clod, emotionless expression not to show the pain I was suffering right now; I seriously can't take this; she was looking at me from time to time; I admit; I felt happy, at least she's showing that she cares about me

My head suddenly jerked up when I heard him calling her angel; I looked at her who smiled shyly to him; I tried my best to stay conscious at the moment then I heard him asking her to go for a walk with him … alone

I started to have trouble breathing again; my heart was aching so badly; I was looking at her back; I saw how he took her small hand in his; I knew that he's going to confess; I know when he confesses to her she'll accept him; I mean why wouldn’t she accept? She’s already in love with him; I was so pissed and in sharp pain; I stood up

"Where are you going dude?" Suho asked

"I'll leave, I'm tired!" I said taking my leave quickly avoiding any other conversation

____ POV

We stood up and headed to the exit of the restaurant when he took my hand in his; to be honest; I felt weird and confused emotions came rushing to me at the moment

 "No; something is wrong!" I was busily thinking

"So, beautiful how are you? " he said breaking the silence

"Well, I'm good! What about you?" I said looking at him

"I'm good as long as I'm with you" he said smiling charmingly to me

‘Okay! Something is really wrong; I don’t feel good; I feel like am losing something’ I thought as my heart was aching; I don’t know if I was just nervous but all I know is that I wasn’t having any pleasant feelings at the moment; we sat at the bench and after a some awkward silence

"____-ah~" he said looking at me lovingly

"naeh?" I said and to be honest I was nervous now

"You look so beautiful~" he said softly while getting closer and closer to me; I was shocked and started to panic at the moment

"Is he going to kiss me! Oh~~ what should I do! What should I do????!!! " I was panicking mentally but still didn’t move          

Lay POV

I was planning to leave; when my legs just took me to where ­­____ and Jonghyun were sitting on a bench; I saw Jonghyun getting closer to ___'s face

‘ Is he going to kiss her?’ I thought looking at them; I was shocked for a moment then I turned my back to them quickly and just left the place; trying hard to keep my breath normal; I felt my heart breaking into pieces; pain shoot all over my body; I felt so hot; I walked and walked till I found a small lake in a dark place with no one around; I walked and sat in front of it; I couldn't forget how he was getting closer to her!

“I really … missed my chance with her …" I said grabbing were my heart was aching so hard; I felt like dying from the sharp pain

____ POV

"YOU NEED TO STOP THIS!" I screamed mentally and suddenly stood up nervously

"I-I'm- I think I need to go back; Maybe the- they are already leaving " I said while stuttering; he looked at me

 "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you feel uncomfortable" he said looking down

"No~ No Oppa~ I just feel like my heart needs someone … else" I said looking down and he smiled softly

"Lay?" he said and I looked up with wide eyes

"I know you love him; I just wanted to make sure … "he said looking at my eyes

" Go ___, go to him" he said getting up; ready to leave; I looked at him; I felt really bad; he looked hurt; he patted my head and with a soft smile he left waving his hand as a "goodbye" in the air; I turned around and started to walk blankly

"Is it really that obvious that I love … Lay?” I thought still walking around the unfamiliar place thinking about random stuff as I needed to clear my thoughts before going back; I sighed and looked around me; I was in a dark place beside a small lake that’s surrounded with good smell flowers; I approached the lake but I saw a familiar figure that made my heart skip a beat

"Lay?" 

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