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“____ “he said whispering  and I could see the tears in his eyes; My eyes were fixed at his for like forever now; while blinking heavily I just looked deeply at his eyes ..

They all approached me except him  ..  Lay; I shifted my gaze slowly from him and looked at the crowd around me I was happy that I’m able to see their faces the moment I opened my eyes, they looked so tired; I smiled to them scanning their faces one by one; blinking heavily; they were smiling softly while tears in their eyes …..

Lay POV

I was spacing out thinking about ___, while the others were chatting with a really low voice not to bother ____, I looked at Sehun who was sitting quietly beside Luhan

“Sehun-ah .. am sorry ..” I thought as I was really hurt to see our maknae’s depressed soul  

Slowly I raised my eyes and look at her but …? She was looking at me; her eyes were opened looking at me; my heart stopped beating for a second; I stood up slowly; tears burning my eyes; I was afraid that it might just be a dream and am just imagining

She looked deeply in my eyes while blinking heavily; I couldn’t move from my place and I just managed to whisper her name at the moment and the guys were all surrounding her happily that she’s awake now

 I was so happy; I wanted to hug her but I couldn't move; my legs were shaking, I just looked at her from the end of the room, I saw her soft smiles making my heart race like it was about to burst out

Kis POV

" ____ … " I heard Lay whispering while standing up slowly; I looked at him then I looked to where he was looking

" ____ !! " I said surprised and my legs walked to where her bed was; I looked at her while tears blurring my eyes; she looked at me smiling with the *I'm Okay* soft gaze; She looked at us one by one giving us a warm smile while blinking slowly and heavily

Baekhyun POV

 I was sitting beside Chanyeol resting my head on his shoulder when suddenly Lay blared ___'s name; I looked at him and then to ___; She was awake! She was looking straight at Lay

"___" I said running toward her and the others came with me as well; I held her hands

"You're awake …." I said happily; she didn't say anything; she looked at me and smiled warmly; tears started to form from happiness

Sehun POV

My heart stopped when I saw those innocent eyes blinking heavily; I stood up approaching her slowly; the guys were all surrounding her and her eyes met mine; the guys gave me a space so I can reach her; slowly and trembling with tears burning my eyes I held her hand

“N-Noona ..” I said almost whispering because of the tears; her eyes didn’t leave mine and she smiled warmly to me while pressing my hand

"I-I’m glad you're awake -- Don't ever do that again, you scared us " I said wiping away the tears from my eyes before they fell; She smiled to me, heavily blinking; she looked tired

 "I missed you … " I said holding both of her cold hands and warmed it with mine

Luhan POV

I was quite the whole time; when we went to the practice; when we came to the hospital; I just sat with Sehun; she was sleeping peacefully, making my heart cry in pain, I couldn't take it, I stood up to leave when Lay suddenly whispered her name; my eyes shifted to where she was

 She was looking straight at Lay’s eyes, we all surrounded her and she warmly smiled although we hurt her she still look at us with a smile; it really hurts, hurts so bad; I promised her to protect her but I didn't; I was selfish with my feelings

 I approached her; I looked at her, she looked at me with her adorable eyes while smiling to me blinking heavily assuring that she’s fine; I really missed her voice and laughs; the dorm is so quite without her around us

I saw Lay finally approaching her; he was standing far from her while all of us surrounding her, we looked at ___ worried but then we moved for Lay to stand; I was really nervous of her reaction toward seeing him after what he did to her ..

____ POV

I was looking at the guys one by one while smiling to them so I assure them that I'm fine now, but tears didn't stop flowing in their eyes

"They really care about me? I could feel it now" I thought still smiling warmly to them; I looked for Lay but again he wasn't beside me .. The one I need is not near me ..

I saw him standing far from me, is he feeling guilty or not concerned? I was thinking while looking at his direction; he looked at me and start walking toward me slowly; my chest tightened; I can  hardly breathe now; my heart was beating so fast he stood right in front of me after the guys backed away to give him some space; he looking deep in my eyes; we looked at each other's eyes for a while now without any words and without any breathes

I couldn't take it anymore as I looked at his eyes; the eyes I love the most; those eyes that just send me cold glares …  a single tear managed to escape my eye

 He looked so soft; caring and his eyes were just so gentle; I can clearly see how worried he was; it was the first time seeing this deep gaze of him and I couldn’t help but to fall even more for him but why does it still hurt?

Lay POV

I looked deep in her eyes; I saw pain; I saw fear and sadness and I saw. . Love; A tear escaped her eye while looking deeply into my eyes burning my heart; tears appeared in my eyes as well but I managed to not let one escape

 I only hurt her; I only make her suffer; I think it's better to leave her alone now; I can't protect her; I can't love her; I want her to be happy . . Am afraid to break her fragile heart

 "I'll make sure to hide my feelings ___, I'll make sure to stay away from you, and I'll avoid you so I'll never hurt you or see those tears again  ... I love you but I just can’t …" I thought as we continued gazing deeply at each other’s eyes but a lot was going through our minds; the doctor opened the door smiling widely that when we broke the eye contact coming back to reality

"Ah miss ___, I'm really glad you're awake” she looked at the doctor with a smile

"I guess we can treat your wounds safely now " he said looking at her wounds and left ordering her not to tire herself; she looked back at the guys; she smiled again,

"Want me to bring you some food? You look so pale …. You should regain your health quickly" Kris said softly brushing her hair softly

"Thank you Oppa .." she whispered softly as she shook her head

Kris POV

"Thank you Oppa .. " She said softly and my heart stopped

"She said oppa! Yes I'm sure she just spoke and said OPPA!" I thought; I looked at her she blinking in disbelief because she called me Oppa and she’s … talking!! She just smiled to me warmly

"What -- did you say?" I said with a smile and she looked at me teasingly yet innocently

"You don't like it?" she said looking with a smile

"I knew that you heard me!!!!” I said hugging her; she heard me, when we talked to her yesterday; it feels like it's been like a year without her that we all realized that we’re so attached to her and we can’t live without her around us ..

____ POV

I called him Oppa, his face changed, I know he wanted to hear it, I really love this oppa, I feel like I have a big brother that I've never had before now ..

" Oppa, I want water please ……  " I asked him and he immediately stood up to bring me water

 “So sweet " I thought looking at him leaving the room running, and a smile appeared on my face at how cute he winked to me with a smile motioning for me to wait just a minute

My eyes met Lay again; he was looking at me with no emotions in his face, I couldn't tell if he's angry, not concern or upset ……. I just don't know; I can’t understand him anymore; the guys were all quiet and looking at me

"What? " I said suddenly breaking the awkward silence, opening my eyes wide while blinking they all laughed except Lay who was still standing with his emotionless face; well at least he was there so I can steal some glances of him; I was so happy to see their smiling faces again

"I'm sorry for making you worried " I said looking down

“Don’t be ___ ah~ we're sorry for making you suffer in serious pain " Chanyeol said smiling warmly

"Yeah Noona .. Sorry for putting your life in danger" Sehun said looking at my eyes

"I'm s-sorry for not protecting you! " Luhan said feeling guilty

"I'm sorry for everything …..  " Tao said hanging his head down cutely feeling guilty

"It's okay guys forget it " I said smiling, brushing the topic off

Lay POV

I was supposed to be the one to apologize here; I looked up after thinking to speak or not; I finally decided to just speak and take all the heavy guilt away from my chest

" I-" I opened my mouth but

" _____ ah~!! " the door suddenly opened revealing all members of SHINee

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