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____ POV

I was thinking deeply about what happened during our way back; the day was so long and lots have already happened in less than 24 hours; he confessed to me and I rejected him for the better and I came to know about his disease; I sighed at the thought; I should control myself; I can’t let him notice that I actually like him and there is nothing between me and Jonghyun; as much as it hurts, I’ll just try ignore him and start to avoid him … again

I brushed off the thoughts and continued to get out some light snacks form the fridge; I felt a pair of eyes observing; slowly I turned and looked at the person

Lay POV

" Hyuuuuung, ____'s Birhtday is next Thursday" Tao said whispering excitedly

"Really? How did you know?" Luhan said

"From her calendar; I went to her room earlier and saw it” Tao said proudly

"Let's do a surprise party for her" Luhan said in a low tone excitedly

"Of course; I'll talk to manger hyung if we have any schedule by then!" Kris said smiling excitedly as well

"I'll get her the best present" Sehun said looking at us challenging

They started to plan for the surprise and I slowly walked out of the room straight to the living room; I saw her there putting getting out some snacks; I looked at her when she turned and looked at me with an expressionless; I didn't want to bother her because I know she'll feel uncomfortable when I'm around so I just turned to leave

"Stay …" she said suddenly and I turned again and looked at her; my heart skipped a beat

"I'll leave." She said and my heart broke; am not really used to her acting this way; she walked past me brushing our shoulder coldly; I was stunned at my place; I couldn't believe it was her; the girl who just was so caring and soft turned to an emotionless and cold person … again; I sighed and sat on the couch when the rest of the members came jumping next to me

"Where is ___ ??" Sehun said looking around the place

"Maybe she want to rest just leave her" I said dryly; I stood up to leave the crowded living room

“and yeah … about her birthday …” I continued and they all shifted their eyes on me

“am out of this plan.” I said and walked away to my room and closed the door as I heard how they sighed after I said that

___POV

I closed the room door and rested my back against it; I clenched my heart that was aching so badly

"I can't take this  … I really can't …" I said tears already on the edge of my eyes; I went to my bed and rested my head; I saw my parents picture and took it; I looked at it while touching their faces softly

"Tomorrow … it'll be 1 year since you left me … you know how much I'm suffering?" I said tears coming out silently

" I *sobs* Umma … I love him … I love him so much; but I can't approach him; I can't stay at the same place as him” I said trying suffocate my sobs while looking at the picture

 “Umma … you know am leaving them soon?" I mumbled and started crying hard silently

"That man is looking for me … He’s looking for me Appa … I should disappear from Seoul but I don't want to leave EXO" I said suffocating my cries into the pillow afraid they might hear my loud sobs and I soon drifted to a deep slumber after a long time of thinking non-stop …

*Flashback*

  ___ POV

"GUYS; Food is ready " I said shouting because the TV volume was really loud

"YEAAAAAH" I heard them replying

"Could you please lower the volume a little bit!" I said looking at them irritated

"NO! We are waiting something important; I don't want to miss it" Tao said and the others agreed

"But it's still the news!!!" I said whining; irritating by the so loud volume

"It'll be over now … just wait" Chen said; I looked at them and they looked back suspecting what am thinking about; I think we were thinking the same; I breathed in and then I ran suddenly to were the remote controller was and they all climbed off the sofas running after me; we were all screaming and laughing while I was holding the remote high and jumping on the couch; Baekhyun and Tao and others were trying to snatch it from me and the other Oppas just kept the kids bullying me and headed to eat the food; I kept on jumper higher as I was searching for the button to lower it before they can reach it but soon I stopped jumping and froze at my place; I looked at the TV blankly staring at the news …

** Breaking ** Seoul government distributes its policemen everywhere around Seoul looking for the well-known business man Jung wonho's niece "Jung Minah" that was reported to be lost few months ago …* the news announcer continued with the news as they were showing his picture at the side of the screen; as I saw his face; shivers ran all over my body; I couldn't move; I stood at my place stunned; I couldn't believe what I just saw

‘He's actually … looking for me?’ I thought and I felt the remote being snatch from my hand and they all cheered

"WOOHOOOOO”  I looked at them blankly and they suddenly stopped the mini party they were having and looked at me

"Yah … What's wrong?" Chanyeol said with his deep, serious voice while looking up at me; I looked at his eyes with tears sparkling in my eyes

"Y-yah .. what’s wrong? …" Baekhyun said all confused

“D-Don’t cry; here take it; I was kidding with you” Tao said slowly feeling guilty handing me the remote control; I wanted to get off the couch but I stumbled and my leg slipped from the couch edge; I was going to fall straight on my face but was held tightly by Chanyeol’s firm hands by my shoulders; he seated my on the couch  

"HYUNG!!" Tao called his hyungs panicky

"What!! Whats going on!" Kris came running to the living room along with the others that were having dinner together while we were playing

"I don't know we- we were just playing but suddenly s-she ----" Baekhyun tried to explain when Lay bent down by my level and brought my chin up and looked into my eyes that stared blankly at him; everything happened so fast; I was in another world; I couldn't understand what they were saying

"What should I do?!" I thought preventing tears to show up

"Yah …" Lay said shaking me lightly; I looked up and looked at their worried faces

“This is … the end?” I whispered softly still looking at them blankly; my heart was burning and tears started to chock me to death now

"Is it … really time for me to disappear completely ...?” I said again whispering softly

"What? What are you saying? I can’t hear you clearly" Lay said getting closer to understand what am saying

"I should disappear quietly before my real identity is discovered; I don't want them to hate me for lying about everything; I don't want them to get involve into this!" I thought still looking at them; mostly into Lay's eyes

"I'm okay …" I said lightly pushing Lay aside from me and sat back on the couch

"What's wrong with you? Are you sick Angel?" said Luhan and I looked at him

"Hmm No; Don't worry it's normal for me" I said and they looked at me

"What's normal? You were shaking just know!" Kris said worried  

"I should get out of this situation!" I thought panicking mentally yet maintained a clam self outside; I smiled shyly

"Well … hmm it's … you know … my … time in the month" I said embarrassed and they all looked at me blankly blinking not understanding what am saying

"Ah! so embarrassing” I said and covered my face embarrassed and then looked at them again

“You know girls … have it hmm every month …" I said blushing dying of embarrassment

“A-Ah!" Luhan oppa figured it out and laughed awkwardly scratching his back; they all looked so embarrassed and I stood up

"Don't worry, I'll be fine” I said going straight to my room

*End of flash back* 

____ POV

I woke up in the middle of the night thirsty; I went to the kitchen and took a bottle of water and drank half of it in one shot

"AAh~" I looked at the cold bottle of the water in my hand and looked around the kitchen

"I … will no longer make you delicious food when you are hungry …" I whispered; tears threatening to fall

"I … will no longer cheer you up when you are stressed out because of your unending practices" I whispered again looking at their rooms direction

"I will make sure … I disappear silently; that man is so dangerous; I really don't want you to get hurt because of me …" I said wiping my tears and headed back to my room

Kris POV

The moment he stepped in the apartment again she acting really strange; she's was feeling so down; I remember before we went to the trip by like 2 weeks she was always spacing out; cutting herself mistakenly while cooking; we were so worried about her; she is always skipping meals saying she doesn't feel like eating

"Is it because of Lay?" I thought climbing off my bed heading out of the room when I heard ___'s so soft voice

"I will make sure to disappear silently …" she whispered softly; I was standing behind the kitchen wall; when I heard her mumbling strange things; I didn't fully understand though, but I had this weird feeling that ached my stomach suddenly; I felt something bad was going to happen; bad enough to part us apart; I went back to the room leaving her there; I just didn't want to hear anything further; I tried to convince myself that she’s just stressed out because of Lay?

"I will make sure to cheer her up tomorrow since it's her birthday" I said convincing myself  that everything is just alright and went back to sleep

___ POV

I went back to my room; I didn't know my parents anniversary would make me that depressed as I thought having EXO beside me would cheer me up but it actually was worse; I looked at my parents picture

"Umma … she was right … I'm really losing someone precious to me again right?" I said tears coming out madly from my already puffed and red eyes from crying before sleeping

"Appa~ ottokae…? I don't want to leave them …" I said as I was crying hard silently that I felt like dying at the moment

" Umma … Appa …  I need you … I need you so much …. I….." tears were running down my cheeks madly and I just couldn't stop them

"I can't believe it's been a year already …. Umma " I said as I kept on crying sliently the whole night; till the morning came closer; I wasn't thinking clearly; I just needed my parents right now; I put on clothes to make me warm and went out of the dorm straight to the bus stop; after an hour of riding the bus; I was in this place; the place that darkened my whole life the moment it hugged my parents bodies; It's the graveyard ….

I looked around the place remembering every single moment from the day I stepped here for the first time; the moment when I was saying farewells to my beloved parents … forever; I approach their graves slowly; my legs were shaking

" A-A-Appa … U-Umma~” I said softly and my voice cracked as I was trying to suffocate the tears and not cry

 “I'm h-here" I said with a smile still trying not to cry

“I wasn’t late … right?” I said again but tears were rushing madly to eyes now

“Why didn’t you … show up?”  I said biting my lower lip while trembling as tears managed to escape my eyes silently

“You said not to cut the cake and wait for you … but you never came …”

“You know how much am suffering in this life without you ….” I said crying hard while blaming them for never showing up and leaving me alone in this harsh life to face all alone; I bent down and sat on the ground crying like a kid and I can clearly hear my cries echoing all over the place now …

Luhan POV

I opened my eyes excitedly since today we don't have much work and today is Angel’s birthday; I washed up and went out but the place was strangely quiet; I looked for ___ but she wasn’t around

"Morning hyung " I turned to see Sehun sleepy face

"Yah ___ is not here?" I said looking for an answer

"Call her" he said simply walking to the bathroom; I took my phone and dialed her number but it kept sending me to the voice mail

"Who are you calling?" I looked back and it was Kris

" Hyung ___'s not here " I said and he looked at me and took his phone out

Kris POV

Luhan informed me that she was nowhere to be seen from the early morning; I don't know why but I felt breathless; without thinking I snatched my phone and called her but she didn't pick up

"Did something happen to her?" I thought and looked at Luhan growing worried

"Hyuuuuung~~~ there is a note here from ____ " I heard Baekhyun voice and went straight to the kitchen; Baekhyun read it loud

"Oppa~ sorry for going out without informing you~ I'm going to meet my best friend she just came back to Seoul but I'll be back before it darken, PLEASE  don't bother me :P :P Saranghae~~! ♥ ♥" I smiled at the cute note and looked at the guys

"Good timing to meet a friend huh? We already needed her to go out" I said smiling satisfied

"Should we start making the food?" Chanyeol said excitedly

"I have a schedule at 12:00 pm, but I'll be back as soon as I finish it" I said looking at the guys

"Okay, hyung make sure you get the cake in your way back" Tao said and I nodded

Lay POV

This is the first time I woke up by not hearing her voice around the place; not smelling the nice breakfast; I went straight to the kitchen where all the guys gathered; I saw the small piece of paper and I was really curious but I didn't bother to ask

"So Lay you really not attending ___'s surprise party?" Luhan said looking at me

"I already said I'm not!" I said dryly although I gave it some thought but after knowing that SHINee would be around; I completely refused attending

"Hyung; that’s so mean of you" Sehun said; I glared at him and went to the room to change

"I really don't understand you Lay!" I heard Kris saying and I just continued my way to the room; I dressed up

"Where?" Kai said

"Schedule." I said shortly exiting the dorm

____ POV

I sat between my parents graves while resting my head on top of Umma's grave for like hours now; I stopped crying for a while now but sobs wouldn't stop …

"Umma~ you know that your little baby had fallen in love with a mean guy?" I said and a smile formed on my lips

"You know how much he hurts me?" I said swallowing hard as tears were stuck in my throat again

"Appa … if you were alive you would've kicked his right?" I chuckled while tears sliding down my cheeks

"Appa you know … now I have 12 amazing brothers that would do anything to protect me? So you don't have to worry about your Angel" I said smiling but it faded away when I remembered that I'm leaving them soon

"But … what if they got hurt because of my Uncle? Yeah?" I said and tears ran down my cheeks again

"Appa~ If I leave them where am I going to stay?”

“You know how much I feel like … dying these days?" I said as I tried to hold back the tears that were escaping uncontrollably while sobbing hard

"Umma … give me a reason to live .. I just need … one reason …" I said sitting on my knees now begging Umma to help me

"I lost you and Appa in one day; I'm losing EXO and there's nowhere else for me to go to! I have No friends …. No sisters, No brothers, No one!" I clenched my heart while crying hard

"You know how much I want to die right now?!" I said and held my arm covering my eyes with it while crying; I bent down on the ground as my arms were crossed on the ground and my head over it while sobbing hard

A while later after calming down and being lost again in a my deep thoughts; I realized that it was getting darker

"It's getting darker already; should I leave? But I don't want to …. “I said looking at the sky tears blurring my vision; I looked at Umma and Appa graves for the last time

"I love you Umma~ Appa~ I'll come back soon" I said heading back heavily to the bus stop

Lay POV

I finished my schedule and headed to SM entertainment building; I was walking toward the company and passing by parking I saw SHINee and they greeted me

"Yixing~~" Onew said greeting me while smiling friendly; I smiled back greeting them back

"What are you doing here? We are heading to your dorm now!" Minho said smiling

"I have work; have no time to attend" I said looking emotionlessly at Jonghyun who looked at me weirdly

"It's her first birthday with you guys; you should attend!" Taemin said surprised

"You guys enjoy it; I'm not really interested" I said waving to them taking my leave

 I ignored the weird look they gave me and continued walking till I got into the elevator; I went straight to where manager hyung office was

"Hey hyung!" I said entering hyung's office and threw myself on the sofa

Kris POV

We were all busily organizing the place; I was in charge of cooking with Suho, Chen and D.O; the others were hanging the decoration on the walls while Baekhyun, chanyeol and Sehun happily blowing the balloons; the doorbell went off and Tao hurried to open it

"Heyyyy~!" I went out the kitchen to be greeted by excited SHINee

"Yo! guys there is no much time left so lets clean this mess quickly" Jonghyun said and all of them started helping; it was so noisy since Luhan and Jonghyun and Tao were choosing the best songs for the night while shouting and dancing at the same time

Lay POV

"What are you doing here?" Manager hyung said

"I want to stay at the company tonight" I said covering my eyes by my arm to sleep

"Wae?" Hyung said while searching for something in the computer

"They are preparing for ___'s surprise birthday party and I don't want to be there; am not really interested" I said but hyung didn't say a single word

Manger POV

"They are preparing for ___'s surprise birthday party and I don't want to be there; am not really interested" He said and my eyes grew wider when I fully got when he just said

"WHAT!!"  I shouted as I panicked mentally and flash backs would never stop showing in front of my eyes

*Flashback*

"S-sorry to ask but don't you have any  ...  Friends?" I said carefully and her smile faded away slowly

"Well, everyone in my school thinks that I'm arrogant because am rich, so nobody tried to approach me ever, although I tried many times but all I was getting back is hurtful words …” She said

*End flashback*

"She left a note this morning saying she went to meet her best friend" Lay said and I looked at him as flashbacks of her words came rushing to my panicked mind again

*Flashback*

“But I did have one before …" she said looking at me with a soft smile

"Why are you not … staying with her?" I said but she saddened again

"She said that … she just wanted to be a friend of a rich girl; mean that she was just pretending to be nice while talking behind my back; she end it up telling me that each time I'll have a luxury party in my birthday I'll lose someone who's really precious to me …" She said tears appearing furiously in her eyes as her voice cracked when she said the word ‘lose’

"and she was right,  I lost my parents; I really hate my birthday ……" she said wiping her tears from her eyes before they escape and smiled to me

*End flashback*

My eyes widened and the her words wouldn't stop repeating in my mind;

   "And I lost my parents! I really hate my birthday! "

  "And I lost my parents! I really hate my birthday! "

              "And I lost my parents! I really hate my birthday!

"Y-y-yah! C-call them!" I said suddenly and Lay removed his arm from his eyes and sat up on the couch

"W-why?" Lay said surprised by how shocked and panicked I looked

"Y-You have to stop them!  Min—I mean ____ ... S-she REALLY hates her celebrating her birthday!" I said trying hard not to spell out the secret I kept deep in my heart

"What? Why?!" he said looking at me weirdly

Lay POV

"I have to stop them?!"  I thought looking at manager who's acting really strange now

"W-why she hates it?" I said as I was surprised after what Hyung said

“Hyung?” I said again concerned; waiting for an answer

"She didn't go to meet a friend this morning!" Manager hyung said sadly and looked down with a sigh and I looked at him carefully

"What do you mean? She lied about meeting her friend?” I said but he didn’t say anything and was still looking down on the floor with his sad expression

“Hyung? You … know something?" I said getting more and more concern

"Her parents …" he said and I could feel a numb in my stomach already

"What's … with her parents?" I said carefully pronouncing the words

"Today is their death anniversary… “

“  ___'s parent … died in the same day as her birthday last year … which is today…"