I'm Sorry ... I Love you

Enough ..! I'm already suffering

Kris POV

"She's been …. Lying" I whispered shocked; eyes wide; not believing what I just saw; I was feeling so bad; my heart start aching; I stood up and headed to my bed blankly; I felt my chest tightened; I couldn't  sleep the whole night; I was thinking about how could she lie to us about everything? And why would she …?

"I think Lay was right about not trusting her from the start …" I thought and was shifting uncomfortably on the bed for awhile now; I sighed and got out of the room heading to ___'s room; I opened the door slowly; I saw her sleeping uncomfortably; breathing heavily; I approached her and looked deeply at her

"Are you really … Jung Minah?" I whispered hurt while looking at her peaceful face when flash backs started hitting me

*Flashback*

“Oh? Glad you are safely back here” I saw the Doctor approaching ___ with a policeman and nervously she looked at manager hyung with eyes full of fear; She turned back and hugged me tight; hiding her face in my chest

“Are you okay?” I said and she closed her eyes tights and was trembling?

"Oppa I want to go home …." she said nervously as she kept on trembling and tightening her grip in my back shirt

"What's wrong?--"

"Just take me home!"

*End flashback*

"What were you escaping from?" I whispered again feeling bad that this angel in fact is lying and fooling us

"I guess I should tell the guys …" I sighed and turned around exiting the room and went to the guys room

 

Lay POV

I woke up by a gentle tap on my back; I opened my eyes to see who was waking me up and it was Kris; I looked at him puzzled then sighed

"What's wrong?" I said annoyed

"I need to talk to you …" he said and I sort of felt uneasy by the sudden seriousness on his face; I looked at him worried

"Something -- happened?" I said a bit nervous totally awake now

"You will know now … " he said and went out;  I followed him and to my surprise all the guys were there too; and I knew it's something serious because when we gather it's like something serious is going on

"Whats going on hyung?" Sehun said looking at Kris sleepily

"Is there any problem?" Luhan said worried and Kris took a deep breath and sighed

"It's ____ …" he said and I could feel my heart tightening; I sensed something wrong with the whole situation and I just wanted to go deaf and don't listen to what Kris is going to say

"She's not ____ ….. " Kris said and I looked at him still not fully getting what he met

“What do you mean ___ is not … ____?” I said slowly and I could barely breath properly now

"What are you talking about hyung?" Baekhyun said clueless

" ____ is … " he started then paused and looked down; he sighed and looked back up

"She’s the daughter of that rich Jung family …”

“____ is not ___; she's … Jung Minah" he finished and I gazed at him blankly with an emotionless and expressionless face

"M-Minah…? What do you mean? You’re saying ___ has been lying about her real identity?" Chanyeol said shocked

*Flashback*  

"Wanna go somewhere? " I asked smiling to her

" Ani~ let's just walk around " she said happily running

" haha be careful" I pulled her hand to stay beside me; she's not fully recovered yet right?

"Waah~ people eats here? " she said pointing to the small hut in the street

" yeah~ you wanna try? " I said confused

 "She doesn't know? I mean she's a normal person how come she doesn't know this kind of places?" I thought taking her to the small restaurant

*End of flashback* 

"No wonder she came from a rich family, of course she would never know those kind of places" I thought looking at the guys who just sat there spacing out

 I think they just are figuring things out now; especially the day when the news about her family appeared on the news and she claimed that it's normal; and the day in the hospital when the police man approached her and she was glued to Kris's chest!!

 

"She's a liar; ___ is a liar…. The girl that stole my heart is a liar; her lovingly stares, her caring tone is all … a lie; she's a liar …” I thought

“She made me fall deeply in love with her and she’s knows it’ll hurt me; I loved her and she lied about everything … I'm never going to forgive her for that …" I thought looking dizzily at the guys; I just stood up slowly and headed back to the room and to tell the truth I was really hurt, hurt to the point that my heart was going to burst out from aching so bad ... But I didn't show it

 

Luhan POV

I couldn't believe what hyung just said, although I had the feeling that she was hiding something but I kept denying it; I looked at the guys who just stood still shocked by what they just heard; I looked at their shocked faces and I saw how Lay just simply without saying a word just went to his room; I looked back at them and although it was as clear as the sunshine, I still kept denying it; I couldn’t take it anymore;

"Stop talking nonsense; Angel is not a liar ….. Because ….. Because … She’s Angel!!" I said angrily going to the restroom and slammed the door behind me

 

Baekhyung POV

"____ is J-Jung Mi-  … hyung you are just kidding right?" I said looking at Kris's eyes

" Eyyyyyyyy hyung this is not funny; stop it already" I said but his eyes were dead serious and I couldn't really believe whats going on right now but all I know that I just don't want to lose her; we are too close now to just lose her suddenly

 

Sehun POV

I was quite the whole time looking at the guys who angrily left the place; my heart was tightened

"You are saying Nonna? … is Jung Minah …. What means that she's been lying for almost a year now…? But why...? How did you know..? Although I had a feeling that something was all wrong about her but….. But I still got used to her, and I'm not ready to lose her yet…" I said and he looked at me with hurt expression; I could see how much he’s hurt and disappointed right now

 

"Hyung … I don't know if what you are saying is right or wrong but Nonna sure has a reason” I said heavily leaving the place

 

____ POV

I woke up feeling so tired; my head was aching so bad and my body felt so weak; I recalled everything happened yesterday and I felt anxious to face the guys now, although I already made my mind to tell them the truth, the truth behind me hiding my real Identity so I decided to go prepare breakfast for them and tell them everything after we’re done with breakfast; I don’t want to lie to them anymore

I got up tiredly from the bed and opened the door slowly but I heard Kris Oppa voice and my chest tightened for some reason and my heart was about to burst out of its place as it was beating so hard

 I heavily took steps and peeked at the living room; I saw all the guys gathered there and the looks on KKris Oppa face made my heart drop …

"I think … I'm late?" I said swallowing hard fearing what Oppa going to say

" ____ is … " he started then paused and looked down; he sighed and looked back up

"She’s the daughter of that rich Jung family …”

“____ is not ___; she's … Jung Minah" he finished and " he finished and I closed my eyes when he spilled out those words seeing all my life crushes one more time in front of me; I turned and rested my back against the wall behind; it took seconds when it hit me

"She was right … I'm losing someone precious to me one more time ….” I thought tears escaping my eyes slowly; I hurriedly yet heavily got back to my room; I closed the door slowly; sliding down to the floor covering my ears so I don't hear anything farther

"Is it time for me to … leave?" I said looking at my parent's picture that was far from me; I wiped my tears and stood up

 

"I should leave quietly … " I said taking my bag and started stuffing my clothes in it while tears just wouldn't stop falling silently; the idea of giving up to my uncle and leaving the guys so suddenly was just killing me;

Yes … I’m heading back home; getting married to his son and living there under control; I mean this wouldn't hurt as much as what I'm going through right now; since my uncle is looking for me I don't want him to know that I was working for EXO all this time and was hiding her … I don't want them to get involved in this … specially Manager Oppa

"What if he really hurt them?" I thought remembering the manager words about how my uncle has the power to destroy him for hiding me

I heard the door closing and I peeked from the window to see EXO’s Van down waiting for them; I saw them one by one getting in the car; tears came running down my face again when I realized that it's the last time I'm going to see them; I couldn't take it anymore; I packed everything and sat down on my bed spacing out; trying my best to calm down my aching heart

 After a while I went out of the room but was surprised to see Lay; He was right in front of my room; my eyes went wide when I saw him looking at me like the first day I stepped in this place; the cold, emotionless, hurtful Lay … is back

I looked away trying to act normal as if I don't know that they already know the truth so I just walked past him going to the kitchen; I tried my best to hold my tears and not break down; I was busily thinking that I must control myself

" Minah "

"Neah?" I turned around and looked at him to see what he wants but … I realized what he just called me and my eyes widened again; I could see how hurt he was from his eyes that looked at me disappointed

"I-I c-can explain, I- had to do t-his m-my –“ I tried to explain but his piercing, emotionless gaze wouldn’t leave my eyes

"I can't believe you anymore …….." he cut me off and hurt now was shown all over his face

" You are a … liar " he said and turned around and left the dorm; I hear the door being locked again and I just stood still in my place; tears falling down burning my cheeks; I clenched my chest tightly that was hurting me so bad; I felt like am going to die

Lay POV

I closed the dorm door heading down; while trying hard to act normal; I headed directly to the company for practicing, although I wasn't in a good state right no; I couldn't keep my mind off her the whole time that I was being scolded each time I get the steps wrong

 

____ POV

I took my bag; and left the piece of paper visible on the desk; I closed the room door slowly after giving it a one last look … I headed to the living room and sat down on the couch with my bag next to me; I looked at the dorm for the last time; I looked down and sighed again trying my best not to cry; I stood up and exited the dorm quietly leaving nothing behind to remind them of me; I headed down heavily while tears falling down silently; I stopped a taxi and got in

"Where to ...?" the driver said looking at me but paused when he saw my pale face

"A-Ajushii … just drive please……." I said tears falling down while staring at the building; and all I can think about now is that I’m never going to see again; tears started coming out silently again and I sobbed

“Are you … okay dear?” The old Ajushii said looking at the rear mirror worried; I shook my head as yes while still sobbing as I tried to suffocate my tears that kept coming out silently

 

Lay POV

We finished our schedule and headed back to the dorm that was strangely quiet, cold and dark; I don't know why but somehow my chest tightened and I felt my heart pounding painfully; I opened the lights and the guys stepped in walking straight to their rooms but something was just not right …

"____ Noona?" I heard Sehun calling her and I acted as if I don’t care when in fact I wanted to see her so badly right now; I wanted to hear her voice; I wanted to see her warm welcoming smile; I sat in the living room with Kris and Luhan; they were sitting quietly  

 

“____-ah?” Baekhyun said looking around the dorm

“Noona~~” Sehun and Tao were looking for her; I acted like I careless but my eyes shifted at them when they slowly knocked her door but there was no response; they opened the room door and I shifted my eyes again ignoring what's going on when suddenly Sehun’s words made my heart stop beating …

"Wait…… ____'s  stuff  is not here!!" he said loudly from her room

"What!" Kris said surprised; jerking up from his seat; he headed straight to her room

"Her stuff isn't here hyung; none of her stuff … Everything is gone!!" I heard Sehun’s panicked voice again; unconsciously; I stood up and headed to her room but I just stood by the room door observing their moves blankly; Kris opened the closet and found none of her clothes; I looked around the place; everything was gone; the room just felt … cold

"Wait, there's a letter here!" Kris said taking a piece of paper from the desk he unfolded it and start reading it out loud

 

____ POV

Before leaving the room; I sat on my bed and took out a piece of paper; I wanted to at least tell them an sorry and that I love them and I didn’t mean it; I don’t want to leave just like this; it hurts enough; I took a pen and blankly started writing down what I wanted to tell them …

Annyoung Oppa; It's me ____ or Minah ...” I wrote down and sniffed back the tears

 ‘I'm writing this letter to tell you how sorry I am; I'm sorry for interfering in your life; I'm sorry for troubling you; I'm sorry for worrying you and I'm sorry … for lying to you; I really didn't mean it … You guys know that I had to do this right…? You know I had a reason right? You guys said you trust me don't you remember…’ I wrote and a tear managed to escape my eye I wiped it off and continued  

Kris Oppa … you said I was like a little sister that you never had … I'm really sorry for disappointing you; I'm sorry for being a bad sister; I'm so sorry ….’ I wrote and tears just wouldn’t stop coming out furiously now

 

‘Luhan Oppa; Are you disappointed in Angel? I'm sorry I laid to you … I'm really sorry; thank you for always being by my side; thank you so much; your angel will never ever forget her charming Oppa …’ I wrote as a pained smile formed in between my sobs

 

‘Tao; my baby panda that was the worst to wake up in the morning; always tiring me but I still love you … Tao Noona has to leave now; take care of yourself and listen well to hyungs’

 

‘Baekhyun, my lovely big baby; I'm sorry for everything;  you know how much it hurts me to know how much you guys are disappointed on me..? Are you and chanyeol laughing while reading this..? hahaha you guys keep smiling you look good when you smile; it brightens the day of  other people …’

 

‘Sehunie ….’ I wrote down and tears totally blurred my vision I wiped it by my back of my hand and continued

‘You know how much Noona loves you and care about you right…? Keep studying and work hard; Noona have to go now; I'm sorry I can't help you in your homework anymore; I'm really sorry

‘D.O, Kai and Suho Oppa you guys need to be a little more social; we barely had a full conversation together hehe; I love you …’

‘Chen, Xuimin you better stop teasing Sehunie; I’ll not be there anymore to defend him; take care of yourselves; I love you …’

Lay Oppa …’I said and I could feel the tears again rushing furiously to my eyes; completely suffocating me as tears was choking me now as I felt a lump in my throat because of the tears

 ‘I'm sorry for making you uncomfortable and I'm sorry for calling you Oppa; the first time I saw you I felt that I found something precious to me … but you kept pushing me away … you said you like me … and you promised to love me but you kept on hurting me ...? You know how much I cried because of you…?’ I cried out loud as I wrote my goodbye to him; I just felt my heart aching so bad, I felt like I was going to die

‘I'm sorry that I gave up on you … I'm sorry for lying … I know you hate lying the most but … But I was scared I might lose you guys … I guess it's fated for us to be apart … I'm sorry again … for everything …’

 

‘EXO; I'm sorry for leaving suddenly like this but I'm ashamed to face you guys; I know you hate me for lying about everything and I'm really sorry for that; I'm sorry for being an ungrateful Dongsaeng, someday you'll know the reason of me doing this, and this day is going to be really soon … that day will take away my smile forever, because there will be no reason for me to smile again, I lost my parents and now I lost you guys …  take care of yourselves, don't fall sick and live well, don't worry about me, I'll try my best to live well, I know everything already ended between us but …’ I wrote and sobbed harder

 ‘… but as I go on with my life … I hope I’ll run into you at least once … Live a healthy and happy life …  I love you so much and….. Thank you for being the greatest family for me …’

‘Lastly … I’m really grateful that you were born and I was able to meet you; Just be happy and live well …’

With love; Minah

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AttractiveJunmyeon
#1
Chapter 32: I cried a lot with this story, It was amazing though. I love Yixing so much!! I like it! Great ending very cute with full of emotions :3 Great job Authornim! Keep writing Fighting Fighting! :)
jessi828 #2
Chapter 30: aish....i want some more chapters...more happy and romantic moments....anyways good job author nim :)
nerdyviv #3
Chapter 30: wow this is one damn good story!!! authornim i salute to you!! :D good job!!! hehe
SeoMate01
#4
Such an AMAZING story author!!! one of my new favorites! :) its so sweet and you got me crying on some chapters. Keep up the good work!
RiRiCassiEXOtic
#5
Chapter 1: i love this!!! good job author-nim!
nurili #6
i think i read it somewhere but the main is junghyubg from beast..hahaha ur the same author right,,,,
Jiyeon_JN
#7
Chapter 33: Cool! I'll be checking it out! ;)
exosaranghae0 #8
Chapter 31: I loved this story..i cried when i read this...You're such a good writer authornim <3
Murena
#9
Hiiii i just want to say that this is really GREAT i couldn't stop reading till the end !! normally o/c stories annoy me but this one has a very good scenario !! Thank you !!!! Love !!!
wardah27
#10
Amazing story 。◕‿◕。