Learning About The Past: At Dawn With Yunho

A Chance to Change the Past
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A/N: Hi, all! So here's the last part about Erin trying to learn about how things are in 2009.

And this time she's talking with the leader-sshi! :3

Oh, and this chapter's kinda a bit long. Because... because they have a lot to talk about?... Yeah, that's it! They have a lot of necessary things to talk about. (no, what are you guys talking about? the greath length of the chapter has absolutely nothing to do with the fact that Yunho is my bias! :P LOL XD)

So, I hope you guys enjoy this! :D

I couldn’t sleep.

It must have been hours since Junsu and I had finished talking, and yet I still couldn’t sleep. Junsu, on the other hand, I had been hearing snoring softly from his bed for some time now. I couldn’t help but think that it was so ironic that he was the one who had been so upset during our conversation, and yet he still was also the one who could actually get some sleep tonight.

Though, of course, one may argue that Junsu wasn’t the one who was aware of the impeding separation and, so, would have to find a way to prevent it so that he can get back to his own time…

I let out a sigh and slowly sat up. There was no point in just lying down and waiting for the sleep that most likely won’t be coming my way tonight…

I got out of bed, not bothering to turn on the lights so as not to disturb Junsu, and silently slipped out of the bedroom.

The rest of the suite was just as equally dark as our bedroom.

I glanced at the huge windows by the dining area and saw that in the far horizon, the sky was already slowly changing from inky black to a lighter shade. Morning was just a couple of hours away…

I walked to the living room area and was about to just collapse on the sofa when I noticed the silhouette of a person already sitting on it.

I was nearly startled out of my wits, but I was able to keep myself from shouting.

I slowly walked over to the person and, upon closer inspection, realized that it was Yunho, sitting still with his arms folded against his chest, his head resting on the back of the sofa, and his eyes shut tight.

But what was he doing here? Why isn’t he sleeping in their room? Did Jaejoong kick him out?

I frowned deeply. “Yunho oppa?” I whispered quietly, so as not to wake him if he was really asleep.

Yunho’s eyes flew open and his head snapped towards my direction.

“Erin!” he said, startled. “What are you doing here?- Wait, don’t tell me you and Changmin got into another fight?!”

I frowned even more. Clearly, Yunho wasn’t in the right state of mind. “What are you talking about, oppa? How could we even be fighting again? I’m with Junsu oppa in the second room tonight, remember?”

Yunho blinked at me.

“Oh, right,” he said sheepishly, shaking his head to clear it. “Well, I suppose the way that you two have been acting for the past two days already has me paranoid…”

“Funny, oppa,” I said dryly.

“And… I guess I just had other things in my mind that I was so distracted…” he admitted.

Yeah, I kinda noticed that, I thought wryly. Of course, I didn’t voice it out loud anymore. I just said concernedly, “Something bothering you, oppa?”

Yunho smirked a little at me. “Shouldn’t I be the one asking you that question? I mean, you’re the one thrown across time and space, after all... Here, come and sit with me.”

He patted the spot on the sofa beside him.

Well, who in their right mind would ever refuse the chance to sit beside Jung Yunho, right? So, of course, I quickly plopped down next to him!

“How have you been doing? You’re adjusting okay, so far?” he asked me, his concern and sincerity shown clearly in his eyes.

“Yeah, for a person snatched from her own time, I’m doing relatively great, oppa,” I grinned a bit at him.

He looked at me silently for a minute, before saying very seriously, “Don’t worry. We’ll do everything in our power to help you. We’ll get you back home, I promise.”

Screw those doubts and fears that I’ve been having about being able to complete my mission and getting back home! Yunho just vanished them away completely with his words. There was something about the way he said it that was very reassuring that I can’t help but believe that he was right. That I would get back home.

“Thanks, Yunho oppa,” I said quietly, very grateful and trying to suppress all the emotions flowing in me right now from making themselves known in my voice. “And thanks not just for what you’ve just said, but also for everything that you and the others have done for me in the past couple of days.”

I had just realized that I had never really thanked them formally before, so I was grabbing my chance now.

“Don’t mention it, it’s nothing-“ Yunho began, but I cut him off.

“It’s not 'nothing', oppa. Being you guys, I’m pretty sure you have a lot to cope with at the moment. Plus, you’re all going out of your way to help me, a girl whom you guys just met two days ago because, by some twist of fate, it just happened to be your dressing room that I appeared in. Plus, I’ve heard Jaejoong oppa, Yoochun oppa, and Junsu oppa all say more than once that you’ve all been working to death, and yet here you are, spending your week off to help me with my mission, when you should finally be relaxing and all... I can’t even begin to explain how much what you’ve been doing means to me, but I can tell just this much, oppa: it’s not 'nothing',” I told him sincerely and passionately.

I noticed how Yunho frowned a bit when I mentioned JYJ’s sentiments –!- but then he smiled very warmly at me. “Alright, it’s not 'nothing' then,” he chuckled a bit. “But still, don’t mention it, just the same.”

And he put an arm around my shoulders and pulled me to his side, giving me a friendly/brotherly hug.

I went numb.

Yunho has an arm around my shoulders.

Yunho has me pulled to his side.

Yunho is giving me a hug.

EEEP!

The inner fangirl in me just woke up!

Goddamn, what is it with the Yunjae couple?! First, Jaejoong put his finger on my lips! Now, Yunho is giving me a hug! Not that I’m complaining very much, but they can’t just keep doing these things to their fan without expecting said fan’s brain and/or heart to explode and/or go into overdrive! And yes, I may have been acting as more of a friend/younger sister to them rather than as a fan, but yes, I still am a fan, and so they shouldn’t forget that I’m still prone to the susceptibilities and vulnerabilities of your average fan girl!

Asdfghjkl!!!

“Are you alright?” Yunho suddenly asked me, looking worried. “You’re all red all of a sudden…”

Shoot, you know it’s bad when I blush and still have that said blush to be quite noticeable in the dark.

“Uhm,” I stammered incoherently.

Well, how was I supposed to think clearly when his arm was still around me after all?

“What’s wrong?”

“Y-you… uhm…y-your... erm… arm… my shoulder… ahh…” I stuttered out uselessly.

However, Yunho seemed that he was able to make sense of the string of words I’ve said that just showed my brain damage at the moment, and laughed loudly.

“Oh, I see… So, you want me to remove my arm, then?” he teased.

He. Still. ING. Had. The. Nerve. To. Tease. Me?!

I hate you, Jung Yunho! Well, not really, but you get the idea…

“You don’t want my arm on your shoulders, then? I’m sorry, I’m going to remove it now…” he kept on teasing, and made as though he was about to remove his arm.

“No!” I shouted quickly. He laughed some more, making me turn even redder.

Then, Jaejoong’s face suddenly flashed in my mind.

“!” I suddenly said loudly, and hurriedly extracted myself from Yunho’s arm, moving away from him. “On second thought, get it off me!”

Yunho stared at me, bewildered by the sudden panic and genuine fear in my voice. “What?”

“I am so not risking having Jaejoong oppa suddenly wake up and find me with your arm wrapped around my shoulder!” I told him, glancing warily at the first bedroom door. “I so don’t wanna die yet, you know! Especially when I’m not even in my own time. Just think of how much of an inconvenience that will be…”

Yunho was laughing so much at me tonight that if it wasn’t clear that he just was it doing all in good humor, I’d be thoroughly offended.

As it is, I’m just glad I’m able to make him laugh.

I might have been here for just a short time, but I’ve noticed how stressed Yunho seemed to be. And it wasn’t just because of my arrival. He already has enough on his plate with their issues with the company and with JYJ seemingly being increasingly resentful about it…

“You seem to be in a very good mood tonight, oppa,” I observed.

Yunho shook his head, smiling a bit. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to laugh at you so much. It’s just that… you kind of remind of my younger sister, Ji-Hye.”

Ah, yes, I nodded thoughtfully. I know about her.

“And she also gets like that when I ,” he continued. “She really doesn’t like it when I …”

“Gee, I wonder why,” I said sarcastically, though I couldn’t help but grin at him anyway.

As we lapsed into silence, I suddenly realized that I was alone with Yunho now and it was a good opportunity to talk to him about their present situation, just like I had with Jaejoong and Junsu earlier!

“Hey, Yunho oppa?” I asked suddenly.

“Hmm?” he said, glancing at me.

“Can I ask you something?”

“Sure, anything…”

You might want to be careful with that, oppa, I thought wryly. I knew for a fact that what I was about to ask him wasn’t going to be pleasant for him. Well, for both of us, actually, but more so for him…

And with that thought- I suddenly chickened out.

I realized that talking to Jaejoong and Junsu about this would be so different from talking about it with Yunho- the leader-ssi of DBSK. The leader who already seems to me as though he doesn’t really feel so much… resentment… towards their company as JYJ seems to be feeling.

Yep, this would conversation would be so much more tricky, no doubt.

“Erin? You were going to ask me something?” Yunho prompted when I remained silent, looking at me curiously.

(Disclaimer: As usual, nothing in this conversation with Yunho can be counted as absolute truth. Again, no fan knows the whole truth behind the issues, and we’ll just go with the following “facts” just for the purposes of this story, alright?)

“Erm… IwaswonderinghowlongyouandJaejoongoppahavebeentogether?” I said very quickly, just making it up in a rush.

Coward, coward, coward, I chided myself.

Damn, now that I think about it, I hope Yunho doesn’t think it’s a too personal question for me to ask…

Yunho raised his eyebrows at me. Shoot, he does!, I winced internally.

Or maybe it was because he knew that that wasn’t really what I was about ask him. Well, gosh. Now I wish he really just thinks it’s just a too personal question instead…

“Jaejoong and I have been together since the first couple of years after we debuted.”

“Ohh…” was my brilliant response. I’m just glad that he chose to answer my question.

“We tried to keep it to ourselves for a while,” he continued. “But our dongsaengs eventually found out soon enough. We… uhm… we weren’t so… discrete… about it before,” he added sheepishly, shrugging.

I winced at the implications of what Yoochun, Junsu, and Changmin may have seen then when they found out about Yunjae firsthand…

I couldn’t help but smirk, though, as I said, “You mean you’re discrete now?”

And I knew we were both thinking of that little display that he and Jaejoo

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chap23 will be a bit delayed! I'm sorry! D: I'm buried in school work right now. I'll try to update during the week, if not, definitely on the 30th then T.T

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Bayan13 #1
Chapter 1: Every time I miss them and yearn to be within this casual intimate space with them, I come back to this story. Every time I ask myself unanswerable questions or think of what-ifs and how different the future could've been, I come back to this story.

I wasn't sure about reading this story at first, as I believe that everything happens for a reason. I believe that everything the boys have experienced - good or bad - has helped them grow and mature into who and what they are today, as different as they might be in the story. They each paved their path with their efforts and hard work. They all grew a lot, learned a lot, and made many amazing achievements and precious memories. The things they did, the music they made, and the experiences they gained in those ten years apart are all equally precious, and I honestly wouldn't trade them for an alternate reality.

That's why I treasure their present as much as their past. Their past will always be precious - to them and us - no matter how much time passes or things change. If they ever have a future together, that day will be the happiest in Cassiopeia's history. Until that day comes, I will treasure every day they spend growing and doing their best in what they love. I'm grateful enough that they exist in this world in my lifetime.

Yet there are days when I wish this story was real and yearn for any interactions between the five with all my being. On such days, every DB5K song, video, and picture just makes me cry and scream WHY.

It's even worse when I read this story set in 2014 and realize that barely anything has changed five years later. Instead, we now yearn to see JYJ interactions just like we always did with DB5K. It's so painful and frustrating. It's naive to think it'll ever get less hard and sad to remember after many years. That's because no matter how much time passes, they'll never be less precious in our hearts.

Being part of Cassiopeia is not easy. Our boys are separated and experience many hardships, and our fandom is equally split, messy, and toxic as a result. There's a lot we need to endure, wait for, and persevere through as fans. But the boys honestly make anything and everything worth it. They're the reason we're all still here going strong 15 years later. We still empty merchandise and album shelves and increase votes and views. We still sell out tickets and fill venues. We're still a shining pearl red ocean. We're still keeping the faith and finding happiness and inspiration in our boys. We honestly couldn't be more blessed.
Angelz0715 #2
Chapter 54: This story is so good! I really wish that it was true that they are still together. But even now I’m still always keeping the faith to see them reunite again someday~
jcnafaiz
#3
Chapter 53: Where are you now??
YooAnne6002
#4
Chapter 54: Just done reading Thank you author nim for this fic I really love it if only this is TVXQ5 reality, if only all five of them stands on the same side about the lawsuit, but atleast with this fic cassiopeia's 5 stars are still together, it makes me happy
Erin and ChangMin bickering is what makes this fic more enjoyable ro read, I love how they end up with each other and be a happily married couple and have 2 lovable kids
I also love the last part it seems like YooChun is falling inlove with JunSu, I want YooSu and YunJae wedding update please, again thank you and
God bless you author nim
changmindi988
#5
Chapter 54: Shim Erin! and I love you author-nim!
changmindi988
#6
Chapter 50: doneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee oi u made me kiss him mentally!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thankuuuuuuuuuu uhggggggggggggg
changmindi988
#7
Chapter 25: Thats exactly what they shouldve done!
changmindi988
#8
Chapter 15: There she spilled it out and i'm crying a river here
changmindi988
#9
Chapter 13: Nice one to distract Junsu <3
changmindi988
#10
Chapter 11: eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk