Homesick

A Chance to Change the Past
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A/N: hi again.

This one will just be short, since it was originally the last part of the previous chapter.

That night, I wasn’t able to sleep at all.

I could hear Junsu snoring and mumbling incoherently in his sleep on the mattress on the floor beside my bed. But as for me, no matter how much I tossed and turned in my bed, sleep just wouldn’t come to me at all.

Giving up, I threw off my comforter and decided to go down the kitchen for something to drink. I climbed out of bed, walked around Junsu’s sleeping form, and left the room. When I got down the stairs, though, I paused, seeing light coming out from the kitchen. As I got nearer, I heard someone muttering in frustration in there.

It was Yoochun, sitting on the table and eating a sandwich.

“Heya, oppa,” I greeted him quietly.

Yoochun still nearly jumped out of his skin, though.

“Jesus, Erin! You scared me!” he huffed.

“I noticed,” I replied, smirking a bit, as I walked over to the fridge and grabbed a bottle of water. “Hungry, are you?” I asked, gesturing at Yoochun’s huge sandwich as I sat down opposite him.

Yoochun nodded. “Starving, as I hardly got to eat anything at dinner,” he said quietly. Then, he frowned at his sandwich, as though it had just insulted him. “It’s nowhere near as good as the sandwiches that Jaejoong hyung makes, though.”

“Why don’t you wake him up and get him to make you one, then?” I suggested, grinning widely.

“And end up getting murdered for waking him up in the dead of the night? No, thanks. I’ll stick to my own pathetic sandwich,” he snorted, about to take another bite out of his sandwich. He paused, though, and offered it to me. “Want a bite?”

“Better not tell Changmin that you’re offering food to me instead of to him,” I snickered, before taking a bite.

“I think what I better not tell him is that I’m alone with you in the dead of the night, sharing one sandwich together,” Yoochun muttered under his breath.

I looked at him questioningly, before just shaking my head, leaving it be. I’m learning better now than to question whatever they’re suddenly muttering in Korean.

“It’s not pathetic,” I said instead, chewing the chicken, ham, and cheese. “It’s quite good, actually.”

“It’s nothing compared to the ones hyung makes, but thanks, anyway. Want me to make you one?”

I nodded eagerly, suddenly feeling hungry all of a sudden.

“Thanks, oppa,” I said a few minutes later when he handed me my own sandwich. “I just realized now that I’m starving as well!”

“Yeah, well, none of us was really able to eat dinner, right?” Yoochun said, his face growing somber at the reminder of what happened at dinner.

I nodded slowly. “Yeah… I’m just- I’m just really surprised Mr. Han was able to get it settled so fast. I wanted it over with, but I didn’t think it could happen this fast,” I repeated my sentiments at dinner.

“Yes, well, when Mr. Han wants something done, it gets done,” Yoochun nodded. “And fast.”

“So, I see, oppa.”

We just ate in silence for a while.

“You know,” I said suddenly, swallowing a mouthful of bread. “I suppose it really is better that we get this over with, right? Better sooner than later, and all that?”

Yoochun nodded slowly. “Yes, but I’m still worried about what the final decisions would be.”

“Come off it, oppa. There’s no way that you guys wouldn’t be proven right. We’ve got hard evidences against SM.”

“SM plays dirty. They’re not above to paying huge sums of money to get their way.”

“Mr. Han would never let anyone involved in judging the case to be bribed into following SM’s wishes,” I pointed out.

“I suppose that’s true…”

“Just think of the brighter side, Yoochun oppa. No matter what, when this whole lawsuit is done, you guys will be able to breathe easier… And I’ll be able to go back home,” I added quietly, a wistful look on my face.

Yoochun suddenly put down his sandwich and stared at me.

“What?” I asked, unnerved by the look he was giving me.

“Nothing. I just- I just-“ Yoochun shook his head. “I just forgot that you’re going to go back home. No matter how much you speak about what happens in ‘your time’, I still forget that you don’t really belong in our time.”

“Well, I haven’t forgotten,” I said, my words coming out more sharply than I had intended. I realized how bitter it might have sounded, so I added qui

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chap23 will be a bit delayed! I'm sorry! D: I'm buried in school work right now. I'll try to update during the week, if not, definitely on the 30th then T.T

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Bayan13 #1
Chapter 1: Every time I miss them and yearn to be within this casual intimate space with them, I come back to this story. Every time I ask myself unanswerable questions or think of what-ifs and how different the future could've been, I come back to this story.

I wasn't sure about reading this story at first, as I believe that everything happens for a reason. I believe that everything the boys have experienced - good or bad - has helped them grow and mature into who and what they are today, as different as they might be in the story. They each paved their path with their efforts and hard work. They all grew a lot, learned a lot, and made many amazing achievements and precious memories. The things they did, the music they made, and the experiences they gained in those ten years apart are all equally precious, and I honestly wouldn't trade them for an alternate reality.

That's why I treasure their present as much as their past. Their past will always be precious - to them and us - no matter how much time passes or things change. If they ever have a future together, that day will be the happiest in Cassiopeia's history. Until that day comes, I will treasure every day they spend growing and doing their best in what they love. I'm grateful enough that they exist in this world in my lifetime.

Yet there are days when I wish this story was real and yearn for any interactions between the five with all my being. On such days, every DB5K song, video, and picture just makes me cry and scream WHY.

It's even worse when I read this story set in 2014 and realize that barely anything has changed five years later. Instead, we now yearn to see JYJ interactions just like we always did with DB5K. It's so painful and frustrating. It's naive to think it'll ever get less hard and sad to remember after many years. That's because no matter how much time passes, they'll never be less precious in our hearts.

Being part of Cassiopeia is not easy. Our boys are separated and experience many hardships, and our fandom is equally split, messy, and toxic as a result. There's a lot we need to endure, wait for, and persevere through as fans. But the boys honestly make anything and everything worth it. They're the reason we're all still here going strong 15 years later. We still empty merchandise and album shelves and increase votes and views. We still sell out tickets and fill venues. We're still a shining pearl red ocean. We're still keeping the faith and finding happiness and inspiration in our boys. We honestly couldn't be more blessed.
Angelz0715 #2
Chapter 54: This story is so good! I really wish that it was true that they are still together. But even now I’m still always keeping the faith to see them reunite again someday~
jcnafaiz
#3
Chapter 53: Where are you now??
YooAnne6002
#4
Chapter 54: Just done reading Thank you author nim for this fic I really love it if only this is TVXQ5 reality, if only all five of them stands on the same side about the lawsuit, but atleast with this fic cassiopeia's 5 stars are still together, it makes me happy
Erin and ChangMin bickering is what makes this fic more enjoyable ro read, I love how they end up with each other and be a happily married couple and have 2 lovable kids
I also love the last part it seems like YooChun is falling inlove with JunSu, I want YooSu and YunJae wedding update please, again thank you and
God bless you author nim
changmindi988
#5
Chapter 54: Shim Erin! and I love you author-nim!
changmindi988
#6
Chapter 50: doneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee oi u made me kiss him mentally!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thankuuuuuuuuuu uhggggggggggggg
changmindi988
#7
Chapter 25: Thats exactly what they shouldve done!
changmindi988
#8
Chapter 15: There she spilled it out and i'm crying a river here
changmindi988
#9
Chapter 13: Nice one to distract Junsu <3
changmindi988
#10
Chapter 11: eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk