Chapter 9 - Of Love and Heartaches


“Taeyeon-ah! Come help me carry these boxes!” Jessica said grinning widely at Taeyeon. She grabbed Taeyeon’s hand and pulled her over to where the boxes of canned goods were sitting. Yesterday, the four of them had decided to join Key Club, the largest club in school, in hopes of winning the affections of the members so they’ll vote for Yoona for prom queen.


When the three of them had first informed Yoona about them nominating her for prom queen she was hysterical. She adamantly refused to participate in such a preposterous event, reasoning that she’ll never win for obvious reasons. But eventually, after hours of pleading and begging and bribing, she finally gave in. Hence, the reason why they ended up joining so many clubs to earn more voters to their side.


There wasn’t much competition for prom queen; it was just Yoona, Suzy and UEE.


Suzy didn’t want to run but people nominated her anyway. She is a very appealing person, very kind and respectful, and very friendly and outgoing. She’s very active in school activities and all of the teachers adore her. Wherever she walked by, people would turn and say hi to her. It’s like she’s acquainted with the entire school. That’s probably the reason why people nominated her in the first place.


And there’s UEE, the resident b*tch of Dookong High (No offense intended to any UEE fans out there). She’s the exact opposite of Suzy. Her mean and horrendous antics made her a very not-so-appealing person. She bullies people, including Yoona, and she manipulates others to do her dirty works for her. Everyone in school is afraid of her, heck even Taeyeon is afraid of her. No one would dare cross the Queen B(*tch). She has the popular kids, the superficial kids, on her side, which only constitute to about one eighth of the school. The only reason why she might actually win is because she can intimidate others to vote for her.


So far Yoona has secured votes from the outcasts, all thanks to Eunjung, CL and Hyuna. They’ve also secured the science club, all thanks to Seohyun. And now that they’ve joined Key club and the Cultural Society, they’ve earned a bit more votes. So in total they’ve got one twelfth of the votes, which is not good at all. Yoona’s practically in last place, while Suzy took first and UEE took second. They only have three days left until prom night. At this rate they’re going, Yoona has a very slim chance of winning prom queen.


“So there’s a bunch of different foods in here. There’s….”


Taeyeon had stopped listening to whatever Jessica was blabbing about. Right now her mind was preoccupied with the soft, petite hands entwined with hers. Ever since Jessica had pulled her over to help carry boxes the brunette has yet to let go of her hand. She wasn’t sure if the latter had noticed it at all, but Taeyeon definitely has. She can’t stop staring at their hands. Their hands latched together felt nice. To be honest she didn’t want to let go. Jessica’s hand was very soft and warm. She’s really tempted to caress the back of her hand with her thumb, but she didn’t dare do that, afraid that she’ll startle the other girl.


Taeyeon was too lost in her own thoughts to even notice that Jessica had stopped talking and was now staring at her. She was only brought back to reality when the warmth emitting from Jessica’s hand vanished. The younger girl had reclaimed her hand. Taeyeon unconsciously frowned at this.


“Taeyeon, are you okay?” Jessica looked at her worriedly. Her blonde friend has been spacing out for quite some time now and she didn’t know what to do.


Taeyeon snapped out of her daze and noticed her hand still hanging in midair. “Umm, yeah. I’m fine.” She nonchalantly scratched the back of her neck. “So um, what do we need to carry?”


“Oh, those boxes over there.”


Taeyeon nodded.


The two unintentionally reached out for the same box at the same time making the back of their hands brush against each other. They felt electricity course through their hands from the simple touch. It was so clichéd and none of them were aware that it actually happens in real life. Taeyeon quickly withdrew her hand and hid her blush. Jessica did the same and smiled shyly.


“Err, why don’t you carry that, and I’ll carry these instead.” Taeyeon suggested as she went ahead and grabbed a separate box.


“Okay.”


Jessica grabbed the other box and walked away.


As Taeyeon secured her grip on the box, she looked up catching Jessica’s gaze. Jessica flashed her a sweet smile causing her blush to creep back up to her cheeks. Jessica turned back around and proceeded walking down the hallway as if she didn’t notice Taeyeon’s flushed face. Unknown to Jessica, Taeyeon kept her eyes trained on Jessica’s swaying hips. Her eyes dipped a little lower and stop at her assets. She gulped.


Her …it’s so nice…and firm.


She was so tempted to run up to her right now and touch her beautiful assets. But she knew she has to restrain her desires. No Kim Taeyeon! Don’t let your byun-ness take over you! Fight it! Fight it!


All of her erted thoughts made her feel really hot. All of the blood from her body had now rushed up to her head. It felt like her head was going to explode from all the heat and the blood. For a moment she lost her senses as she accidentally lost her grip on the box and in turn dropped the five pound box of the canned tuna she was carrying right on the tip of her left foot.


*Bam!*


Tears slowly formed in her eyes as the pain gradually spread through her entire foot.


OH MY ING—


Yoona, who witnessed the whole thing, passed by and smirked. “Smooth moves casanova.”


Taeyeon shoved her fist inside to prevent herself from screaming out loud and crying like a baby.


Seohyun, who also noticed what had happened, approached her cautiously. “Taeyeon unnie, a-are you alright?” She already knew the answer, but being the polite girl she was she asked anyway.


Taeyeon could only nod slowly as the pulsating pain finally took over her. She let out a deafening cry of pain. 


“AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!”


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Jessica placed the last box of canned goods in to the storage room. She placed her hands on her hips and smiled proudly at her accomplishment. This was the first time in who knows how long since she had done volunteering work. Ever since she became a doctor she barely had time to do anything else.


Oh yeah, Donghae used to do a lot of volunteering too…


She frowned at the thought. She thought she has gotten over him already now that her heart has finally found someone new it'll beat for.


“Hey, are you all done?”


Speak of the devil.


She smiled unconsciously upon recognition of the voice. She turned around and put on her poker face. “Yup. All set here.”


“Alright then, come on out so I can close up.”


After locking the storage room the two met up with Seohyun and Yoona by the front gate.


“What took you guys so long?” Yoona asked as they all started walking towards the ice cream parlor.


“We still had to lock up the storage and return the key.” Taeyeon answered.


“That’s it? I thought for sure you two were—Ughhn!”


Before she could finish her sentence Seohyun had karate chopped her behind the neck. Yoona snapped her gaze at Seohyun and glared at her.


“YAH! What’s the big idea!?” Yoona mouthed.


“Well stop being so blunt!”


“What do you mean being ‘so blunt?’ I was just trying to confirm my suspicions!”


“Can’t you be a little more sensitive? What if they don’t want anyone to know about the two them and their secret relationship? That’s just rude!”


“You’re just overacting!”


“Am not!”


“Are too!”


“Am not!”


“Are too!”


Their little argument was interrupted by an ahjumma voice. “Umm, guys? What are you two doing?”


Seohyun and Yoona both stopped bickering and turned to Taeyeon and Jessica who were staring at them with a puzzled expression. They hadn’t noticed that they’ve stopped walking altogether and have started an eye war.


“Uh, that was nothing unnie. We were just pondering about something. Anyway, let’s carry on.” Seohyun smiled innocently.


Taeyeon just shrugged and began walking ahead with Jessica right beside her. Yoona and Seohyun watched attentively at their interaction.


The two seem like they are having such a fun conversation as the two of them were smiling and laughing from time to time. Yoona have also noted that Jessica seemed to be initiating all of the skin contact; from the hand grazing, to the poking, and right down to the arm and hand holding. Geez, can she be any more obvious? Yoona rolled her eyes. 


Seohyun on the other hand was silently spazzing by herself. This was the first time she’s witnessing such cute and intimate interaction between the couple. There aren’t many couples in their school and those who are a couple are very discreet with their PDA, which in her opinion ruins all of the fun. She believes that if two people really like each other they wouldn’t be embarrassed about publicly expressing their love for one another. They should be proudly screaming it out loud to the whole world!


That’s why when she discovered her unnies’ feelings for each other, she couldn’t help but gush. And the fact that they’re not a couple yet makes everything so much more entertaining! She loves watching the two of them act shy and protective around each other! It’s like she’s watching a live drama!


“Hey, stop fangirling over there Seohyun-ah. People are starting to look.”


Seohyun stopped and looked around her surrounding and frowned when she realized that her friend was just joking. “No one is looking, Yoong.”


Yoona doubled over and started laughing. “Haha, sorry I couldn’t help it. You were squealing by yourself and you just looked so adorable. You looked so cute that I just wanted to pinch your cheeks!” Yoona grinned widely.


Seohyun blushed at the compliment. Omo, she thinks I’m adorable and cute. *Gasp!* What does this mean? Does she like me?Seohyun began daydreaming about her and Yoona being a couple. It made her squeal like a twelve year old. She cupped her flushed cheeks with both hands and began twisting her body side to side like a shy little kid who just heard her crush confess to her.


Yoona stared incredulously at her friend’s unusual antics. What has gotten in to her?


“Seohyun-ah, are you still daydreaming about the Taengsic couple?” Yoona moved her face close to Seohyun’s and began snapping her fingers in front of the dazed girl’s face.


Seohyun blinked a couple of times when she noticed the snapping fingers in front of her. She turned to her side to face Yoona, which was a very huge mistake on her part. When she turned, her nose accidentally grazed Yoona’s nose and her lips accidentally grazed Yoona’s lips. Her eyes widened completely.


Oh my gosh. I just kissed my best friend, Im Yoona!


Unable to suppress her shock she instinctively froze in place like a statue.


Yoona, startled by what just happened, jumped back and covered with her hand. Her face turned into a tomato.


D*mn I just kissed Seohyun!


She took a peek at Seohyun’s condition and noticed the girl’s frozen state. She looked up ahead and saw Taeyeon and Jessica two blocks ahead of them.


“Aish, we’re so far behind.” Not daring to look at her friend, she cleared instead to get the latter’s attention. “Ehem. Seohyun-ah, we should get going. We’re getting left behind.” She said nervously. When she heard no response, she took a quick glance at the girl next to her and realized that she was as stiff as a rock. And she knew when the girl becomes frozen in place it’ll be a hard to get her to melt back to normal. Yoona rolled her eyes. D*mn it Seohyun!


Yoona grabbed the other girl’s hand and began dragging her behind her. Although she had to pull with a lot more force and strength at least she was able to move the frozen girl. Aigoo, this is going to be a very long afternoon.


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Taeyeon and Jessica arrived at the ice cream parlor first.


“Where the heck are those two?” Jessica raised a brow.


“Oh, they’re right there.” Taeyeon pointed at a girl dragging another girl behind her a couple of blocks away. “Come on, let’s just go grab a table and wait for them inside.” Jessica nodded in agreement.


Taeyeon raced towards the door and opened it for the brunette. For some reason she felt like she had to open it for her. It felt like a sin not to.


Jessica, feeling absolutely elated, smiled at Taeyeon’s gentlewoman-ess. “Thank you Taeyeon.” She said shyly.


Taeyeon’s inside turned in to a mush from Jessica’s sweet smile. “Y-you’re welcome.”


Once inside, they grabbed a table by the window. Jessica sat on one side. Taeyeon was about to sit opposite of Jessica when the brunette grabbed her wrist and tug on it. Taeyeon looked at her curiously.


“Sit next to me.” Jessica said pointing to the empty spot next to her. Taeyeon delightfully took her seat next to the beautiful brunette. Jessica placed her elbow on the table and rested at her chin on her palm. She turned to Taeyeon and gazed at her. “So Taeyeon, how long did you say you were going to be staying here on Earth?”


“I’m only here for two months. That’s all the time they’ve given me to complete my tasks. So far I’ve been here for almost two weeks and I’ve completed none.” Taeyeon said glumly.


Jessica frowned. “That’s not true. We’re almost done with Yoona’s case.”


She smiled weakly. “I really hope we could successfully fix Yoona’s problem. At least that’ll be one task down.”


“Don’t worry, we’re almost there.” Jessica smiled reassuringly. A comfortable silence enveloped them. Jessica contemplated whether or not she should ask Taeyeon the question that had been bugging her for a while. She wanted to confirm something regarding her ‘second chance.’ She bit her bottom lip and looked up at Taeyeon. “Hey,”


“Hmm?” Taeyeon turned to face her.


“So um, about your ‘second chance,’ after you successfully finish your tasks, you said you’ll become human again right?”


Taeyeon nodded her head. “Yup. That’s the plan.”


“Does that mean you’ll be born as a baby or as the ‘you’ now?”


“Hmm…actually I’m not entirely sure. Neither the goddess nor the angels gave me a detailed explanation of what exactly will happen to me once I’m reincarnated. All they said was I will become human again. I really hope I won’t be reborn as a baby. I just want to go on with my life as I am right now.”


I hope so too. Jessica thought to herself. She wanted to move on with her life with Taeyeon by her side. But then there is a possibility Taeyeon might get reincarnated as a different person in a different place. She frowned at the thought.


“Hey Taeyeon,”


“Hmm?”


“When you get reincarnated, do you think…do you think we’ll meet again?”


Taeyeon looked down at her hands and she began fiddling with them. “Erm, hopefully. I mean I really like being by your side—I mean being your f-friend.” She admitted shyly. “It would be a shame if we didn’t. But if we don’t meet right away, I’ll definitely find you. I’ll make sure we meet again no matter what.” Taeyeon smiled unconsciously by herself.


Jessica caught this and she couldn’t help but break out in to a genuine smile as well. Feeling bold, she slipped her hand on Taeyeon’s palm and entwined them together. She then leaned her head on Taeyeon’s shoulder and snuggled close to the older girl.


She couldn’t contain her happiness at Taeyeon’s sweet response. She too hoped they could meet again after all of this is done. Even if Taeyeon doesn’t go look for her, she will look for the latter herself. Even if she has to search the whole world for the beautiful blonde then she’ll definitely do it. She’d do anything just to be in her arms again like this. She can’t bear not to be with Taeyeon now that she has accepted her feelings for the latter. I’ll do everything to find you Taeyeon. I promise.


Jessica’s sudden intimate behavior caught Taeyeon off guard, but she didn’t withdraw. She didn’t want to. Being close to Jessica like this felt nice. It felt right. She just wants to stay like this forever with her, but she knew she can’t. The feeling she has developed for the brunette is wrong. She can’t have these feelings for her. Not now at least. If she keeps up with this feeling and if she keeps giving Jessica hope, she knew they’ll never have a chance to be with each other. She has to suppress her feelings, for now at least. As much as it’ll hurt to stay away from Jessica, she will have to do it. I’ll do it for the sake of our future.


It’s alright. I’ll take on the pain. But for now, I just want to enjoy this moment with you, because I know it’ll be the last time.


Taeyeon squeezed Jessica’s hand causing the latter to snuggle even closer to the crook of her neck. They stayed like that for while, just enjoying the comforting warm body of their lover. Neither of them spoke, but they didn’t mind. Just them being close like this was enough to satisfy their beating hearts.


Finally, after what seemed like forever Yoona and Seohyun finally made it to the ice cream parlor. By this time, the two had already separated from their secured embrace.


“Hey guys, sorry for the wait. Seohyun here ran in to a little bit of a problem.” Yoona smirked.


Seohyun’s face turned red once again from the reminder of the earlier incident. “Umm, I’m going to go get ice cream.” She quickly stood up from her seat and practically ran to the counter.


Jessica also rose up from her seat. She looked down at the girl beside her. “Taeyeon-ah,” she placed her hand on Taeyeon’s arm tenderly causing the latter to look up. “What ice cream would you like me to order for you?”


Taeyeon placed her palm on top of Jessica's and smiled at her adoringly. “Strawberry would be nice.”


Jessica nodded and smiled. She reluctantly pulled her hand away from Taeyeon’s warm grasp and quickly trudged along towards the counter.


All this time Yoona had witnessed the entire intimate scene between the Taengsic couple. Taeyeon, still oblivious to Yoona’s inquisitive gaze, stared out the window of the shop pondering about her current predicament.


“So, are you guys like an item now?” Yoona asked nonchalantly as she played with her phone.


Taeyeon tore her eyes away from the street outside and looked at her friend with wide eyes. “W-what are you talking about?”


Yoona rolled her eyes. “You and ice princess over there; are you two together or what?”


Taeyeon blushed. “W-we’re not.”


Yoona scoffed. “Yeah right.”


“Really we’re not! We’re just friends!”


Pssh! As if I’ll believe that! She's not stupid. She's seen the way the two look at each other with lovey dovey eyes. It's quite sickening to be completely honest.


“Ok. When will you get together then? It’s so obvious that you two like each other, everyone can see there’s something going on between you two. Even Taemin noticed. Why are you guys so hesitant to be together? You two like each other so what’s the problem?”


“It’s complicated.” Was Taeyeon’s only response. She was fully aware of the brunette’s feelings for her which made her feel even more guilty for what she planned to do to her. She balled her hand in to a tight fist under the table, trying her best to contain her emotion. She doesn’t want to unnecessarily lash out on Yoona. Calm down Kim Taeyeon, she’s innocent and she doesn’t know anything about your predicament. Don’t lash out on her.


Yoona scoffed again. “Oh come on. What could be so complicated that it’s hindering you from expressing your feelings? What? Are you embarrassed or something about coming out? If you are I could help—”


Unable to contain her anger any longer, Taeyeon slammed her fist on the table startling Yoona and the other customers in the parlor. Jessica and Seohyun had also looked on at the commotion. Realizing what she had just done, Taeyeon sank down on her sear embarrassedly. She glanced up and met Jessica’s worried gaze. She quickly gave her a reassuring smile and the latter smiled back weakly. She then shifted her gaze towards the doe eyed girl in front of her.


“I’m not ashamed ok? When it comes to her I’ll never be ashamed. If everything were simple, I would have gone up to that beautiful girl right there already and kiss her with all my love. But the sad truth is, my situation isn’t something simple. My actions and my decisions can hurt her deeply and I don’t want that. The last thing I want to do is to hurt her. I’d rather carry on the burden myself than hurt the girl I love.”


Yoona stared sympathetically at her friend. She doesn’t know exactly Taeyeon’s exact situation, but it seemed pretty serious. But still, she can’t help but pry even more. “But you are aware that the girl loves you right? And by avoiding her you’ll hurt her regardless.”


Taeyeon clenched her hand tight underneath the table. “I know that.” Yup, she was fully aware of the brunette’s love for her. It pains her to know about Jessica’s feelings and not be able to accept it wholeheartedly. “I know. But I’d rather lessen her pain by not giving her any hope whatsoever, than give her hopes and hurt her even more. It’s better that way.”


Yoona sighed wearily. She knew she can’t win this argument. The girl was as stubborn as a rock. There’s no way she could persuade her to change her mind. All she could do now is to provide advice that’ll make the latter think more rationally about her decisions. She looked up and gazed at Taeyeon’s eyes warmly. “Do you really think it’s the best way to handle the situation? Maybe you should just enjoy the moment now than regret it later on. You’ll never know. The outcome might be different than what you expect it to be. Remember, fate works in mysterious ways. Nothing is set by stone. You control your fate Taeyeon-ah. Don’t let your guilty conscious dictate your life.”


Taeyeon didn’t respond. Instead she looked down at her palms and allowed Yoona’s words to sink in. Is this the best solution? Should I really just avoid her? What if Yoona’s right? Could I really shape my own fate? 


Hearing footsteps nearby, Taeyeon quickly looked up. Jessica and Seohyun were approaching the table with ice cream in both their hands.


Taeyeon looked at Yoona with pleading eyes. “Please. Can’t you just drop it? I really don’t want her to worry.”


Yoona let out a defeated sigh. “Fine. But hear me out ok? I know we’re not very close friends, but at least think about what I just said.”


Taeyeon smiled gratefully. “I will. And thank you.”


Yoona just shrugged cooly.


Just then the two girls finally came back with their ice creams. Seohyun sat down next to Yoona, putting a decent space between them. Yoona just rolled her eyes at this. Jessica sat down next to Taeyeon and handed Taeyeon her strawberry ice cream cone.


“Here you go, Taeyeon-ah.” Jessica smiled tenderly.


“Thanks, Sooyeon.” She smiled weakly.


For the rest of the afternoon, the quartet ate their ice cream as they discussed their future plan on how to gather more votes for Yoona.


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After their little gathering, Taeyeon and Jessica walked home in silence.


Jessica glanced at Taeyeon’s direction worriedly. Ever since she got back from ordering their ice cream earlier in the ice cream parlor Taeyeon has been really quiet. When she initiated conversation, the latter would either answer with one or two word response or nothing at all. And when she’d initiate skin contact, the latter would pull away from her touch. It’s like she completely changed.


She felt hurt at Taeyeon’s sudden withdrawn behavior. Not only that, the girl has also been spacing out quite often today, even during their little meeting. Jessica looked at Taeyeon’s face and took in all of the details on her face; her furrowed brows, her crinkled nose and her frown. She looked somber too.


Jessica was really concerned. Taeyeon has never acted like this before. She used to be very loud and enthusiastic around her all the time even when she’s ignoring her. What happened to you, Taeyeon-ah?


She couldn’t shake the feeling that it had something to do with her outburst earlier in the ice cream parlor. To be frank, she was quite startled to see Taeyeon explode like that. She’s never seen the girl that angry other than that time with Taemin’s provocation. Did something happen between her and Yoona?


For now she didn’t dare confront her. She just watched the girl and kept her distance. Taeyeon didn’t seem to notice as she continued pondering by herself.


Upon arrival in the condo, Taeyeon immediately tried to avoid Jessica and decided to head to her room right away. But before she could run away a soft hand clasped her wrist. Taeyeon let out a silent sigh. She really didn’t want to confront her right now. Taeyeon reluctantly faced the perpetrator.


Jessica looked at her anxiously. “Taeyeon-ah, are you ok?”


Taeyeon did her best to muster up a fake smile. “I’m fine.” She said trying to sound as cheerful as she can but it came out too forceful than she'd intended.


Jessica took full note of this. “Are you sure? You don’t seem like yourself. Did something happen?”


Taeyeon shook her head. “No. Nothing happened. I’m just tired, is all.”


Jessica wasn’t convinced. It hurt her to know that Taeyeon’s keeping something from her. It hurt her even more to see the one she loves sufferring by herself. “T-then did I do something wrong?” She asked despondently. Her eyes casted down to the floor.


Taeyeon blinked. She was taken aback by the sudden question. “What are you talking about? Of course you didn’t do anything wrong.” You could never do wrong Sooyeon-ah.


Jessica blinked back the tears and met Taeyeon’s gaze. “Then…then why are you avoiding m-me?” Jessica asked, her voice almost cracking. She gazed in to Taeyeon’s eyes intently hoping to elicit some sort of honest response from the older girl. She needs it. She doesn’t want to be kept in the dark.


Taeyeon looked away and avoided Jessica’s pleading eyes. She knew that if she looked, then she might end up telling her the truth. She can’t tell her the truth. It’ll only hurt her even more.


Taeyeon composed herself before looking back at Jessica, carefully avoiding her eyes. “I’m not avoiding you. I’m just tired ok? Just leave it at that.”


Jessica flinched at the harshness of her tone. Taeyeon blinked when she realized how awful she sounded. “Ehem, now please go to bed.” She said a bit more softer. “It has been a long day. Let’s get some proper rest. Goodnight Jessica.” Taeyeon pulled her arm from Jessica’s grasp and quickly her heels and walked away to the confines of her room.


Jessica stood there shocked and in utter disappointment. She called me J-Jessica. She couldn’t believe it. Taeyeon not only lied to her, but she now knows that she’s doing it on purpose. Taeyeon’s trying to distance herself from her deliberately and she doesn’t know why. Hearing Taeyeon call her Jessica in such a cold monotonous tone felt like someone just stabbed her in her heart. She’s completely devastated.


She clutched her chest with one hand trying to ease her aching heart. All of the hurt from the past was slowly coming back to haunt her. It’s suffocating her.


Feeling no need to hold it in any longer, she allowed the tears to finally flow freely. Her tears fell seamlessly from her delicate eyes. Unable to hold herself together anymore, she dropped on her knees and covered with her hand to muffle the loud sob she’s emitting from her cries. She slumped down on the floor as she shook and cried her heart’s desire. Jessica laid there on the cold living room floor crying her eyes out from all of the pain and misery that has been cruelly bestowed upon her.


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A/N: And thus the drama begins! Dun, dun, dun! Clearly they love each other, but what will Taeyeon do? Will she succumb to her guilty conscious or will she heed Yoona's advice? Although there was a bit of a drama at the end, I still hoped you guys enjoyed the little Taengsic interactions. But don't worry, it won't end there, though there will be more drama ahead. I didn't plan on including a Yoonhyun moment in this chappie, but then the opportunity arose and I thought, 'might as well!' Lol. I hope you enjoyed this chapter!

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I wanted to share a drawing that I did of Taeyeon! I did this a couple of months back when Girls' Generation came here to NY. I tried to give it to Taeyeon but she didin't take it. So sad :( I gave it to SNSD's stylist and asked her to pass it on to her. IDK if she ever did. Hopefully she did. Anyway here it is! =]