"The steak's quite good," Kim seonsaeng said.

Lee-seonsaeng nodded in agreement.

"It's really good, isn't it?" Baek-seonsaengnim's wife, Oh Ye Jin sangmoonim* added.

'"The men are way too busy indulging themselves in drinks to appreciate this."

I looked over to the bar area where all the guys were hanging out.

"So much for a date," Lee-seonsaeng sighed abouot her husband.

They all laughed.

"Aren't you happy that the ever-so sensible Yoon-seonsaeng is your date tonight, Seo-seonsaeng?" Lee-seonsaeng nudged with a wink.

Sangmoonim and Kim-seonsaeng giggled.

I could only force a half-hearted excuse for a smile.

"But guys like Yoon-seonsaeng are definitely not my type.

They tend to overthink things and are just plain boring.

I prefer go-with-the-flow guys like my husband," Lee-seonsaeng found herself laughing.

"Like Cho-seonsaeng," Kim-seonsaeng gushed.

I swear, if she speaks one more time about my husband like tha-----

Wait, what am I saying?

I caught myself before overreacting again.

What right do I have to overreact anyways?

It's not like he's mine anymore.

It's not like we're still married.

It's not like...

It's not like I'm still in-love with him.

Why is it suddenly getting hot in here?

I fanned myself using my left hand as I held my drink on the other.

I took a sip before putting it back down on the table.

I took long deep breaths to calm myself.

I cupped my face with my hands.

My face was so hot.

I must be so red right now.

"Stop it, you two.

Look, Seo-seonsaeng's blushing!" Sangmoonim giggled.

"What?

Oh, not at all," I stammered.

She laughed.

"I think there's no problem with a guy like Yoon-seonsaeng.

He's very desirable, that's for sure.

Not only is he good-looking.

He's focussed, intelligent, a brilliant doctor, knows what he wants and does everything he can to grab it and hold onto it.

That kind of guy's a keeper," she said.

Sangmoonim turned to me with a smile.

"You're doing great, Seo-seonsaengnim.

Keep this up and you're sure to be walking down the aisle in no time," she gushed.

Kim-sensaeng and Lee-seonsaeng both giggled like highschool girls.

"What?

It's just one date..." I muttered.

"Hey, are you okay?"

I looked up.

Yoon-seonsaeng was leaning down towards me.

He was holding a plateful of foods.

I turned around to look at them.

They were all giving me meaningful looks.

I could only sigh.

"Uhm, yeah," I forced a smile.

He looked convinced.

He put the plate down on my table.

"I got these for you," he said.

"Thanks," I said.

He gave me a heart-warming smile.

I smiled back.

"Look, it's Cho-seonsaeng," Lee-seonsaeng whispered.

Without thinking, I turned around to face the entry door of the resturant.

He walked in, as dashing as always in his semi-formal wear.

He had his bright smile on as he gretted Baek-seonsaengnim and the others that, for a second there, made  my heart skip a beat.

And then I turned to look at the person on his arm.

A tall, slender and pretty girl was smiling away, obviously glad to be seen with him.

Her hair just touched her shoulders and obviously looked like she was brought up with a silverspoon in .

Just like Kyuhyun.

He suddenly turned to my direction, and his smile began to fade.

I...couldn't even force a smile.

"What an entry," Kim-seonsaeng whooped.

I snapped out of it, even though his eyes were still on me.

"You wanna go get some fresh air?" he asked.

I hesitated for a while.

"You know what, I think I wanna go with you," I muttered, getting up hurriedly.

He looked happy when I said that.

He helped me up as I excused myself from everyone.

We walked together to the balcony of the restaurant.

The trees were all decorated with lights hanging on the branches.

The grass had  asingle pathway of cement that will lead you to seats.

I sat on one of the benches, overlooking the view of the Han River.

I breathed in the cold air.

It was so hot inside the restaurant that the cool gust of wind made me calm down.

I sighed.

A once-happily-married couple runs into each other at a restaurant with different partners in their arms.

It sounds so cliche and unrealistic.

That sorta stuff only happens in dramas, right?

I laughed to myself softly.

I never would've thought it'd come to this.

"What's wrong?"

I didn't notice Yoon-seonsaeng was sitting right next to me all this time.

"Nothing.

I just suddenly remembered something really funny," I smiled, half-heartedly.

"Really?" he said.

I looked at him since it sounded like he wanted to say more.

"Because you look like someone who just saw something they didn't want to see," he added.

I just looked away.

How pathetic.

I couldn't even bring myself to deny it.

He laughed nervously under his breath.

"Sorry, I shouldn't have said that," he apologised.

I just smiled crookedly, still looking out into the waters.

"You're right," I said.

"I thought I'd be okay, but then I suddenly realised that it was something I definitely and absolutely didn't want to see."

I turned to face him, who was already looking at me.

"Feeling that way means I still care.

And caring means that I...lose." I muttered.

I still care for him.

I can't deny that anymore.

But then again, that's only normal.

A short two years definitely can't erase a decade of memories.

It's only normal to still have lingering feelings.

But with given time, I know I can get rid of it.

"No it doesn't," Yoon-seonsaeng suddenly spoke.

"How can caring mean that you lose?

This only proves that you're strong.

Your feelings are strong.

I don't think it's right to consider that losing," he said.

He suddenly...made me smile.

Genuinely.

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*sangmoonim -  means 'madam'

(A/N) I was reading all of my lovely subs' comments and I could tell you guys are completely hating on Kyu! >_<

All I can say right now is that I haven't written anything on Kyu's point of view yet, so please try to keep your minds open :) :)

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