THE CASSANOVA'S TEARS

I survived the night. Well atleast, i managed to smile, to laugh and to act that I'm happy infront of them when the truth is not

I really wanna jump earlier in the rooftop because of what i did. I want to end this already. It's enough. It's hard. I don't know how to face Yonghwa on the next couple of days

The next day, i woke up early because there's no use if i even force myself to sleep. My brain is the one who don't want me to sleep

I went down on our dinning room and i saw Mama Anne, tempering a coffee. I smiled. Maybe if there's something good happened to me ,that is when my Mama came home

"Oh ddal. You're awake already. Good Morning"

I went to her to kiss her "Good Morning too Mama"

"How's your sleep? Why is your Eyes are so puffed?"

"Ah this. B-because i slept late last night reading a novel. It's so sad that i cried"

"Eeii you should sleep early, college is so stressful. You need energy. Oh! Here's a Hot Chocolate. I know that you're not drinking Coffee"

I hugged her "thank you Mama"

She rubbed my head "you're welcome Juhyun. You've grown up so much. You're so pretty. Maybe you have many wooer uh?"

"Ei Mama~ no one"

"Hahaha but juhyun. If you have someone you like, don't be shy to open up to me huh?"

I smiled at her "sure. thank you Mama"

"For what?"

"For everything. Though we're not your Real Children. You treat us like really Yours"

"Aww Ddal. Ofcourse, i love you all. And i promised that to your mother, that i will take care of you like my own"

"You know our Mother?"

"Hmm yes. And you know what? She is the most beautiful, most kind and most intelligent Woman i've ever met. You're same with her Juhyun"

I smiled again. My real mother, i only see her in picture. I don't remember what she is in personal but even though, i still love her too. Same with my love to Mama Anne

Maybe, we're lucky that Appa found a woman who will love us too like her her real children. We're lucky that Mama Anne stand as our Mother

I already went to school late because i wash Tofu. That's what i'm doing whenever i'm depress, i'm taking my time to my dog

When i arrived at schhool, i saw Yonghwa there talking with Yoona and Wanhee

"Babes, Good Morning" he went to me and kissed my cheeks "i told them the Good News"

"R-really?" I tried my best to smile

"Hay Sis! What you did to Yonghwa was so Romantic! I'm going crazy" Wanhee said

"Right Seohyun. You're the best! hahaha" Yoona added

F A K E. What they are showing are all FAKE, like me. I can receive a Best Actress award Already.

"O-okay. We'll leave you two. Enjoy!" Yoona said then drag Wanhee away

But even if they are showing Fake, they can run to it. I hope me too

"Oh babes, your eyes are puffed again. Did you cry?"

I hugged Yonghwa "yes. I can't still believe that we're a couple now"

He hugged me back then kissed my forehead "me too babes. I can't almost sleep last night bevause i miss you. This feeling is so good. I hope this won't end"

Call me a cry baby now but i feel like my tears are going to drop anytime because of what Yonghwa said. It's so annoying. When do i still need to cry like this? I know it's too late to back out, but is there any other way for me to not hurt Yonghwa? Can that Mafia, just kill me?

It's so hard to protect something you know that you will hurt too

"Babes, let's go to your house. I will introduce myself to your family"

I suddenly let go to our hug "Huh? Ah b-babes n-not now"

"Why? Palli. I want us to be legal. Last night i call Dad to tell him we're together. He's teasing me. Please babes?"

"Uh hhmm.."

"Please?" He puppy eyed "your brother know me already. They have trust to me so no need to worry. Please babes please?"

Aigoo. I can't introduce him to them. How will i explain, if i did the Step10 already? It's so haaaard!

"Palli babes. Introduce me to them"

"O-okay. But now now. On friday, they are busy today"

"Yeheeyy. You said that uh?"

It's now or never on Friday,what lie  i will tell them.

"Babes, come with me today in the mall" yonghwa told me

"Why?"

"I want to buy your mom a gift. Didn't she just arrive? I should guve her a gift!"

I smiled to him. Why is he so sweet? I'm conscience again. Aiggoo

"Thank you babes" i told him

He put his arms to me "i love you Hyun"

"I love you too Yonghwa"

This is my second time telling him that Lie

The whole day Yonghwa is so sweet to me. He's shouting to everyone in our class that we're together. Maybe i really can receive a Best Actress Award already. I don't know if until when we will be going like this. I can't handle this anymore

After dimissal, Yonghwa get my hand bag quickly then hold my hand "let's go babes. I'm so excited to go in the mall. Let's buy your Mom a gift"

I tried to get my bag to him "yah! That's my bag. I can carry that. You look like a gay there you know?"

"Hahahaha it's okay. Just you don't be tired" he winked at me then he suddenly put his arms to me again

Aww God. Are you teasing me? Why this man need to love me?

"Yiiee you will admit now. It's not heavy" i told him and i still continue to get my bag from him that he don't want to give But in the end, i got it.

"Ei babes. You just fall in love to me, you already turn to a girl. Before, you are a lesbian nerd! You are using backpack not a handbag"

"Why, if that's my look until now, you will still love me?"

"I already love