January 18 2004, 22:00, Sunday 

After my unreasonableness yesterday,  (<-that word is so long...) I guess I should just consider myself happy because at least the answer wasn't anything like I expected. I'd had so many ideas, most of them with Yunho being Changmin's secret lover or something. I swear, all this love is making me insane. Literally.

I can't even spend thirty minutes straight without thinking about that hot-as- Yunho. Let alone 24 hours. I may as well just dress myself in a blouse and skirt and become a high school girl. Which, reminds me. 

MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING SOON. 

I shall finally turn eighteen and become a legal adult. I wonder if I'll get any presents? From Changmin? Yes. My sisters? Definitely. My parents? I have no idea. Yoochun and Junsu? Probably, I don't expect anything big, even a necklace or ring would do. Or a book. How about a camera? Okay, maybe not. Of all people though, the one I really want a present from is Yunho. 

I wonder if he'll even give me one. I doubt it. I don't care what he gives me, I will gladly accept it. And I know he is not stupid or crazy enough to give me something like a smelly sock. Him simply just giving me a present, is enough to make me happy for the whole day.

What present do I want from him? How about to be my boyfriend? Or maybe a kis- never mind, I'm getting too ahead of myself. Now excuse me while I go dump my face in a bucket of ice cold water so I can get rid of these images threatening to invade my mind. And also prevent Changmin from asking why my face is the colour of a firetruck.

Then again, there is always the option of having drea-

Shut.Up.