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“You really need help unpacking?”

Taeyeon brought me to her apartment and to her bedroom. Bedroom. Mind you. My excitement had gone up the roof. But then there’s an open luggage with messy stuff in the middle of the bedroom.

She lets my hand go and walks ahead of me while laughing. I stop and stand at the doorframe.

“No. I just want to take something for you.” She squats down beside her luggage and takes a package with neat wrapping. She walks back to me and hands me the package.

“Sorry I didn’t have time to walk around town to buy you something else.”

I read the name on the package, “Tokyo Banana?”

“They said it’s very delicious.”

I give her a smile, “Thank you.”

She smiles back at me.

“Oh, I almost forgot!”

She goes back to her luggage and rummage a little bit. I take a step inside her bedroom and look at my surrounding. No surprise, the furniture is also fancy. I stare at the bed. It’s big and looks fluffy. I wonder how the sheet would feel on my skin and of course my mind decides to think about ert stuff.

“Here it is!”

Taeyeon’s voice knocks me off my sensual imagination. She’s standing in front of me again, holding two cute keychains.

“I bought this on the airport also. But I got one for me too. So it’s a couple keychain.” She explains while handing me a pink keychain. She has the exact same keychain on her other hand.

Omg, she’s definitely the cutest!

I give her a kiss on her cheek, “Thanks, Taetae. I love it.”

She smiles, “You’re welcome.”

We end up watching bunch of movies while cuddling and she cooks dinner for me. It’s a perfect Saturday.

We’re eating ice cream for dessert on her couch when she suddenly asks me, “What do you like about me?”

“That’s random. Why you ask?”

She shrugs, “Just curious.” she her spoon and says cheekily, “I like you because you’re hot.”

I laugh, “Well I like you because you’re cute.”

She raises her eyebrows at me, “Cute? Really?”

I put my empty cup on the table, “Yes. You’re very cute. That’s actually my first impression of you.”

She puts her cup on the table next to mine and scoots closer to me, “So you like me just because I’m cute? No other reason?”  

“Nope.” I answers jokingly and she leans even closer to me.

“You don’t like my y side?” her face keeps getting closer to mine while she tries to make a y expression.  

I smile wider, “You don’t have a y side, Kim Taeyeon.”

She moves back a little bit. Oh no, did she doesn’t get that I’m joking?

I’m about to open my mouth when she smirks, “Well..... do you want to see my y side?”

Omo.

I don’t give an answer to that but instead I start kissing her and next thing I know, she’s under me. We’re making out on the couch and I know for sure this will lead to something else. I’m so going to get laid tonight.

As I start kissing her neck, her hands start to roam my back and they get lower, lower, and stop at my . My heartbeat starts to accelerate faster than ever.

She squeezes and-

All of a sudden, I feel a jolt of familiar fear surges through me. I gasp and stop kissing her in an instance. I sit up and move away from her.

She opens her eyes and sits up also.

“Hey, what’s wrong?” she asks breathlessly.

I breathe heavily. I’m not sure myself with my reaction but I feel scared. I look at Taeyeon. Disheveled hair, bruised lips, confused eyes.

She scoots closer and holds my hands, “Fany-ah, you’re trembling.”

I am? I look down at my hands and they do tremble.

“I.... I’m sorry. I don’t know what comes over me.” I look back at her. She seems worried.

“Did I do something wrong? You don’t like it when I touch your-”

“No, no! It’s not your fault. It’s just.....”

She’s rubbing circles on my knuckles, somehow soothing me a little bit.

“I don’t know why. But I felt scared all of a sudden.”

“Scared of what?”

“I...I...”

I stare at her. This person in front of me, staring back at me with gentle eyes. I adore her very much. Heck, I’m falling in love with her and I don’t want to lose her. That’s exactly it. I don’t want to lose her. That familiar fear is that. I fear of losing her.

That moment when she touched me there, it’s like a trigger had been pulled and this fear consumes me.

But I don’t know why the sudden fear. I mean, we’re okay and I want to make love to her. So why.......

I rake my brain and realize the last time I was intimate with someone was with my ex and she left right after.

I let go of her hands and cover my face. I want to curse loudly.

Subconsciously, I’m afraid it will happen again. I’m afraid Taeyeon will leave me after we make love.

Damn it. Damn her. Damn that Minseo.   

Taeyeon hugs me and whispers very gently, “Hey, whatever it is that scares you, please know that I will be here for you? I’ll help you get over that fear.”

I put my hands down and her eyes bore into mine.

“Taeyeon........ remember my ex?”

She raised her eyebrows, seemingly confused as to why I suddenly brought her up, “Yes?”

I clear my throat, “Well the last time I had was... with her and.. and...”

She widens her eyes and finishes my sentence, “She left you right after that.”

I look away from her but she touches my chin and tugs gently so I’m facing her again.

“I won’t leave you, Fany-ah. I’m not here to get into your pants. I’m here for the long run. I thought you knew that?”

“I do. I just......” I let out a sigh, “I don’t even know what happened with Minseo would traumatized me like this. I’m sorry, Taeyeon-ah.”

She moves her hand to cup my cheek, “No need to apologize. I understand. We all have pasts that could haunt us. I will wait for you and help you get over it.”

I feel like crying. She kisses my forehead and I swear she’s the most wonderful human being ever.

We hug for quiet some time until she finally breaks the silence by saying, “Stay over? I don’t want you to go home at this hour.”

I pull away a little bit to look at her and raise my eyebrows.

“We’ll just cuddle, I promise.” A gentle smile and I blush.

“I’m not thinking about that. But it’s not even 9 yet, Taetae.”

A pout and, “I know. But I missed you and I still want to see you.”

Ugh. Too cute, seriously.

“How about clothes?”

“You can use mine. I even have bunch of unused disposable underwear.”

Well of course I want to stay over at Kim Taeyeon’s abode, but this is fun, so I tease more, “Toothbrush?”

She grins toothily, “I steal new ones from the hotel in Japan.”

“Make up remover?”

She almost rolls her eyes now, “I have that.”

“Night cream? I have a specific night cream you know.”   

“You’re still the most beautiful girl in the universe without using your night cream for just one night.”

Okay, I admit defeat, “Such a sweet-talker.”

She chuckles, “So, yes? You’re staying over? I’ll even cook breakfast for you tomorrow morning.”

I feign a gasp, “Why didn’t you say that sooner? I’d say yes in a heartbeat.”

Her eyes lit up and she laughs, “It takes food to say yes, huh? I’ll lure you with it next time then.”

She pulls me again into her embrace while leaning back on the couch with a wide smile on her face. I couldn’t help to feel warm and fuzzy.    

I really don’t want to lose her.

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