I go straight to my girlfriend’s apartment complex. She’s not the neatest person in the planet, so maybe I can clean her apartment while waiting.

As I recalled, I’ve never surprised her before nor am I romantic towards her. I used to be a hopeless romantic with my ex fiancé. I sigh. That bastard ruined me.

I shouldn’t blame it on him though. Maybe I’m not in love with my girlfriend like I thought I am?

Oh sh- what am I thinking?! It’s our anniversary and I’m about to surprise her. It’s not the time to think such thoughts.

She’ll like my surprise for sure and everything will be alright again. Yep. That’s what going to happen.

I punch in the code to her apartment and step inside. Wow, it’s been too long I haven’t been here. I spent my college days bunking here and I can see she’s still as messy as ever. I chuckle, this makes me miss her so much. Her apartment is so familiar to me. She’s familiar to me. It’s almost like coming hom-

There’s a guy on the couch. Wearing nothing but his boxer.

All thoughts vanish from my mind as he looks at me wide-eyed. Suddenly a voice I know so well was heard,

“Babe, where did you throw my bra last night? I can’t find it anywh-”

She comes out from her room wearing a white shirt that’s definitely not hers and stops in her tracks as soon as our eyes met. 

It’s as if time stops and we just look at each other.

“Tae-..”

I snap out of it when she opens and I turn away, ready to get out from there. But she’s quick on her feet and grabs my arm.

“Taeyeon” 

I yank my arm harshly and hissed, “Don’t touch me.”

The last thing I see before I step out from her apartment was her guilty ridden face.

*

I stir the coffee in front of me. I went to my family home yesterday. My parents were surprised but happy nevertheless that their daughter came.

My ex girlfriend called me last night but I didn’t pick up She sent me a text also, but I didn’t reply.

I didn’t sleep much last night. I was thinking.

Why it doesn’t hurt that much?

Because I knew deep inside that it would happen anyway? She had many exes before she met me and I guess distance turn her into who she used to be. I was naïve to think our love can stand distance and everything else.

Is that the only reason? Because it’s expected?

Tiffany.

I heaved a sigh. My ex cheated on me, but maybe I was cheating on her too. I used to be so sad and frustrated because her behavior changes once I went away. But rather than talking to her about it, I found companionship from another woman. And that kiss........ I can’t deny I have the desire to kiss her back. So maybe yes, I cheated on my ex too. She might cheat on me physically, but I cheated on her mentally. 

We grow apart somewhere along the way and maybe we’re just not meant for each other.  

I woke up with a clear mind this morning and I agreed meeting her in a coffee shop near the station before I go back to the city.

She enters the coffee shop and I don’t know why but the first emotion I felt was anger. Flashes of scenario of what she did with that guy come to mind. I felt betray. She knows exactly what happen with my ex fiancé before her and she even help me forget him. But now, she did the same thing to me.

I’m not hurt, I’m angry.

She sees me and sits in front of me.  

“Taeyeon-ah, I’m sorry.”

Straight to the point, good.

“Why?” I stare at her eyes and she looks down in shame.

“I...... you’re not here and I got lonely.”

I scoff. I want to rage at her, but I keep my calm as best as I could.

She looks up at me again, “I don’t want to lose you. I still want to work this, us.”

I fold my arms and scoffs, “How about him?”

She fidgets, “He’s nothing. I don’t love him like I love you.”

I want to laugh. What I’ve seen last night clearly the opposite of that. She called him ‘Babe’. The exact same way she called me.

I shake my head, “I don’t believe that and even if I do, I still can’t believe you cheated on me.” I hissed. “After all we’ve been through, what I’ve been through. You know very well I hate cheaters and yet, it’s exactly how you end our relationship.”

“I didn’t plan it like this! I don’t even plan to end our relationship. It just happened one day and I..... can’t seem to stop. You know about my past too. I was never in a real relationship before you came. You changed me. And I..... when you’re gone, those... those old habits came back. But I know it’s wrong and I just...” tears starts to pool on her eyes, threatening to spill out any second, “Please, Taeyeon-ah. Forgive me?”

I close my eyes. We do have history together and she was always there when I need someone. But.... all of it, all that we have, all my love for her, vanished the moment I see what I saw last night.

“I don’t think I can forgive you for what you’ve done and I don’t want anything to do with you anymore.”

Tears stream down her face now and my hearts soften, my anger recedes. But I still think this relationship is not worth the fight anymore.              

She wipes her tears and I don’t know what else to say. So I stand up.

“I’m sorry. Goodbye.”

I walk out from the coffee shop hearing her sobs getting louder.

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