Update ! Sorry to have made you wait so long so maybe you should take a look back on the previous chapters to catch back with the story.

"Do you think I should give him another chance ?..  I know that I should not.. but why he is still forever here...in my heart.. I hate that" Jiyeon said with a trembling voice 

"Why don't you want him back?" The doctor asked her

"I've already told you what he have done to me no??? Do you think it's a simple thing to forgive and take him back?!" Jiyeon harshly replied 

"Do you want to forget him then?" The doctor asked but Jiyeon didn't replied, she just bit her lips and sighed 

"Have you heard his reasons? Did he tell you why he have done such things?" She added 

"Yes.. he said that he acted out of immaturity. I don't know if he has truly changed. I don't think I can trust him again." Jiyeon said 

"Hm. All I can say is that you have been hurt a lot and so that you have lost trust in people, you are afraid of judgement and you are lacking of confidence. I don't think you used to be this pessimistic before.. am I wrong?" The doctor said to which Jiyeon shed some tears 

"Do you feel lonely Jiyeon?" The doctor added, Jiyeon stared back at her with her teary eyes 

"Is it that why you have tried to give up on your life?" The doctor added again to make Jiyeon react as it was the first time ever that Jiyeon was conversing that lot with her. 

"Stop it. I don't want to talk about that." Jiyeon said with a cracking voice. Tears were still rolling down her checks. 

"Why? I know that it's a painful memory but we have to sort out why you did that to make you feel better. " the doctor said. After a moment of silent Jiyeon took a big breath and started her story. 

"I thought that.. that.. my life was useless to be live after have worked so hard to get where I was and lost it all just like that. There were no one around me but hateful words and mean people. There was not a single day without a hateful comment. Wherever I was... these stares.. these horrible curses.. I asked to myself "Am I really like that? Am I really that bad?" I couldn't found an answer, I was tired of all of that.. I just wanted to end this hell.. I'm not fine doctor. I'm not fine." Jiyeon sadly said while tearing up, the doctor was moved by her sad story but stayed professional and just patted her hands. 

"You are not alone. You just need to find these people who are truly there for you. Like for example your parents." The doctor said and Jiyeon agreed.

"I know that it's a bit hard for you now. But just try to open up to your entourage. You will know that you are not alone. Ok?" After that deep talk session with her doctor Jiyeon started to think differently. Her members were happy to see her being more joyful and dorky like before. How much they missed to be with their maknae. Her parents also were happy to see their daughter smiles back. 

"Okok Jiyeon it's your turn! Truth or dare!" Eunjung said. T-ara gathered together at Hyomin appartement to party between them. 

"Truth" Jiyeon said with a smile 

"Your latest big mistake ?" Soyeon asked 

"Two weeks ago... I.. I kissed a man" She answered lowly

"What?!! With who???? Where ?? When?!!" The girls were so shocked and bombarded Jiyeon with tone of questions

"Ah.... it's nothing..." Jiyeon said while staring at the floor

"Don't tell me it's Myungsoo....!" Hyomin exclamed. Jiyeon didn't answered and all the girls went WOW. 

"I thought you guys were over ????!" Eunjung said 

"It was just a kiss calm down.." Jiyeon said

"But.. I gotta admit I may still like him.... a bit.... " she added to which the members went WOW again

"You are crazy.. He had cheated on you!! You and all of us have witnessed it!!" Hyomin said 

"I know !!! I don't think I can forgive him but.. what to do.. I still feel something in my heart..  I hate it too!" Jiyeon exclaimed and the members didn't say anything they just sighed. 

"Indeed.. first love, forever a love.." Qri softly said 

"Call an ambulance right now !!!" The tall man yelled 

"Hyung what to do! He is so white.. does he still breath?!!" Sungyeol said, he was panicking    even their manager was in shock

"Myungsoo do you hear me ??? Myungsoo!! Stay awake!" His manager said