6 months have passed. Myungsoo and his group was doing so well. They were so busy. Their schedule were fully booked. No time to rest or to play. Myungsoo was climbing in popularity thanks to his role as an actor. He was starring in a lot of dramas and movies. He slowly forgot about Jiyeon. He got a lot better but his company was still pretty cautious about him.
T-ara went to Japan to do an album there. After that they came back to Korea to prepare their comeback even thought they were still the most hated group of the country.

"Myungsoo you haven't forgot right ?" His manager asked him
"What?" He lazily replied
"Your appointement this afternoon at 4pm?" He said
"Of course" he replied
"Alright, It's been so long since you haven't seen her so I'm sure you will feel better after seeing her" his manager said with a smirk
"Tsh" Myungsoo said with a smile
4pm, Myungsoo walked over a corridor, calmly with a bouquet of flowers and a peaceful smile. He was near the door when suddenly a familiar figure stepped out from that room. He stopped his step and looked over.
"Alright you did well today. Let's see you next week and don't forget to do your homework. Ok?" A woman's voice said from the room
"Yes. Goodbye." The woman in front of the door said and bowed. When she turned around Myungsoo got shocked. His heart started to beat fast. He quickly hide in a empty spot on his right.
"Jiyeon? Why?" He was very shocked. He waited a few second and walked toward the door.
"It's been a long time Myungsoo. How have you been?" The woman said while taking a sit in front of him
"I'm fine thanks you and you? Oh.. I got you these" He handed her the bouquet of flowers
"Thanks you. They are pretty" She smiled
"Why I'm feeling like you are not that fine? Is there something wrong ? Tell me" she said
"Hm.. who was the woman before me??" Myungsoo asked
"You know that I can't tell you that" she answered
"Wasn't it Park Jiyeon?" He added
"You know that I can't tell you these things so please.." She answered
"Doctor please I saw her. Why was she here????" Myungsoo said but the doctor didn't reply
"Is she alright??? No???" He added with an anxious looks. He thought that he forgot about her but to meet her after so long indeed made him feeling something deep inside.
"How have you been since the last time we met? Did you work on what we have said ? Do you remember what we have said?" The doctor asked while taking some note
"Yes. We said that I need to find some new hobby so that my mind won't remember. I did find hobby. I'm acting and taking photography. I've been feeling better. So now please tell me why was she here ???" Myungsoo replied with an uneasy feeling
"And why these hobbies out of all? Have you been feeling down lately?" She asked ignoring his question. Myungsoo got mad and stood up from the sit to leave.
"Myungsoo come back here. We haven't finish yet" she said
"PLEASE STOP IT I'M FEELING BETTER! ITS BEEN ALMOST A YEAR! IM FOLLOWING MY TREATMENT VERY WELL! I'M BEING CONSTANTLY WATCHING ON ! I AM FCKG FINE !" Myungsoo yelled at her
"See. You are not. And you know it." She calmly said to which Myungsoo clinched his fists
"Why have you chosen acting?" She asked
"Because... this feeling you have when you play a fictional character... I think it help me to freely express an unknown part of me. To be someone else and forgot that my life is not the same." He said calmly

"Alright. Do you still feel like you are not controling yourself? Like you are not the usual you?" She asked
"It's happen sometimes.. I hate that" he said
"Nothing else? No nausea, dizziness ??.." she added and he nodded.
"Ok. So for the next time let's do a check up to see how it's going on there.. " she said while pointing his head with a smile
"Don't worry. I'm sure it's going to be fine" she added to which he just smiled softly.


Myungsoo couldn't stop but to think of Jiyeon. Why was she here. He wanted to call her or to go to see her but he just couldn't. He was afraid. It was going to be the end of the year festivals anyway so he thought that he will meet her for sure. He was getting excited but also nervous.
On the other side Jiyeon was not doing fine. She was barely talking, eating and hanging out.  All she was doing was working, sleeping, and smoking. Her members were trying so hard to change her but it was in vein. After what she have done everyone was being cautious and paid more attention to her. She hated that. Therefore she was sent to the Doctor Jin to help her with her mental health. Yet even she found Jiyeon case a bit hard as she is really closed and doesn't talk a lot.
"Jiyeon you have to talk with me. Don't you want to feel better?" The doctor asked but Jiyeon ignored the question and looked away
"You know.. it's not because you lost a lot that it's over. It's over when you decided that it is over. So is it over for you?" The doctor added to make her react
"I don't know" she answered softly.
"Do you want it? To end it all and simply live like anyone ?" The doctor asked but Jiyeon didn't answered. Suddenly the door knocked and a nurse came in.
"Doctor here the document you have asked" she posed on the desk in front of Jiyeon eyes. Jiyeon looked at the file name and she read "Kim Myungsoo" she thought that it couldn't be him out of all Kim Myungsoo anyway.
"Ok Jiyeon it's over. See you next week." The doctor said and Jiyeon stood up from her sit. She opened the door and made 5 steps before stopping her move. Her eyes down caught on a pair of shoes right in front of her so she stopped. She slowly looked up, suddenly her eyes widened.
"Huh... hello" Myungsoo awkwardly said while waving at her. Jiyeon didn't say anything she just stared at him and blinked.
"So it was really you.. I saw you the last time but I was not sure" he added
"Why are you here?? Are you ok???" He asked with a shy voice
"Mind your own business." She harshly said and continued her way. She pushed the elevator button and went in. But she got surprised when Myungsoo quickly got in too. She stared at him fiercely before looking away. The door opened and she walked away toward an other door. Myungsoo followed her. They were now at the rooftop of the hospital. Jiyeon then lit on a cigarette.
"Smoking is bad for your health" Myungsoo said but Jiyeon didn't responded
"I heard for your group.. I'm sure it's not true.. let them talk.. They will forget about it soon" he added
"How do you even know if it's true or not?" She asked after taking a deep breath of smoke
"Because.. I know you aren't that bad" he simply said
"You are too class to bully someone. It's not your style" He added to which have worked as she let out smirk
"You know.. I wanted to tell you that I am sincerely sorry for the last time. I should not have cheated on you. I admit it is my fault. I was still immature and thought that I could have kept you with me while enjoying my youth at the same time. But I lost the most precious things that I had. You. And I regret a lot to have hurt you so much. I know you can't forgive me but please accept my apologies" he said while looking at her. She blinked twice and took a breath of smoke
"You are such a good spoker that's kinda annoying" she said while looking away. Myungsoo was taken back by Jiyeon change of attitude. She was smoking and even talking like she didn't give a things about anything anymore. He was very concern now after seeing her like that.

"I liked your last song. I bought the album. I would like to have your autograph one day." He said
"I knew it. You still a fan of me. " She said with a sarcastic voice
"Yeah maybe I'm a saesang who knows?" He replied with a annoying stare
"Don't stare at me like that" She said with a smirk
"Like what?" He said
"It's too obvious" she replied which he didn't understand and got confused
"Why ??? How am I staring at you?? Like what??? Yah you are so weird !" He said with a funny face which made Jiyeon laughed
"Why are you laughing ??" Myungsoo then said after seeing her bright smile again, he laughed along with her for a moment
"You are so pretty like that" He said out of the blue. Jiyeon stopped to laugh and looked away . Myungsoo got embarrased.
"I... I mean.. you.. well..." he couldn't find a proper words to say. Suddenly his phone rang, the doctor had been waiting for him for 20 minutes already so she called him.
"I have to go... but.. well.. I fell better to have seen you since so long" he said with a shy smile
"Hmm.. you've got older since the last time we met. Should I maybe call you Ajusshi now?" Jiyeon
"You better not !" He said while frowning his eyesbrows which made her laughed even more
"See! You looks so old !" She added
"Maybe can we exchange our numbers ??" He then asked but Jiyeon changed her face. She became silent.
"Maybe not..." he said after seeing her reaction. In fact Jiyeon wanted to take his number, however sudden flashback from that infamous night revelation where she finally caught him re appeared and her heart started to aches again. She couldn't forgive him. Never.
"I've accepted your apologies out of respect. But we won't ever be something anymore. You betrayed my trust. Therefore I will never forgive nor forget what you have done to me. Never." Jiyeon coldly said which had frozen Myungsoo for an instant. She then turned her back and started to walk away.
"I hate myself too.." Myungsoo whispered to himself. His mood was now down. He crawled down and started to cry.
"I hate you ! I hate you ! I hate you ! I hate you!!!" He yelled while hitting his head. Few seconds after his doctor rushed to the rooftop  along with nurses and tried to calm him down.

Hello new update! I hope you guys still enjoy my fic! I will try to update soon! Thxx ~~