I stuff the photo of Mina and 1,800 won into my pocket. As I glance at the clock I realize it’s already 6pm. I should ask him about this photo. I should ask why he acted like he didn’t know Mina. I should demand for an answer!

I walk out of the house without wearing a coat or proper shoes. As I step outside, I feel the cold air slap my face, but I’m too busy lost in my world, thinking about how Mina and 1,800 won could be together.

A million thoughts run through my head, but I can’t get a proper clear answer. Are they dating? Did they date? But, why did he lie to me? And why did she act like she didn’t know him…That’s why she asked so many questions about him, but why would she ask so many if she knew him?!

Nothing makes sense. Nothing!

I trudge down the main road and finally arrive at the bus stop. I’m wearing a thin shirt and long sweatpants. My shoes are slippers that expose my toes to the cold air. However, it isn’t the cold that’s bothering me. I couldn’t even care less if it were cold as Alaska right now.

I look around to see if 1,800 won arrived. I guess he hasn’t arrived yet.

I look up at the clock on the bus stop. 6:25pm.

I still don’t see him anywhere. I have so many questions and answers I want…

I take a sit next to this woman who’s crying her soul out. Doesn’t she feel embarrassed?! How can you cry so loudly in public?!

I take small glances at her and shake my head disapprovingly.

After a while, I glance down at my clock. 6:40pm.

…why is he so late? My mind is going crazy, but the only person who can help me is not here.  

“Do you know why I am crying?!!” Suddenly the woman next to me initiates a conversation with me.

Honestly, I’m not even a little interested because I don’t have the attention to give to her. I hope she would just continue crying.

However against my wishes she talks again. “This bastard dumped me on our 3rd year anniversary! Can you believe it? And what’s worse is that he didn’t even have the guts to say it to me directly. He e-mailed me. Not even a text message. Is he telling me that I’m not even worth the 70 won?!!”

I stand up to move away from her. She is clearly not in the rational mind.

I glance up at the clock and realize it’s already been an hour.

7:15pm…bastard. Why isn’t he coming?

7:30pm. Is he in an accident? Is there too much traffic. Oh my god…what if he got into an accident??!

8:10pm. Seriously…? What the …

8:45pm. Is he not coming…is he really not going to come? But, he didn’t even call…is he really sick or something? Please, just be safe!

9:05pm. I guess…time to go home…no, I’ll just stay for another 10 minutes. He might come soon. I might just miss him. What if I just leave, and he arrives. No, I’ll just wait. I realize only two people are at the bus stop now. A man who is on his phone, and me. I also see how dark the night has become. I’m still in my slippers and my thin shirt. But the hope that he might appear makes me stay here, standing.

9:30pm…9:35pm…

10:00pm…He might come. Just wait for him Jang Haena. He always came to your side. He will come. I know he will…I really know he will…

“Jang Haena.” Finally a voice enters the empty bus stop. “He isn’t coming.”

…Sehun sunbae…

A few months ago, I always imagined Sehun sunbae calling my name. I thought if he called my name once, the world would look beautiful. Today, I realize, the world looks dark even when he calls my name.

“Sunbae…” I whisper. My voice cracks as I feel hot emotions running through my veins.

He approaches me slowly.

“Let’s go home. You’re going to catch a cold.” He wraps his coat around my shoulders.

But I shake my head. I’m not going anywhere yet. What if 1,800 won comes?! I slowly push Sehun sunbae