Yoseob’s POV

“June 1, 2010. Windy.

Dear diary,

                 We had a break today. And I searched myself on naver.  I didn’t know that manager hyung revealed the photo of my abs online. I was so embarassed! I mean, it wasn’t as awesome as Joon hyung’s or Kiki’s… I look terrible next to them. But fans think differently from me. Apparently, many of them commented that they didn’t know cute, y and hotness could co-exist in someone. It's always nice to have people showering praises on you. And I’m flattered keke :P

I also searched on Ji Eun-ie. I linked to YouTube and found some UCCs uploaded by her back from her ‘Boo’ days. Awesome or what? :DDDD I watched it well. But for the fact that Cheondong was in it, I did something really bad. But I’m not really ashamed of myself. I felt it was what I had to do..!

I created 14 more accounts, on top of my original one, just to dislike all her covers. I wanted to go on creating 10,000,000 more accounts but I couldn’t come up with anymore names. Pluses, it was really troublesome when I needed to sign in and out of different accounts. After disliking, I was afraid the dislike number would drop, so I didn’t dare to delete all those spare accounts. I feel so mean now. I hope she will forgive me for my wrong-doings if she hears of it ):”

{Did you know? Yoseob really love searching

himself on the net during his free time!}

{Did you know? Naver = korean Google, with

market share of more than 70%.}

“June 3, 2010. Rainy.

Dear diary,

        The ‘top secret’ collaboration song that Ji Eun and Seulong hyung sang was released today morning, together with the teaser of the MV. I streamed it once it was out. It was nice and sweet and everything you could find in a good song. But it didn’t cheer me up very much. Not to mention the fun they seemed to be having while recording it ):

I’m currently tuning in to Chin Chin, since Doojoon and Ji Eun is on air now. I bet they’re going to play the song pretty soon. For the past 15 minutes, they’ve been talking about the song-writing and recording process – which I’m totally not interested in. And I heard they were going to perform this song on televised music shows too. But is there a need? I mean like. It’s only the theme song for ‘We Got Married’. You can just play it at the start of every episode or advertisement; there’s no need to bring it on stage right?

I’m becoming more and more moody nowadays. And I think it’s only going to worsen when the both of them starts performing it live. I shall off the radio and go to sleep once the song starts playing. I want to forget. The existence of that song, my feelings towards her, the jealousy i felt. Practically everything. It’s funny how a song and a conversation over the radio can make me feel this bad.”

“June 6, 2010. Windy.

Dear diary,

        We went for 2 day 1 night’s outdoor recording today. We got to meet fans, play games and try the flying fox. It was fun! But nothing beats the fun of our fan meeting in the evening. We celebrated Dongwoonie’s birthday and cut his cake in the presence of the fans.

I really hope we could all spend our birthday like this every year and our fans would be with us every celebration. Hopefully they wouldn’t change their minds and will continue to love us even after we get girlfriends or when we get a little older… But the cruel fact is that nothing lasts forever. I could only hope it lasts a little longer than what I expected. I haven’t had enough of the taste of success yet.”

“June 20, 2010. Sunny.

Dear diary,

        I’m back from Philippines! I haven’t written on you for a long long time! Did you miss me!?! You’d better! Cos my hands were itching to scribble on you and I was thinking about you all the time while I’m on the plane. Although it was partially because I have nothing to do so my thoughts wandered keke.

Anyway, I didn’t realise we had so many fans in Philippines. We even had fanboys! How awesome! Or in another point of view, freaky xD I heard many of them travelled from all over Philippines to Manila to watch our showcase. Also, I received a few hand-made presents from many of them. Happy! :DDDD

After Doojoon landed, he kept holding on to his phone and kept typing. I asked what he was doing cos it doesn’t seem like he’s texting.. He told me it’s something called Twitter. He says you could write and post things on it. But since I had you to write on, I didn’t think it was necessary. I’ll temporarily keep it at bay since it seems a little addictive. I've got no time for those now. We have to go around Asia for our showcases in different countries.

Speaking of that reminds me. I've been so busy and hurt that I haven't contacted Ji Eun for a long long time. So long that even I forgot when was the last time I heard her voice or received her message. Did she forget about me after having a collaboration with Seulong hyung? I wanted to trust that they weren't together. But what rights do I have to hope for that? I'm nobody to her.”

 [In Incheon airport]

[24th June, 2010]  

“BEEP BEEP YOU HAVE A NEW TEXT MESSAGE BEEP BEEP”

“Who could it be? People rarely text me. Only mummy and Ji Eun does… Could it be…” I checked my phone with lightning speed.

“AHHHHH YESSSSSS!” I yelled hysterically while throwing a victorious punch in the air.

It's Ji Eun! She took the initiative to text me! She didn't forget about me after all! :DDDDD

“Yah! Yang Yoseob! We’re in public. Mind your actions” Junhyung chided.

Ignoring him, I went back to my phone.

From: Ji Eun☆

Oppa! How are you doing? I haven’t heard from you for quite a while! Have you been busy? Did you listen to my collaboration song with Seulong oppa? ^^

From: Seobbie Oppa ♥

I’m fine ^^ And of course I did! How could I miss out our Ji Eun-ie’s song? I streamed it once it was out. It’s pretty awesome :DDD

From: Ji Eun☆

Thanks! I helped in writing the song too ^^ Anyway, how’s Doojoon oppa? I haven’t seen him around ever since we ended our temporary DJ duties (:

From: Seobbie Oppa ♥

He’s busy as usual… We just came back from Philippines a few days ago. And now we’re almost boarding the plane to Singapore for our showcase. We won’t be coming back till our Malaysia showcase ends on the 26th.

From: Ji Eun☆

So I wouldn’t be able to see you for a while? I was hoping we could meet up for ice cream or something since I had been craving for something sweet recently… ):

From: Seobbie Oppa ♥

I’ll be back soon. Since I have a OST recording on the 28th ;)

From: Ji Eun☆

What OST oppa? :DDDD

From: Seobbie Oppa ♥

I’ll be recording Happy Birthday for ‘More Charming By the Days’ OST, since Doojoon hyung is acting in that show. Just hold on a bit, Ji Eun-ah. I’ll treat you to ice-cream once I’m back ^^

From: Ji Eun☆

Hurry back. I don’t like waiting :P

From: Seobbie Oppa ♥

Of course I will. Anyway, it’s about time to board, I’ll be switching off my phone now. DON’T FORGET TO MISS ME! :P  

At least we texted before I left the country. I have a good feeling about the Asia showcase tour. Everything is going to be fine. I’ve got my motivation and drive back. FIGHTING! :DDDD 

“June 28, 2010. Drizzling. Perfect weather for falling asleep.

Dear diary,

        I’m back from Singapore and Malaysia! I hope you haven’t got used to me leaving you so frequently. Well, I didn’t want to. But I had to. Please understand me buddy :DDDD Let me tell you a secret! Singapore was really pretty and modern! It was a little like Seoul. But a bit greener and a lot warmer! There were grass, trees, and flowers everywhere. And the air there in the morning is much fresher than in Seoul – until all the cars start coming out! *cough cough*

It was a nice experience except for one thing. Everyone who was there spoke English and we had a rather hard time with our limited vocab. We tried Chili crabs and fell in love with them. IT WAS AWESOME! I wished we could visit again. Maybe for promotion purposes. Or better still, for vacation~ :DDDD I have nothing to say about Malaysia. It’s just big. Very, very big! So big that we almost got lost when we got separated from our tour guide :O

Anyway, I just recorded ‘Happy Birthday’ today, in support of Doojoon’s casting in that sitcom ^^ And after the recording, I wanted to meet Ji Eun-ie, but she said I should rest. I think I’ll listen to her. Well, I’m tired already so bye. Talk to you again another time :DDDD”

“June 29, 2010. Sunny

Dear diary,

        It’s my cutie dongsaeng’s birthday today. I brought along Doojoon, Ji Eun and her friends to celebrate it for Dongho. He always complained of being lonely because he debuted at a young age and didn’t have many friends in school celebrating his birthday for him. I’m glad I made him more friends. He knew Ji Eun, Luna and Jiyeon but they weren’t close.

It was a nice day. But it was embarassing as well when I had to reveal my abs ): Hopefully, Ji Eun didn’t mind me exposing myself. I was sort of glad that we didn’t go to the haunted house and I was strong enough to withstand only T express. Luckily, I didn’t show her the weak and useless side of me.

I’m keeping the animal ears. Ji Eun and mine were the only matching ones. And she’s got my shirt. I hope she’ll keep it. Like how she kept my heart with her.

P.S. 이제내가당신을정말사랑하고, 넌알지?”