This is it.

This is really is it, is it.

You can do it Yoona Im. What worse could happen?

You're just confessing.

It's not like you're going to die. You're just confessing.

Besides, It's Taengoo you're confessing to.

Taengoo, The one who was there for you when no one was.

"You can do it. Hwaiting" Yoona mumbled to herself before finally having the courage to knock at Taeyeon's unit.

"Yoongie! What's up?" She cheerfully asked me as she give me a space to enter her unit. "Unusual for you to knock. Usually, you would just barge inside my house"

"I- i have something to say"

"What is it?"

"Wow! You have chocolates! Can i have one?" I asked as i saw a chocolate and a boquet of rose at her table redirecting what i'm supposed to say

"It's okay since you know it too well that i'm not really a fan of it" She answered as a matter of fact. Not that she dislikes or hates it too. I guess she just doesn't have a sweet tooth.

"Don't mind if i do" I added taking the whole bar before sitting in her couch. The tv was on and playing some English movie

"But, What brings you here?" She asked the now occupying the couch beside me "Do you have a work related problem or something?"

"I just miss my taengoo. I can't visit you now? I'll tell umma"

"It's not that ... But, if its just work-related problem, can we talk about it tomorrow?" 

"I-i just have something to say .." I said as i scratch my nape. This is it. This is really is it is it. You can do it Yoong! Hwaiting!

"Tae-Tae, i'm done. It's a little small but it fitted" Said someone out of nowhere "Oh? Who is she? Is she Yoona?"

"Ye-yeah."

"Who is she, taengoo?" I asked Taeyeon as we both stand up to look at the girl. How come she knows me when i don't know her? Is she a cousin or something?

"Uhm Yoongie, She's Tiffany. My girlfriend" She grinned holding the girls hand who's wearing her shirt that i gave her for a present before

Girl ..

Girl ...

What?

"She's what?"

"Girlfriend Yoongie"

"Hi, I'm Tiffany" The girl said giving her hand to me

"H-Hi"

"You're cute" She gleed

"T-T-Tae ..I .. I'm going" I managed to say as i turn my back at them. I can't do it. I feel my heart breaking and my tears want to flow freely from my eyes. I don't want to be seen as weirdo to them

"Hey. You said you have something to say" Tae voiced out behind me

"I- I'll just tell you tomorrow"

"Are you sure?"

"Y-yeah, Tomorrow"

"Okay then."

"Nice to finally meet you Yoona"

"Likewise" I answered before leaving Taengoo's unit. As i walk out, the tears fell out of my eyes and i can feel something inside me is breaking. I didn't know that she already have someone. I thought that we can be. Turns out to be just thinking that way.

-

"Are you busy?" Quite unexpected but Jessica received that text from him

"No. Why?"

"I just wanted us to go out. That's, if you're available to go?"

"Sure am. Where?"

"Just wait. I'll fetch you in a jiffy"

"Okay i'll wait" Jessica replied back before changing her clothes

"How have you been?" He asked as they settled in their place 

"I'm fine. My comeback stage would be in 2 days time so i'm rehearsing rehearsing and rehearsing the past few days. It's great and i love it. How about you?"

"I'm fine too. I don't have a schedule as we're already done filming" He grinned before having a bite on his meal

"But Yong .."

"Hmm?" He hummed still chewing

"I was watching your show recently while on my vacant time"

"That's great babe. Thanks for supporting"

"Not really that ..."

"Then?"

"I saw that you went with her to the aquarium."

"I was forced to. We were being filmed so i can't back out"

"Funny cause you don't even look like you're the least comfortable with it"

"Look, Don't be jealous. Let's just go there some other time" Yonghwa said holding Jessica's hand

"I don't want to go there anymore. It doesn't hold any meaning behind"

"I want to go with you. Won't you like it? I would be comfortably taking a stroll as we view different fishes out there"

"I said i don't like it anymore"

"I didn't do that to make you jealous"

"Well it did. You should've thought about that before actually going there all smiles like you don't feel sorry"

"You said that you're fine with it. You  said you're not that jealous so why are we arguing about that now?" Yonghwa uses his fingers to run invisible lines in his brows. A hobby he has since little which means that he's controlling his temper

"I'm going. Let's talk when you're not angry and is willing to understand more the situation." Jessica pulled out her hand from his hold and grabbed her bag and ready to leave

"Hey, I'm not mad, alright?" He held Jessica's wrist still sitting in his position

"That didn't make the situation any better. You're just making things worse by doing this."

He could only sigh as Jessica took her leave.

-

"So much for having dinner" Jessica thought as she bought a cup of ramen at a convinience store that she saw. She settled herself on the vacant table outside "If he's mad, why can't he just say it? Why does he have to make it more complicated? It's only pissing me more"

"I didn't know that you're having a recording alone"

"Oh? Yewna?"

"Shouldn't you be resting and preparing for tomorrow?"

"Change of plans. I don't feel like rehearsing tomorrow"

Yoona sighed slumping at the stool infront of Jessica "I don't think i could go to work either.."

"Do you want to hear a story?" Jessica asked that seemed to catch the attention of Yoona

"Do you want to drink?"

"Soda or milk will do. But beer is definitely no. Do you want unnie to kill me?" Yoona stood up and went inside the convinience store to buy 2 cans of soda "What story?"

"Wait. Let me eat first. I'm so hungry that i thought i hadn't ate for months"

"Where have you been and why were you here in the first place?"

"So the story goes like this,  I thought i'll be having my mood be cheered up but turned out the vice versa. My mood only got worse as it is. And i feel like i'm still hungry despite having a meal already." She started after she finished chewing 

"So you're out huh. With Sunny?"

"Not with Sunny. Why would i hang out at this time with a person who have a family. I'm not as mean as you thought"

"Okay, and what happened?"

"So yeah, i kinda ended up here for some ramen. I guess it's more of a hobby."

"Hobby?"

"Hmm. My sister and i used to eat ramens when we feel something is wrong or is something bothering us"

"Ohhh. So that's why you were talking to yourself" Yoona opened the can of soda for Jessica after opening hers

"How about you? Rough day? I didn't make things hard for you today. Just bored you haha"

"Do you want to hear a story?"

"I'm all ears"

"Really?"

"Happiness is doubled when shared. Problem is half-solved when shared"

"So there's this someone i was going to confess to. I was going to tell her about my feelings. But i didn't know that she has someone too"

"Someone has a name"

"It's Taeyeon. I was going to confess to her. But i didn't know that she has Tiffany."

"Taeyeon? Kim Taeyeon?"

"Yeah. You know her?!" Yoona asked in shock making her eyes go big

"Yeah? Isn't she your boss?"

"OH MY GOD"

"Aren't you over-reacting? Why are you acting like i'm a 5yo who can't keep a secret?" Jessica asked putting down her chopsticks satistied with the ramen she ate

"I mean, How did you know her name? It's not mentioned once or twice"

"I easily get familiariazed with names, i guess? I even know the one who sells fish cake near the studio"

"Do they know you?"

"Some does, some doesn't. But i like it since they know me as someone who buys oftenly and not as Jessica who sings"

"But who did you have dinner with that is rude for not dropping you off at home?"

"Namja chingu"

"Namja chingu has a name"

"If i tell you, it's a secret, alright?"

"Why? Do you think that i got rejected just to brag it out?"

"It's, CNBlue's Yonghwa"

"Ohmygod. Seriously?"<