"Yeol ah...who the is that girl?", Kyungsoo whispered to his friend in a braek at the practice room. Chanyeol shook his head, "Dont ask". "I thought you were..you know..with Baek", Chanyeol sighed.

"I...I dont know anymore about that"

"Well duhh, you cheated on him"

"No, not that, I mean about being...gay", Kyungsoo made and "O" with his mouth.

"But..."

"Look...Ill tell you this, but please dont tell anybody", D.O noded. "Baek and I started because, he was a good friend and was very scared of Suho at that time and...maybe...it was because we were stuck together all the time and he was such a big support that I thought that...it was something that I dont know what it is now...I know I acted like a jerk and all that, to him and to all of you, but I really had to know...you know? Like, be with a girl again, I wanted to know if I could go back to...that", he sighed again.Kyungsoo understands perfectly but wonders...

"What do you mean he was a great support, for what?"

"He was the only one who really thought that I could be a leader, he encouraged me to it, he said things about me that I dont even think about myself. Even if he was hurting too, he stood there". Kyungsoo was getting a really bad vibes about this "support" thing and from Baekhyun in general, he doesnt know why, he doenst want to think badly about his friend.

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"So, how are you?", Jongdae asked.

"You want to rejoy too?"

"Oh please, drop the diva act with me"

"Sorry. Im mad at everything and everybody, thats how I am"

"You didnt know nor suspected that he was cheating?"

"No, he had been distant but I thought it was because he was struggling with leader duty...", now he sounded sad. "Anyway you shouldnt be talking to me, they are gonna cast you away too"

"Dont say that, Suho hyung tried to talk to you yesterday and Tao is worried too, we love you. I never stoped supporting you, you know that"

"I dont really want Suho anywhere near me...and Im sorry again, Im just angry. I dont understand why nobody believes me, or us, I dont understand why the others changed their minds and mostly I cant understand what happend with Chanyeol, thats what hurts the most".

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To say that the first meeting post "Chanyeols Scandal" was awkward was an undestatment. Joonmyeon only spoke about schedules and asked about the members current activities, how they were doing, everyone but Baekhyun talked to him.They all noticed that Chanyeol didnt talk to Beakhyun. Suho was wondering when did this group turn into such a mess. Later that night he texted Yifan about it.

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"I thought you were in love with him?"

"Yeah...". it was Chanyeols vague answer. "I dont know..."

"Did you broke up?", Yifan was starting to have troubles keeping his cool with Chanyeol lately.

"I guess...he is not talking to me so..."

"You didnt explained? Apologized? Something?"

"No..I apologized with everyone already"

"But he wasnt suposed to be 'everybody'"

"I know, but I dont feel like to apologise to him...I needed to do what I did ...for me", Yifan noded in understanding.

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Its true that Baekhyun had been...shady, to say teast, these days, but theres one (other) true thing about him: he is in love with Chanyeol.

From day one, Chanyeol had been the one to welcome him, Joonmyeon ha been the diplomatic one keeping an study distance at first, Kyungsoo had been the onte to not give a care and Jongin and Sehun had been the respectfully shy ones. But Chanyeol had been himself, honest, upfront, true. The qualities of a real man in the body of a boy barelly out of his teens.

They became instant friends, but Baekhyun knew, just knew there was more to it. The days passed, the promostions started, he had to learn so many things and forget some that he already knew. It was hard and sometimes sad, and in all the times Chanyeol had been there.

He was the first and the only one up until this day that believed Baekhyun from the begining, when he felt pressed over Joonmyeons attentions, when he felt wronged by their own leader, he saw him cry when Suho called him a and he dryed his tears.

There had been so much drama that he never really got the chance to tell Chanyeol that he loved him, truly and honestly...now he guesses the chance is lost.

Why had he been soo into this master plan of his? Why wasnt he enjoying any of his idol life? Why couldnt Chanyeol love him back?

Stupid. Conffusing, Useless. He must carry on, he just must.