Okay, so I haven't updated as much as usually, sorry! It's only a little update too... I feel so bad! But I've just started working in a new place and did 60 hours work this week... I'm so tired :( But I made sure to update even if it's a little... since I will be back to work tomorrow! It's hard working and studying at the same time-- UGH MENBONG~~ anyway enjoy what little Tao hugging and Xiumin scoffing you can!               I smile as Lay holds me in his arms, we're in a large quiet field... alone and in love. He kisses my forehead and sighs to me. "Jung Eunjoo, Miss Jung Eunjoo-- How much do you love me?"    He looks into my eyes and I reply to him. "This much?" With an inch between my thumb and index finger.    He pouts and puts his forhead to mine. "That's not nice, at all."    "Okay..." I giggle moving back from him for more room, I take the palm of his hand and draw a figure of 8. "This much?"    He smiles and takes my hand in his. "Thank you for loving me Eunjoo."    I smile back to him and kiss his lips lightly. "Thank you for accepting my confession."   He holds me tight and I close my eyes taking in all the scents and sounds. The scent falling off his body, the sound of his breathing steadying out as if he's comfortable. A smile stays content on my lips, until I feel like he's not holding me anymore. I open my eyes and see that I'm now alone sat in the ever green grass. I look around, there's nothing. This large field that was completely empty except us two, was now empty except me. I stand and turn on the spot trying to reach every inch of the field with my sight...    "Yixing!" I call out.    There's no sound.   "Yixing!" I call once more.    I start to panic, he can't leave me... not like this. I can't be without him... I run and run to each corner of the field only to confirm my fear, that I'm really alone here. He's gone... I feel tears fall from my eyes. Where did he go? Why did he leave me? I feel lost and faint, then when I fall to the ground... my eyes open and I'm in my bed. It was all a dream...    I sit up and feel the sweat dripping down my face. I wipe it off and see Kris asleep on the floor next to my bed. I feel terrible towards him too, he now probably hates one of his friends... because of me. "Kris..." I whisper.    He sturs and turns over to face me. Still asleep. He's really handsome and sweet and--- too nice. If only I moved next-door to him, fell for him... loved him. I really wish I never met Yixing, wish that he could have lived on as 'Play-Lay' married Momo and continued his life without me. "Eunjoo-ah, are you feeling okay?"    I look back to Kris and see he's sat up with a worried look. "I'm fine... it must be uncomfortable on the floor, sleep here. I'll go sleep in my Omma's bed." I go to get up and he kneels infront of me.    "Eunjoo, I know I'm not Lay but--- I hope you can finally try to move on now that he's engaged. I don't want to force you to love me, because I know I can't."    I'm sat on the edge of my bed with my head hung. "I-"   He stops me and says. "Don't talk, I can't just give you up to him. Even if you don't love me... I won't let you be hurt by him."   I feel a bit better knowing he feels so strongly about me. "Thank you Kris. I'm sorry I can't--- I can't love you." I put my hand on his shoulder. "And thank you for earlier too, I know he's acting bad because he thinks it'll change things... I think he's as confused as I am."    "Can you stop defending him?"    I shake my head. "Not yet I can't, but I want him to explain himself. When he's not so... well what he was earlier."    "What if he says he's really going to marry Momo?"    I look out the window and see Lay's bedroom wi