I wake up, it's about 2... we've been asleep a while but I can't seem to close my eyes and continue to sleep. Why? Because something's stirring in my mind. 'I'll give up everything.' Why did that make me so happy and now so guilty? Suddenly I'm realising, I'm being selfish. I sit up and watch his arms fall limp off me, I see his perfectly sculpted face in the moonlight. "Luhan..." I whisper, he shifts but doesn't wake. So I lean over him and kiss his lips gently, but he feels it and kisses me back.    "What are you trying to do, attack me while I sleep?" He chuckles and wraps his arms around me. "What's wrong?"    I look at his sleepy face and kiss him again.    He smiles and opens his eyes looking at me. "Can't sleep? Need some Luhan loving?"    I nod. "I do."   "Don't tell me, perhaps did you change your mind?" He smirks and then turns his head as if he's getting comfortable.    I nod and say. "Yes. I have changed my mind."    He looks back at me quick. "You have?"    I nod once more and kiss him again.    "You're joking." He says shocked...    I kiss him more and he reacts by kissing me back and rolling me on my back getting on top of me. His hands roam from my neck down my shoulders to my waist. We don't talk no more, he just kisses me, from my lips to my jaw, from my jaw to my neck... then right down to my collarbone. He undoes my shirt and reveals my bra, I've already decided I'll do this, the moment I saw his sleeping face, so innocent, so cute. I wanted this.    "You're a too, right? Are you sure you want to do this?" He asks with eyes full of lust, but a voice full of compassion. "Because I can wait, it won't be long... I'll marry you as soon as I can."   I nod. "I love you." Then I look away, my face flushed. "I want this."   He smiles and takes off his shirt. "I love you too Dahae." Then he gets closer and whispers. "I really do."    Then he carries on caressing my body with his. Our clothes are gone within seconds and he's caressing me in a completely new way. It hurts at first, but slowly and softly he carries on and it becomes pure pleasure. There's a feeling of ecstasy and then a feeling of hurt, in my heart. I watch him as he holds me close and kisses my forehead.    "Thank you for staying with me