“Even in the future, the palms of these hands will be familiar
One day, because I know what to hold on to,
Even if all freedom is lost,
Such things as joy and sadness won't be controlled

To be loved
People can't go on living all alone
To be loved
Somebody stay by me”

Silently, I smile and cry to myself. It’s amazing how humans can be, always trying to hold onto what they care about. Truly, I guess I envy them for being so straight forward. They still have what they care about after all, even if it’s all fake. As for me, they betrayed me and then died. I have nothing left to hold onto and I have no intention of losing anything else.

There is that slight problem with my life, but otherwise, everything is fine. I don’t exactly want to live anyways. To me, it’s nearly completely worthless to stay alive. Death is a scene I’ve become used to, so who knows. Money is also useless if you think about it, causes people trouble, but is worth nothing as they die. I mean, people tend to actually argue over the money left by dead people. Luckily, I don’t have that problem.

Idols, it looks like they would have to care about those things. I wouldn’t believe that they only love what they do, even if they do, money Is still important to them. Now I’ve gotten off track. This group was AKB48, I’m never coming to watch them again. They don’t exactly , but their songs are just the opposite of what I need to be for these last 48 days of mine. 48, how ironic.

For some reason, I felt the eyes of one of the girls in the back, not performing, stare straight at me. Our eyes almost met, but that type of situation is reserved for the people that want it only. I’m not a wota, I don’t care about music, and I’m basically dead.