Experience is the best way to learn how to live your life, something that you might remember for the rest of your life, something that either it's too painful, too scary, too happy, too amazing, anything that is too much to handle, it's going to be embedded inside your mind and your heart.

(note :  this chapter took place before Krystal left Korea and just broke up with Minho) 

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Author's POV

Birds chirping softly as the sunlight seeps through the window blinds, it’s almost 11am. Soft painful groans escaped Minho’s mouth as he felt like his head just been hit by a concrete. He looks awful from top to bottom, everything is just messy, including his apartment that used to be so neat and clean. He winces as he massaged his head slowly in circular motion, trying to regain consciousness and remember what happened last night. His phone vibrates notifying a new message just came in, it’s from Chansung.

From : Chansung

Hey you passed out last night, so I told one of my employee to send you home safely. Hope you can feel better soon! Don’t worry about the bill for last night, it’s on the house.

Minho takes a deep breath and sigh as he tried to ease the pain in his head due to the hangover. He forced himself to walks to the kitchen counter and grab a glass of water, chugs it all in. He shakes his head slowly, trying to remember what exactly happened last night. A bitter chuckles came out from his mouth as he remembered that yesterday Krystal just dumped him. “Ah I thought I got a chance, but I guess I’m a loser from the start. What was I thinking back then, asking her out to be mine knowing that the facts she never looked at me for once” Minho murmured by himself as he takes another glass of water to drink aspirin.

Minho’s POV

Everything I know about love I learned from you, from you

and everything I know about pain I learned from you, you

You were my only, you were my first

You showed me lonely, and you took me in when I was hurt

But the most important thing you ever gave me

Was the one that hurt the most

Krystal Jung, a person that I’ve been in love for years, my first love. I’ve always captivated by you, ever since we met and introduce ourselves. The thought of being able to hold your hand already makes me so happy inside. I never felt like this before, only with you. But you choose her over me, my heart was broken into pieces. The way you look at her is exactly on how the way I want you to look at me, love. I’ve felt so alone knowing that you’re out from my grasps. Sure I’ve been with other girls afterwards, but I felt something is missing, it doesn't feels like how I feel about you. I tried, yet it’s not working. It’s only pain, after pain, after pain. I felt lonely, then one day I saw you from distance, walking towards me with your head hanging low. it's weird to see you not happy, because I know that she will makes you happy no matter what. you walk passed by me and I can hear small sobs escaped from your mouth, I can see Amber kneeling down crying from afar. That time I thought I finally got the chance to be close to you, to at least calling you my best friend. I am a bad person as well and I knew it, I took advantage over what happened between you and Amber, see if I'm lucky enough to get close to you. For the first time ever, you respond me more than just "ok" word. I was so happy that I finally got your attention. I braced myself to as you out after two years trying to get close to you, it was a long shot and I knew that. I confess to you and surprisingly, you accept my deep feelings for you. That was the best day in my life, I can finally call you mine after trying so hard to get you. I will use my chance to make you happy. You sometimes mistaken my favorites to hers, my liking to hers, that made me realized that you still love her. it's painful for me to keep on going with you but I still did it because I love you that much and I hope maybe someday you'll truly see me as who I am, not someone else. it's so painful that I have to create an illusion for myself, thinking that you actually care, you actually love me.

So thank you for the broken heart, oh yeah

And thank you for the permanent scar, oh

'Cause if it wasn't for you, I might forget

How it feels to let go, and how it feels to get a brand new start

So thank you for the broken heart

I let out a heavy sighs as lay myself on my couch, staring blankly on my ceiling, closing my eyes as I imagine about us. There are lots of happy memories that we have created for this few months of us being together, it's not that long but it was really memorable for me. Maybe you just want to try it out and see how things work, yet I can't help myself falling deeper for you and put my hopes up there. I will never forget this pain, this scar in my heart, I will remember it for the rest of my life. It's only because of you, Krystal Jung. I have to let you go, this foolish heart of mine should learn how to let you go, how to move on from you and start a new chapter of my life. Thank you for teaching me this valuable lesson, it's all worth the pain.

I still remember when you called

And said that he didn't mean anything

How could you expect me to look at you

The same way

I still remember the day you called me to pick you up at a restaurant, saying you were going out with your friend. I never thought that friend you were mentioning before was her. My pride took over me as I was trying to "show off" to her that you're now mine, kissing your lips in front of her, hugging you close to me, little did I know I can see that pain in her eyes, that same stare when she saw us the first time, but my pride takes over my mind. But that kiss felt different, you are happier than the usual, I can barely make you this happy but you just met her today after some time and your eyes sparks. I ask you about her and what's really going on, you said it was nothing, you were just meeting a friend and having a meal together. I want to confront further about it but I hold myself, I'm too scared to loose you at this point. But how can I just stand still when you look at her that way, your emotion changed as if someone just opened that one tiny box inside your heart that I can never reach because you never gave me the key, it was hers. It's so hard to keep going on with this, I can't help myself thinking that I'll loose you sooner or later. You already distancing yourself with me, you create thi